“Hey son! Have you read your notes today? Hey, where are you going?! It’s already 10. Get back to bed!” Door slammed.

                Can you say “attitude”? All of you have been talking, writing about my posse … wait a minute – just a minute – and listen to the person who has any real stake in my life.

Listen!

Anything that has negative to do with my life, trying to tear me down, just let it pass & it’ll gonna be like that for the rest of your life…

I dress the way I wanna dress. I look the way I wanna look. People just don’t understand. Maybe generation gap would be more accepted a s a reason. Yet, I stayed the same – true to myself, true to those who have stayed true to me.

Doesn’t this mean something? I’m confident, not cocky. However unclear, I’m not trying to convince everybody. The truth is – whatever it is, I have to get it. And I’m willing therefore, to earn the stripes to have it.

Money. Power. Respect. Come on! It’s our world redefined! For some fat-assed man, it’s personified. You have to be on your own nowadays. This time, nobody has earned any trustworthiness. When someone says that no-man-is-an-island thing, think again. You have to survive, and like I say, “Yeah, I did it. And I did it on my own.” Ain’t that more satisfying? While young, I have to learn to do things on my own.

Everybody left me dead at some point of my life. I’m screwed sometimes. And life has taught me to all of a sudden that I’m now ready to return the favor. There’s always someone who pisses me off and those are the ones who don’t understand my game. They only bring out the best in me in the process. I consider them my greatest critics, my rival, however, my helper to see things in another whole lot better perspective. They’re just plain weak. Just weak-minded, they just throw shots at me. Sometimes I just laugh, it’s funny. The thing that hurts the most is when you’ve been there and you’ve proven yourself, then you have guys trying to pull you down and make you look bad.

So when I’m finally done, I’m gonna make a speech …..… in a nice way I will. It won’t be like, “I told you so!”, just to prove them wrong because I know what I have and God has given me the talent. But I’d tell them in a smooth way ………. “Kiss my ass!”

I do have mistakes in my life, I mean, like everybody else does. But I won’t be like Marty Blake making predictions only to find out the next day I am wrong. I’m not gonna be like that. I learn and I move on…

So what’s next? I’ve had my fair warning… but nobody’s gonna stop me from doing what I honestly know in my heart is right. It’s something that drives me, my will. I won’t give up any dime drop. I want to be the best in every facet of my being.

Great men lose countless battles, yet remained firm in their conviction – that of which made them sooner or later great… greater than they have never thought they could be. And when my time comes, I want to win the all. But when you can’t handle the competition, you are welcome to try out for some pep band.

Yet, there’s always a limit right? I’m not going to get up in the morning and not be able to look in the mirror and feel like I don’t deserve this kind of life. It isn’t fair sometimes – or for the most part at least, - those were my challenges… to strive to get another life worth every grain of salt that I lick. I want to get out of this ghetto. I’m tired. I want, not wish, a rags-to-riches kind of ending. Happily ever after. I’m gonna be like that. The problem for some people is that, they wish they can be like this or have this or that, instead of really doing it… working hard for it… earning it, the hard way.

I grow with pride, a self-proclaimed ego-feeding maniac. That’s how I am. I haven’t changed. I take pride of myself, of what I’ve accomplished. I don’t -----n’ care what they say. I don’t give a ---t who spits on my face and like, “He can’t do that. He’s never done that before.” Damn! And I’ll be like, “I’ve never done this before, so I’m gonna do it now and hell they!”

Life is best represented in school. It’s where the future lies. A place you’ve spent half of your life and the source of three-fourths your entire knowledge (the remaining one-fourth comes from extra-curriculars… my own rough estimate though, based on my own experience).

Guess man, isn’t it nice when you end up every night knowing you’ve gain more knowledge than what you already knew? And there’s a lot more. It’s my stepping stone, not stumbling block of achieving my ultimate goal – to be the best. Realistically speaking, it’s not gonna happen anytime soon.

But then again, who could’ve thought I’d be born … a simple baby with a future like this ahead of him… that I get the chance to be here. I’m blessed. I’m a lucky man. Education is filled with good times: love, peace, harmony. In other words, the stuffs that dreams are made of. Then I guess, when you’re out of the real world, you’ll gonna find out why…

Thank God, I’m wise!