April 8th - Fuzzy Focus OK - so for those of you who read yesterday's entry you will know that  I went to a party last night.  A strange thing happened while I was there - I lost my focus on eating well.  By that I mean I ate more than I intended to.  Not a *huge* amount over, but nonetheless it wasn't in the plan.  In keeping with yesterday's entry therefore, I decided to sit down today and reflect on what happened last night to help me regain the focus that I lost last night. The first thing I realise is that I have become a bit complacent.  This is understandable given that my progress to date has been encouraging.  I am not anxious about food any more in the way that I was when I started, because I'm starting to trust myself to make predominantly good choices.  So my vigilance about what I was doing at the party was down. I made some obvious errors last night.  I was near the food table for most of the night - and we all know that that is the first rule about managing parties.  I also forgot to keep count of some of the stuff I was eating (marinated chicken wings was the main culprit).  Now I think I probably had about 5 or 6 but I'm not sure.  These scrumptious little suckers of course have the skin on them so that's quite point intensive. I ate without thinking while I was in conversation for much of the night - that is, my 'focus' was more on other aspects of the party, and I fell into auto-pilot habits about my eating.  The long and the short of it is that it's not too big a deal because I had points saved from other days and did a lot of walking yesterday. I'd also had a low point day up until the point when I went out.  But I'm actually glad it happened because this is a good wake up call for me to remember to plan a little better and to do a bit of surveillance when I get to a party.  Next time I go to a party, I will be very clear about how many points I have to spend, and put some focus at the beginning of the party into deciding how and if I'm going to spend them.  Then, having decided that, I can relax and enjoy things. Enough said - valuable learning experience.  On the good side, I did stop eating once I became aware of what was happening, and I only drank diet coke at the party.  I'm still a *long* way ahead of where I was just over three months ago.  Onward and downward... <<Back    Home    Next>>