the first letter, the last letter

by Kurara

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Part 2


Aiji rubbed his eyes. //Morning...// He moved his hand over to block
his eyes, but it hit against a bare chest. Aiji sat up quickly, only
to look down and see Jun and the fact that he wasn't in anything
(he'd wriggled out of the bathrobe in his sleep). Aiji bit his lip
and lifted up the sheet, hoping to any diety that was listening that
Jun's pants were still on.

Quickly, he snuck a peak and sighed in relief when he saw that Jun
was at least clothed there. //But... why am I naked?// He
gasped. //Maybe we fooled around and I got naked?// Aiji looked
down at his length. //Did you get attention last nig--- wait! Why
am I talking to my penis?// Aiji blushed and turned to Jun. //No...
I can't see him doing anything like that... can I?// Aiji scratched
his head. //No... he wouldn't. This is Jun. He wouldn't do
anything while I'm drunk.// Aiji smiled and got up, looking in his
bags and getting dressed.

Jun groaned as he woke up and hugged the pillow before trying to get
back to sleep. "Morning Jun!" Aiji pounced on the bed.

Jun pouted and stuffed his head under a pillow. "Aren't you supposed
to have a hangover or something? Why are you so cheerful?"

Aiji smiled. "Ooo! Grumpy Jun! He wishes ill of me!" Aiji got up
and stood to the side of the bed. "Well, I guess I better die then,
huh?" Aiji pretended to have a knife in his hands and he held it in
front of himself dramatically. "Ooo! I can not live with such ill
wishes bestowed upon me! Sayounara, cruel world!" Aiji flicked his
hair back and brought the "knife" down and fell over, letting his
tongue fall out of his mouth as he fell on the floor, unmoving.

Jun smiled and scrambled out of the bed, sitting on Aiji's
stomach. "Oh no! The faerie princess has died! And only _I_ know
the way to bring her back!"

Aiji opened an eye. "You're gonna kiss me?"

"Shut up, you're dead."

"Oh, right." Aiji closed his eye and went back to being dead.

Jun grinned. "In order to bring the faerie princess back to life, we
must..." Jun lifted up Aiji's shirt. "TICKLE HER!"

Aiji squealed like a little girl as his stomach was
attacked. "Juuu! Juuu!!! Ahh!!!" Aiji squeezed his eyes shut as
he couldn't stop giggling. Aiji brought his hands up and tried to
grab Jun's wrists. "Yameru!!! O-oneg-g-g-gai!!!"

"Oh, and why should I? When I have you right where I want you!
Squirming and helpless?" Jun smirked.

"Are you... the p-prince or... hehehee... the bad guy?"

"A little of both." Jun stopped and poked Aiji's forehead. "And you
are now alive."

Aiji pouted. "And no kiss!"

"Well, if you really want..."

Aiji shoved his hands up. "Nononononononononononono!" He pursed his
lips shut.

Jun clutched his chest. "You break my heart!" //Really, you do...//

Aiji stuck his tongue out. "Get used to it."

"I already have..." Jun muttered.

"What Jun?" Aiji blinked.

Jun bit his lip. "Nothing." //Did I say that aloud?// Jun studied
Aiji's face. "It's nothing Aiji, I just remembered that we have
practice today."

"Oh yeah!" Aiji wriggled to get away from Jun. "The guys will be
pissed if we're late! And together! Imagine the rumors!"

//Yes, that would be bad, wouldn't it Aiji? It's bad if you're with
me. You'd hate that, wouldn't you? You'd be disgusted to be with an
ugly person like me.// Jun smiled, masking his thoughts. "Yeah,
that would be embarrasing!"

Aiji put his guitar over his shoulder. "Yeah, and with Kirito and
Takeo being teased, they'd do anything to turn the tables onto us!
And we didn't even do anything!" //I hope...//

Jun ran a brush though his hair. "Yeah, I know!"

Aiji ran over and hugged Jun slightly. "I'll get going so we can get
there at seperate times."

Jun nodded. //Can't be seen with me...//

"Ja!" Aiji waved over his head as he went out the door.

***

"Hey Aiji, wanna go out for drinks again tonight?" Jun asked,
throwing an arm around Aiji's shoulders.

Aiji lightly shrugged him off. "Nah, that's okay. I wanna stay
sober tonight." He smiled at Jun. "Maybe some other time?"

//Can't be seen in public with me you mean.// Jun faked a
smile. "Sure. I'll just take Kohta with me this time. You have the
key to my apatto?"

Aiji nodded. "I'll wait for you there."

Jun laughed. "Never know, I might pick up some cute chick. Don't
wait up, kay?"

Aiji withdrew into himself. "Sure." He replied quietly. //You
won't stay with me tonight, you mean...//

***

Jun snuggled into Kohta's lap and purred. "Aiji..."

