Dreamer

by fuXion

Specially for the Birthday authors, arna, Lady7 and VanillaMint.

Happy Birthday. Sorry the present kind of sucks.

Too emotionless, as such the coldness.

The sun is up there shining brightly, clouds plastered all over the blue that spread across. The wind breeze through his hair, making him running through them every now and then with his fingers. Neat and tidy he was, from head to toe, all prim and proper. All dressed in black, mourning for somebody. He wasn’t at all sad. Why should he, Shinya? He hardly knows this relative of his.

11:00am

Mind – He is close to my family. But I hardly know him. Everybody’s with the feeling of grief, I’m not. I felt so odd being there, everyone’s crying, feeling sad. Me? Just a feel of emptiness. He does have my respect but I don’t deserve to attend this funeral. I felt nothing for him.

Movements – Sitting at the bench nearby. Wondering, daydreaming. Watching the day passing, looking at his young cousins playing at the playground.

11:30am

Mind – Unfairness. They are carefree as ever. Not giving a damn that their uncle died. They aren’t scolded for playing, making so much noise, doing nothing or not being sad. But, I am. They, too, felt nothing for him but did show respect. I suppose, that’s all he wants. Why can’t those still living ones be as peaceful, be as reasonable as him?

Movements - Walking back to where the rest of the people are. Just showing his face, to prove that he does respect him.

5:00pm

Mind – Somebody did die in my family but I still can work, can’t I? Everybody would start to show sympathy for what had happened. Do they actually know him? Or me? Why should they even care?

Movements – Heading to the studio, seeing all those hypocritical faces.

5:10pm

Mind - I hate them all. Killing me with their faces.

Movements – Walk straight, turn left, the third room on the right.

"HEY! Come back with my bass!" Toshiya shouted at Die, who mischievously ran out of the studio.

5:11pm

Mind – They are my best friends. Perhaps my only friends.

Movements – Moved more against the wall, avoiding the crashing guitarist.

Pause.

The gentle, meaningless contact. Warmth? Friendship?

5:12pm

Mind – There he goes again. Bully? Or is it fun? I never had the chance to find out.

Movements – Continued to pace into the studio.

"Shinya! You should not have move away and let me crash into the wall!? And now you’re not even helping me up? Cold!" Die exclaimed, feigning injury on his arm. Toshiya went forward and hugged his bass back to the studio, observing Shinya. "Typical," Toshiya gave Die the answer.

5:15pm

Mind – Cold? Maybe. I don’t even care when someone died in my family.

Movements – Giving a wave to Kaoru and Kyo.

Kaoru – He knows himself best.

Kyo – Is he exceptionally cold today? Or is it me? Maybe it is just me, why am I suddenly caring so much?

Die – He’s meaner than I am.

Toshiya walked in front of Shinya. He pulled his face in front of his and smiled.

5:20pm

Mind – The little things that make u happy? Sunshine he might be, I’m just the opposite. Loner.

Movements – Practice went on as per normal.

Die - Yah, true; coldness was part of him. But is it getting a bit too serious?

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8:00pm

Mind – I want to know everything about him. I might be the number one in his hate list but nobody said I couldn’t care.

Movements – Against the railings, standing. Right in front of his apartment.

9:00pm

Mind – Shinya, I don’t really understand what I’m feeling now…

Movements – Walking around the place. No destination.

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Slowly strolling back, leisurely, as if no worries.

9:15pm

Mind – Nobody knows what I’m feeling now, nobody wants to, actually.

Movements – Dreaming, walking.

PAUSE.

Die?

9:20pm

Mind – What’s he doing here? He had friends here? Ignore.

Movements – Forward.

"Shinya? Are you okay?

9:23pm

Mind – Another hypocrite?

Movements – Reply : Yes.

"Shinya, don’t try to hide."

No. I’m really okay.

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9:24pm

Mind – He don’t trust me.

Movements – Bent forward. Talk : Don’t ignore me.

9:24pm

Mind – So confused by him. Can’t deny what I’m feeling…

Movements – Held Shinya in his arms.

Shinya, please confide. Tell me everything.

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9:25pm

Mind – What is he trying to do? Mess.

Movements -…

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9:27pm

Mind -…

Movements – Tears.

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