I am originally from the west coast. I grew up in a small suburb of San Francisco. I was born the same year the Van Allen radiation belt was discovered. You figure it out. I had a more or less normal childhood, despite the incestuous incidences with my mother between 3 and 5 years old. I had a number of dolls when I was young, liked to dress G.I.Joe as a woman with my sister’s doll clothes. I always wondered why G.I.Joe didn’t have any genitals. I guess ‘Don’t ask, don’t tell’ was in effect back then. My first memory of crossdressing was about 8 years old. I LOVED it! It was an off and on thing until I went into High School. High School and puberty was more than I could handle. In this same time period, I realized how much I liked to have sex with boys, especially boys dressed as girls. Needless to say, it was a rather confusing time. After leaving H.S., I joined the Marines. My primary motivator was to get away from my home town. I did well in the Marines and never regret my time in service. During this time, I married my high school sweetheart…(awwwwww). About this time Kirsten started making her way to the surface again and my wife had a very tough time of it. I got out of the Marines, got divorced and proceeded to fall down a flight of stairs for 18 years.
In this time, I ended up with a bad substance abuse problem, another marriage, divorce, doing the clothing and makeup “binge-purge”, went to therapy, went to jail, was a closet gay and clinically depressed. I think that covers the salient points. About 3 years ago I decided to accept and welcome Kirsten into my life; she’s a very important part of me. I got honest with myself about my sexual preference; received treatment for my abuse and depression problems and life has become really nice!
I discovered that I am not a singular personality, but a fusion of many. I don’t have to faction with one in particular, but I do enjoy Kirsten. She’s outspoken, gregarious, flirtatious and has a very active libido. My primary male persona is quiet, shy, protective, a good friend, dependable and responsible. I love both aspects of my being: they are necessary for my emotional sanity. Kirsten does many things the male can’t and vice versa. According to my diagnosis, using the Benjamin standards, I am in between a Type III and a Type IV autogynephilic transvestic transsexual (from Transylvania). What throws a wrench into the works for the Docs, is not disliking my male persona. I have a dual, disassociated personality (their words, not mine.) That is the ‘clinical’ spin. The other therapist I work with was more concerned with self acceptance and self love because the only one who thought I was doing something wrong was me!
Well, that’s my story…and I’m sticking to it!!!!