Part 36

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Kirito yawned and rolled to his right. His eyes twitched and he opened them slightly. Groaning inwardly, the singer rolled back to his left, trying to get rid of the discomfort. But then he opened his eyes, realizing that the person who was meant to sleep by his side had gone.

Kirito joined his eyebrows and looked around. Then he sat up as he saw Kyo standing behind the door.

"Kyo...?" Kirito whispered

The other man turned his head around and motioned him to keep quiet, which Kirito did. He watched as Kyo walked out the room silently

*

His body ached

Pain

So he stretched his arms and a moan escaped from his parted lips. Then he sighed, feeling tired. His eyes felt heavy, his cheeks felt puffy, his nose felt runny.

So he took a deep breath and lazily walked out the bedroom. Not even bothered to look around, he strolled to the kitchen quietly and opened the fridge. The light, luminous yellow brightened the dark and his eyes looked around in the fridge.

Butterfly in his stomach

He bent down and grabbed a bowl that was wrapped by a plastic cover. He peered and smelt, and joined his eyebrows

Lemon

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Kyo looked around the dark living room, and pouted at his own stupidity. Then he heard few noises in the kitchen and Kyo quickly walked toward the source. Squinting his eyes, Kyo stared as Toshiya picked up a slice of lemon from a bowl and put it in between his lips.

Then he bit the lemon.

And winced

Kyo widened his eyes

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Pain

It was so bitter, so sour.

Like him

Toshiya opened his mouth wider, and sucked the lemon.

He closed his eyes and tear rolled down his cheek.

It was so sour, so bitter, ...it was so painful!

Just like what he had just seen, it was just like how he felt right there.

Love tasted sour

Jealousy felt bitter

BETRAY …

...was painful

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Kyo sighed as he walked toward his own bedroom. Wondering what had happened to Toshiya, and what the man was doing. He did have few ideas, though.

Toshiya came home running, Toshiya slammed the door shut and locked himself in the bedroom the whole night, and suddenly wee hour in the morning, he walked to the kitchen, looking for food, hungry, tired, tears.

But lemon.

Why?

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“Good morning, Shinya. Do you have enough sleep last night?”

Shinya lifted his eyes up and saw a smiling Kyo. The drummer stared back at the little one, and there was the glint in those eyes. Kyo was smiling but his eyes weren’t.

“Yes, and you look fresh today” Shinya played along, all the sudden keeping a distance and the singer knew that. He smiled, “I did have good sleep last night but you don’t look fresh enough”

Shinya fell silent and kept a stern face

“Ohayou…” Die entered the room and smiled to both of them, “Where’s Kao and Totchi?”

“…Kaoru is still in the parking lot” Shinya answered. The red head widened his eyes, “Hm…” then he looked at Kyo carefully, “How about Toshiya?”

Kyo smiled at Die, the genuine smile, “I think Toshiya doesn’t feel well today”

Shinya looked away, and when Kyo looked at him, the drummer was flipping through an old magazine, still with the cold look on his face. Die sighed worriedly, “Hm. Kyo, I still need to apologize” he lowered his voice but Shinya could hear it. Being the same old Shinya, he merely kept quiet.

Kyo blinked and shrugged. Die was surely trying to patch up, calling Toshiya a slut, …yes he did. But at least he tried to say sorry, try to apologize.

…

But now things were different!

Kyo felt Toshiya wasn’t the same Toshiya anymore

He sighed

Maybe Toshiya heard their conversation…or…

Kyo looked at Shinya, who remained indifferent

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“How can he not be here?!!!”

Kyo rolled his eyes to a side and decided to fall asleep. Die looked away while Kaoru glared. Shinya fumed and touched Kaoru’s arm, “Kyo kun said he’s not feeling well today. Calm down. Toshi kun can’t help falling sick right?” he asked calmly.

Kaoru took a deep breath and looked at Shinya

“Okay. But we have to start the new songs today”

Die jerked his head up, “I’ll do what I can do first” he said, and earned an approval nod from Kaoru. Kyo opened his eyes and coughed, “My throat feels a bit sore today. Can I just improve lyrics?”

Kaoru looked like he was about to say something but Shinya cut his train of thoughts, “Are you okay Kyo kun?” he asked worriedly. The vocalist smiled at Shinya’s attention and nodded. He noticed too how Kaoru stared at the youngest member of the band

“Maybe it’s the water you drink…Toshiya kun still stays over your place?”

Kyo nodded, “You can’t say that. I stay over Kirito’s place most of the time…”

Shinya chuckled, “I know”

Kaoru leaned back on the couch and did nothing. Die had gone to the room next door. Kyo sighed loudly and got up. Before he closed the door, Kyo thought he saw a glimpse of Kaoru inching closer to Shinya.

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Kyo lit up a cigarette and looked at his watch. He remembered waking up at seven and when he walked into Toshiya’s room the guy wasn’t there. Kyo checked the whole apartment with Kirito and then a thought came up to him. So he opened the closet and all Toshiya’s clothes were gone.

He had gone back to his own apartment

…

Why?

Kyo took a long drag and stared at the dark blue sky

What upset Toshiya?

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to be continued...