Here I sit in my quiet room
Wondering what you are doing
Right this instant

Are you happy?
Are you thinking of me?

I close my eyes and get carried away.
I find myself on the beach
I watch the waves roll onto the shore

They remind me of you
The way you entered my life
Powerful, overwhelming
Beautiful, refreshing

I smile and imagine you being here with me
I feel your heart beat
Your breath. Your warmth

The sound of the ocean cradles me softly
So I close my eyes
And once again I get carried away

I start dreaming about the stars
And I imagine reaching for every single one of them
I reach and hold them tightly in my hands
So I won’t drop them

I want to give you one star for every smile you give me
One star for every time you hold me
One star for every kiss you place upon my lips
One star for every word you speak
One star for every heart beat you share with me

And once again I get carried away
This time I find myself in your arms
- And finally I’m home

The crying game
dying again
my soul has given up
my hearts beat has stopped
breathing ceases in my lungs
the sight of you is unimaginable
crazy feelings are ignited
you are the passion of the light
the passing of the days
an amazing kaleidoscope
of the beauty that is love

my soul is going crazy
my mind has gone to mush
every minute
every second
it's you I'm thinking of
if only you could love me
and hold me in your arms
sweet ecstasy ignites
dance with me
be my baby
our souls will intertwine

Your eyes are pools of passion
drowning me with love
see me
notice me
be with me
my every nerve jumps with electricity
your touch is invigorating
I crave your sweet taste
every moment without you
is a thousand days of torture
killing me slowly
quietly in secret

Down in the shadows where once I remained...
I dreamt me a dream without fear without shame,
it crept up behind me... I didn't sense it's approach
as so often the case when a dream carries hope.

It flashed in my mind... an instance is all... but
then darkness returned embracing my fall.
Though only a moment it had left it's mark...
a brief warmth that ruined the dankness... the dark.

Hurt and anger... pain... regret... the time for new hope
may not be yet. I cry... a whimper... a sigh a lost
moan... the darkness cares not if your cold and alone.

It thrives on your apathy... dines amidst dense decay
leaving no place in which a dreamers head it may lay.
It wants to devour, to strip all your dreams til nothing
remains... or so it would seem.

Though numb and weary I'll not bask in despair for
my dream is awaiting my presence out there. Once
I am finished with this turmoil and strife... I'll seek out
my dream... a bridge to new life.

Twin gemini freckles
Dotting your creamy skin

Sitting silent
Listening, from their post
On your earlobe

Peeking out seductive
From the V of your shirt
Making me swoon

Twin dancers
Doing the two step
Winding down your spine

Skin like a heavenly canvas
Freckles twinkle like stars
I lose count, kissing every one

My head spins with vertigo
As I kiss the two freckles
Smiling from your jaw
To steady myself.

I'll meet thee beyond the crescent moon... some starlit night 
not a moment too soon for our souls to mingle in dreamless 
flight... together again to our hearts' pure delight! 

And oh the rapture... the delirious pain of hearing your voice 
as you call me by name... a whisper so fleeting... hardly there 
at all.. yet my ear hears the echo of a familiar soul's call. 

Joyously I answer in kind... recognition blazing bright.. rivaling 
the evening stars even at their brightest height... the moon is full in sorrow 
like that of my tremulous smile... stay with me my 
dearest friend... if only for awhile. 

Pull me close against your heart 'til I feel it's lifesbeat flow... then 
ease me gently from your side when it's time for you to go... the 
ache is indescribable... the pain too much to bear... but the part 
of me the hurt can't touch... all your love lives there!

As if you breathed 
the stars 
all in 
and blew them soft 
into my ear 

As if you’re hand 
fell into mine 
my fingers 
warmed 
and loved to sleep 

As if my lies 
went into you 
no rush of lurch 
to bitter 
the exit 

still all through 
but gone so far 

now I can rest 
in the peace of love 
that I see you have left 
on the top of my darkness 

What if you house burnt down? 
What if you died a thousand horrible deaths? 
What if your baby sister never got to see your face 
Before the evil grip of death pulled her in? 
What if you enter a room of people you knew your entire life, 
But nobody knew your name? 
What if you pretend to be someone your not 
Until it is too late to see the real you? 
How do we know that this is our real life, 
Not one of practice? 
Nobody knows for sure 
Don't wait until it is too late, 
because... 
What if? 

She was born out of hardships and tears
Piled onto one soul all the hopes and fears.
Battling through mountains of doubt.
Pursuing and struggling past all the jeers.

Will this story turn out or
Just be a spinning of gears?

She is more than all the clout.
Born out of lives misfortunes.
Paving a new path that is clear.

How did all this come about?
Searching for things so near.
Born out hardships and tears

As the stars glisten,
And as the moonlight shines,
An angel is given it's wings.

The strength of a thousand souls,
A million hearts,
And an angel are joined as the stars glow.

People that walk upon an angel's path do not know where they tread, or why the night is so dark.

Is it so that angels can walk among us and not be noticed?

Is it so that they can move in mysterious ways?

Or, is it just so that they can watch over us and see when we cannot?

The memories are bittersweet 
passion mixed with pain, nights 
of endless questioning... tears 
mingling with rain. 

What was real I ask myself 
did we ever know? We tried 
so hard to turn away and let 
each other go. 

