The
party on Saturday was mostly great. First we got together in Hansī
apartment and talked and listened to music and had fun. It was great to
meet those friends one last time before I go. The only downside of the
event was that when we went out to go to a bar or a nightclub we ended
up in a line to a nightclub where they apparently had a lot of VIP
guests who came and went while we stood in froze in the line. We never
got in actually. After getting to the door but still kept waiting for a
long time we didnīt really want to get in there anyway. So we went
to the place we always go when we get cold walking around in the city -
McDonalds. The good thing about McDonalds is that you can sit there
without eating and nobody will come and bother you and demand that you
order something.
Yesterday my friend Kikuyo from Tokyo
came to my sisterīs apartment and we ate together and in the evening me,
Kikuyo and my sister Anna went to a restaurant and then played some
pool. But first we went up to the Masthugget Church from where you can
see most of the city. I took one long last look at the city, and some photos of course. It is a quite different view compared to that from the
skyscrapers in Tokyo. Unfortunately I had a headache all day (I pray it was a hangover
and not me getting sick now...) so I was slow in mind and felt like a
bore but I had a good time anyway.
I have realized that I have a disability
to grasp the situation when big changes occur. I cannot grasp the fact
that I wonīt be back in Gothenburg or at my parentsī place in a year.
I feel like I might be back tomorrow. I cannot appreciate it more than
usual until I actually am away. It all feels so casual. And saying
good-bye to friends and family also feels like when I go from Gothenburg
to my parentsī place or something. It feels so strange when I am saying
good-bye to somebody who is really sad that Iīm leaving while I myself
feel just as casual about it as ever. I get moved by the fact that
somebody cares so much for me but I cannot get that feeling myself. I
donīt know, maybe I can but then it happens very rarely. It is good
because I donīt get anxious about going but somehow I feel that there
must be a downside to it somewhere.
I leave you with this last picture. I
just love the colors and the single bright star in the night sky.

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