So, some fairly momentous things have been happening over the past couple of weeks that are reminders of my progress to date. Yesterday, for the first time in a few years, I got wolf-whistled while walking along the street. There was also an accompanying (but fairly crude) comment on my breasts, which I have decided to take in the best possible light. The really funny thing is that I looked all around me to see if there was another female in the vicinity before I actually accepted that it might have been aimed at me. I then rang Flopsy on my mobile to tell him the good news, and he was suitably impressed. See, the thing about having that happen, is it means that it's not just people who knew me when I was overweight who are impressed with the way I look now - but someone who had never seen me before thought I looked good. That feels like a big deal to me.
The next thing is that last weekend I bought a pair of jeans a little bit too small (size 12 I might add). I fitted into them this morning, so I wore them into the city to do some shopping. Flopsy and I happened to go back into the same shop to get some jeans for him, and one of the sales assistants commented on how good they looked on me, and how well they fit. Now I'm sure that she knew they were from her shop etc, but nonetheless the comment wasn't necessary (since I had already bought them), and it was nice to feel admired. What felt really good though, was that I didn't feel self-conscious while having a pencil-thin sales assistant looking at my arse in a pair of jeans. I realise that I am feeling generally attractive and it's a great feeling. I also realise how much I took that feeling for granted before I got overweight, and I didn't have an appreciation of how difficult a task it is to shop when you are overweight. I did as little shopping as possible when my weight got really high.
Another thing that feels great to me, is reflecting back over my journal, and seeing that I've achieved some things that I talked about early on the piece. For example on January 22nd in my journal entry I listed the following things I was looking forward to:
My size 15 jeans
my leather jacket
my t-shirts
my low-cut tops
my summer dresses
my size 14 jeans!!
all the great lingerie I have sitting there going to waste
my little black dress
my size 13 jeans :)
I am happy to say that I now fit into all of these things - oh except my size 15 jeans which are now WAY too big!!!
Anyway, I know it sounds like I'm just showing off, but I really am full of glee about this stuff. What's more, is it is helping me feel motivated to keep going until I reach my goal weight. I'm sure it could be very easy to get complacent, but now is the time to keep my eye on the finish line...