Yet, in the end it proved too 
much... we'd seek each other 
out...feeling angry at our weakness 
of this there was no doubt. 

We hungered for a simple touch 
a whisper in the night... holding 
onto one another this feeling 
felt so right. 

But I knew deep down inside this 
wasn't meant to be... afraid to speak 
the truth to you... you meant so much 
to me. 

Arms which longed to hold you 
lips which ached to kiss... limbs 
entwined so briefly in our secret 
lover's tryst.

Though angels often cross our paths 
in sight they are unseen, habitually 
we pass them by, yet yearn for them 
in dream. 

A dream is but a mystery we strife 
to comprehend... the morn destroys 
the memories the angel's seek to 
send. 

Forgotten are the sweetest words 
whispered in rapturous bliss... 
how we would grieve if we but knew 
the glory that we miss. 

Reality is solid-based... no time 
for fairy-tales... yet fantasy is what 
we seek when all else seems to 
fail. 

With softest touch of unfurled 
wings... selfless love is found... 
remembrance floods weary souls 
with ecstasy unbound. 

Love is the way I feel inside every time I think of you.
Memories of you imbedded in my heart.
Carved into the deepest corners of my soul.

The longing. 
Always there. 
Always haunting me like the ghost of a soul that’s not at rest. 

Time heals they say. 
What do they know? Those fools.
But are they really fools? 
Can you die because you love someone so much your heart can’t stand it? 

Love = pain
An equation not even a mathematician can explain.

So unexplained and yet one of the oldest feeling known to people.
So complicated and yet so easy to live even a child can do it.
So painful and yet everyone longs for it.

And you.
Are you an angel sent from heaven?
Are you Satan’s companion?

Will you catch me or let me fall to my death ?

So long. 
So long.
Why does the feeling never seize?
A decade filled with love.
A decade filled with pain.

Rescue me.
Save me from time.
Let me go back to that first day.
That first moment.
That first look.
And let me do it all over again.

The joy.
Unbelievable.
Unlimited.
Unmeasured.

Rescue me.
And let me do it all over again!

The wind whipped your hair around
And I almost didn't hear you say
That you love me too

The waves crashed at our feet
As you lit both of our cigarettes
Underneath your shirt
To block the strong, salty air

We sat in the damp sand together
And watched the clouds dance across the moon
You played with my hair
And gave me goosebumps again and again

When I took your hand
I saw the heart shaped bruise
High up on your inner arm
And knew I really was in love

All the words I always thought I needed
Left with the ebb and flow of the tide
And we sat in perfect silence for a while

Then you said to me
That no one had ever made you feel like this before
And I wished out loud
That no one would ever have the chance
To make you feel like this again

That this feeling would be our little secret
Shared only with the waves
And the sand
And the stars

And the ocean air
That stole the words out of my mouth
And whisked them away to the heavens

Where they belong.

You don't know this,
But sometimes I walk alone
Through the cold, dark night,
And I climb a hill just to sit and think of you. 
I watch what goes on below me,
A mask of lights upon the landscape;
Each person unaware of the other,
Secure in their own small world
Which reaches out and touches merely a few.
After all, what is life but an illusion,
A transcendence of reality?
And so I watch the spectacle below,
Each individual world becoming one under my watchful eye.
And your face appears before me,
An unreal, unreachable talisman.
Slowly the material fades,
The unimportant disappears;
I'm floating, contented,
Enveloped by the sweet elation
Usually so well hidden.

Memories of a forgotten past,
A tear rolls slowly down a face,
Out of reach, darkening as it falls 
To the crimson shade of blood.
A silent scream echoes in the emptiness,
Fading to nothing,
Forgotten in the darkness once again.
The light disappears,
Desperate fumbling,
Reaching blindly for something,
Anything to hold on to;
A cheap shot of vodka in the dark
To cushion the blow
Of yet another painful truth.
Pain, fear, regret;
The illusion shatters,
Ejecting random shards
To pierce, to cut, to kill.
The reality of broken logic
Now make-believe
Like a pornographic fairytale:
Once upon a time
Or twice put to death.

How are we different from animals? 
We learn, 
We teach, 
We die 

The struggle for survival; 
The struggle to fit in 
We're all the same 

Animals compete with other animals for food, 
To look the strongest; 
The bravest 

People compete with other people 
In looks, 
money, 
glamour 

Most people think we are better than animals, 
Just because the majority of us 
Don't scamper around naked; 
Desperately searching for food to feed our starving families 

That's how we started; 
Before all this useless technology started destroying the planet; 
Making survival for them more difficult 

We should be helping; 
Not destroying 
By eliminating them we are only eliminating ourselves 

How long until one species dies, 
Then another? 
How long until we're next? 

At least they'll die with dignity 
The dignity of working together until the end 
We'll die with greed; 
The greed of eliminating our own families 
In order to survive 

It's not something someone thinks about everyday, 
Well, 
It's never too late to start

The cover was lifted today
I fought the tears 
But lost the battle.
Seeing the stone didn’t make it any more believable
I kept expecting you to arrive
Mad that we’d started such an important occasion without you.

It’s barely been a year
but feels so much longer.
Your laugh and bracelets
Your hairstyle and chicken soup – 
I miss it all.

It shouldn’t have happened that way
Languishing in a 
Hospital Bed
Barely Understandable
Me trying to make meaningless small talk
While you slowly 
Died.