Kohta sighed. "Jun, for the ten billionth time, I am NOT Aiji!"

Jun looked up. "Aiji, that's a good impression of Kohta ne... come
on! Do Kirito!" Jun looked up expectantly.

Kohta tapped Jun's forehead. "How many beers did you have?"

Jun thought for a moment with a goofy smile on his face and flashed
open his palm twice. "This many!"

Kohta nodded. "I believe it. Come on..."

Jun blinked up at the bassist. "Where're we goin'?"

"To your apatto."

"We're going home?"

"Home?" Kohta blinked. "We?"

Jun's eyes watered. "You don't want to stay with me anymore Aiji?"

//Stay?// "What do you mean?"

Jun started to cry. "I thought I took good care of you last night!
I thought that you wanted me to sleep in your bed! I... I comforted
you!" Jun grabbed Kohta's shirt. "You know how much it hurt to see
you cry?" He cracked. "I don't like to see you cry Aiji..."

Kohta shoved them into the light. "Jun! Look! It's me! Kohta!
I'm NOT Aiji!"

Jun looked up and gasped as he realized that he was talking to Kohta
the whole time. "Kohta..." He blacked out.

***

"Yeah, Jun won't be coming in today, he's really sick."

"Well, tell him to take care. I suppose you're gonna take care of
him?"

"Ughn."

A sigh. "Well, I'll tell Takeo and Aiji that practice is over today
since it seems as though we can't do anything with a bassist and
guitarist missing."

"Okay. Talk to you later. Ja."

"Ja." Kirito clicked the phone off and looked to Takeo. "Jun's
sick."

"Where is he?" A new voice came and they turned to see Aiji in the
room.

Kirito ran a hand through his hair. "Kohta's. They went to his
place last night since Jun was so drunk and now Jun's sick so Kohta
is taking care of him."

Aiji cast his look down. "I see." He shifted his guitar. "Well,
then what's happening today?"

Kirito shrugged. "No practice, unless there was something you needed
to work on?"

Aiji shook his head. "No... I think I'll just go sleep. I didn't
get any last night." //I was waiting up for Jun, even though he told
me not to. Why...?//

Kirito nodded. "Okay, then I guess this is a three day weekend for
us then." He turned to Takeo and Takeo blushed seeing the glint in
Kirito's eyes.

Aiji nodded. "Have fun then." He turned on his heel and walked out
of the studio, not even bothering to say goodbye as he walked back to
Jun's apatto. //I'll just be alone, like normal.//

Aiji walked into Jun's apatto and walked calmly back to the bed. //I
don't want to wake up alone anymore.// He bit on his lip. //But if
I go to sleep, I'll wake up... alone...

//Of course. Because no one loves you.//

//No... I have friends.//

//Bandmates. If you didn't play the guitar, they'd have nothing to
do with you.//

//Yes they would! They like me for more than my guitar playing!//

//Really? Were they there for you BEFORE you played guitar?//

//They didn't know me back then...// Aiji sat down, trembling.

//They didn't care about you back then, you mean. You never SAW them
until then.//

Aiji gripped his hair. "No... no..."

//Yes. It's awful, isn't it? To be unloved. Poor little Aiji with
no one to love him!//

Aiji shook his head and tears streamed down his face. "No... no...
it's more... they care for me..."

//Oh really? Then how come Jun doesn't even come to his OWN home
when you're there? He hates you. He laughs at you.//

"No..." Aiji cracked. "No... he's sick."

//Sure he's sick. OF YOU! He's probably off with Kohta, never
thinking of you at all.//

Aiji sobbed. "Stop..."

//You can't take the truth, that's all. Everyone is in love but no
one is in love with Aiji.//

He hit the bed and curled up. "Go away... go away..."

//That's right. Because you push everything away. How can anyone
love you?//

***

"Kohta! I have to get home! Let me go!" Jun cried out, crawling to
the door.

"Iie! You're sick! You won't make it home!" Kohta said, keeping
him from leaving.

"Then take me there! I have to get to Aiji!" Jun yelled.

"Aiji can take care of himself."

//I want somebody, Jun, I want SOMEone...//

Jun shook his head. "He can't!"

"He's old enough. He won't get into any danger."

//ANYone so bad... it... it hurts... I don't care if they hurt me...
I don't care if they abuse me...//

Jun shook his head. "YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND! AIJI _NEEDS_ ME!" He
screamed.

//Now even you're leaving me...//

//Aiji's gonna think I left him...// Jun broke down, gripping
Kohta's pant leg. "Please... Kohta..."

***

::pouts::
Kurara should be put away for Jrocker abuse... ::hides:: gomen!
C/C though?? ^^
~Kurara

to be continued...

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