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against the current
by
© kanee_ok


exhausted from swimming against the current
cant keep my head above the water
constantly taking two steps forward and ten steps back
trying to remember why it was i ever thought i wanted to write
or why i thought it was ok to love
or think that my life-saving prayers and comforting hugs
would ever be ungrudgingly returned to me
what made me think i had a right to fly
when all i was ever supposed to do was cry
what made me think that to be more of me would be a good thing
too tired to fight the current
at least downstream is familiar
have already seen the scenery
know what to expect
and what not to hope for
and hopefully i can just tread water
until my feet touch the ground again