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| Appropriate Shadows by © chibilunacat Perhaps it's inappropriate- Perhaps I shouldn't say, But maybe it is because There is no other way. In a sheltered cove of memory- I can see a face, The look of pain and anguish, Of one who fell from grace. Never giving up a hope, A longing to be near- But avoiding company, For agony and fear. Love was not an option- For one who don't belong- Only in silence of patience, Do dreams sing sweet in song. Apparitions dancing daily In a quiet mind, Urging to continue hoping- And leaving fear behind. Kissing lips in fancy, Or embracing in a dream, Will it all be brought to life? Never, it may seem. But I hope it will someday, Romance in a jungle gym- Soul mates on a tire swing- Though chances may be slim. I can see the waters churning, The waves have begun to dance- Boats have lifted gently up, Tied by a line of chance. Desire springs from hopeful hearts- Feelings shared unknown, Shattered thoughts pervading silence, And all the cover's blown. Lying in bouts of insomnia- I dream of love so true, Wondering if it can cross the barrier, And finally come through. Measure in love what is unseen, And hold your hope up high. One day soon you'll have a chance- One day my angel will sigh. I feel things not understood- I write what I don't know- But if it comes, and it's in verse, I allow the ink to flow. I have waded a lonely abyss For oh so very long, And I have hungered for a taste Of words that inspire song. Madness drifted on in thought- And brought pretense my way, I've captured solitude in a jar- And it feeds on me, every day. I'm the passenger of a carnival ride, On a ticket I couldn't afford, And as it seems to never end- I consider what I have explored. I know soon it may be true- That I could find true love, But would jealousy surround it? And push with one great shove? I was never one for watching Gushy romance flicks, But I have hungered for love like that- Beyond the social clicks. How can one trip over yearning, Lusting, craving, and desire By never stretching out a hand Or foot, to test the fire? I have wandered for so long- Inside my fantasy, That I have wondered time to time If only my dreams will love me. It seems unfair and yet so close- That I must close my eyes, And I can see the visions vanish And haunt with reality I despise. But love is coming, this I know- For it must you see, And all the chains and bars that close- Will finally set me free. So perhaps it was inappropriate, And perhaps I shouldn't have said, But I think I needed to, Because it needed to be read. Terra Mae 12/17/2001 |