Do You Feel the Same
Author's Notes: I don't own the characters of Weiss Kreuz nor the song Do you feel the same by Silverchair. I don't know how the song fits in the fic but there it is now. Also one thing, if there are some mistakes it's because English isn't my first language so please be gentle :). This is mostly Schuldig's POV
[...] lyrics
[Moon covered determined to find
To find my place of hiding
Try to detach, try to decrease
To make it easier on me
Despise myself for what you've done
Sent me back into my world
Hold yourself 'cause no one will
I'll make it easier]
Two days ago he kissed me. He really got me this time. I'm still a bit shocked but not because he did it but because I liked it, no I loved it. I love him. The worst thing is after kissing me he just walked away and haven't mentioned it since that. I can't believe after all these years I've tried to break his barrier of coldness, it suddenly happens and he wants me to just forget it. Damn you Bradley
Crawford...damn you.
[Now I have managed to be the one
To be the victim without the gun]
I wish I'd know how you feel. What do you think about this? Why can't you just talk to me...? Everyone else are like open books to me but nothing in their freaking little minds could interest me anymore. I just wish I could read yours... but your mind is like a locked diary and I can't break that lock. And you know that Brad, don't you? Of course you do.
[Do you feel the same anyway
Now you've come
Do you feel the same anyway
Now you've come]
Today he's leaving to USA. It's probably one of those stupid business trips. But I won't be seeing him for a two weeks. I bet after he comes back I'm being ignored more than ever. I can't see the future but I'm not stupid am I? I feel like a complete idiot. I can't stop thinking that maybe all that indifference and coldness was just a game to you. Were you playing at my cost Crawford? *Sigh* I hope you're very pleased with yourself now.
[Stay alert cause I'm obsessed
Surely I can't be depressed
Could I be read if I was see-through
Or would you just read my spine
Could I be read if I was see-through
Could I be read if I was see-through
Could I be read if I was see-through
Or would you just read my spine]
Schuldig sipped his coffee and continued staring out of the kitchen window. He didn't even notice when Nagi ran to the fridge.
"Morning Schuldig.", came the indefinite murmuring behind the fridge door.
"What?", Schuldig startled from his thoughts. He didn't hear Nagi's answer because Crawford suddenly appeared to the kitchen with a newspaper in his hand. He took a mug of coffee and sat down to read without paying any attention to the others. Schuldig just stared him with disbelief.
No "good mornings" or even hi. //He doesn't care at all....//
[Now I have managed to be the one
To be the victim without the gun
Do you feel the same anyway
Now you've come
Do you feel the same anyway
Feel the same
Now you've come
Do you feel the same anyway]
Why do I feel like crying? I won't. Not in front of him anyway. I don't believe that newspaper is so interesting Brad, just look at me once... please.
[Hold yourself 'cause no-one will
I'll be there to take the spill
Cleanse your soul, change the tide
And ride the wave back here to me]
"Umm Brad, I think..."
"It's Crawford to you", Brad said without looking up from the newspaper.
He sounded so cold again, but then again he always does. Though this time it was enough to make Schuldig cry. He had tried so hard not to but he couldn't anymore. Schuldig left the kitchen and ran to his room. Curling up to the bed he cried.
I hear the door slam. You probably left already. Can't miss the plane, can't you? At least now I know. Why should I even read your mind anymore? What else could there be than what I already know. You don't care about me, why did I even think you would... But I won't give up. That's not the Schuldig's way Brad. I can play this game too...
[Be the one
Without the gun
Do you feel the same anyway
Now you've come
Do you feel the same anyway
Now you've come
Do you feel the same
Feel the same
Now you've come
Do you feel the same anyway
Now you've come]
*OWARI* (continues in sequel)