rush



I walk through the land of my desires
and the autumnly fog dances about me
as my moving feet hardly touch the ground.
I am everywhere and nowhere
and I keep searching
for you.
I see your features against the movement
of the nightly demons.
I smell the scent of your skin
from the candle that is burning
beside my bed all night long
and I feel you deep inside me
- all, as if you were there.
My feelings are tangled up
and I am wrapping them around myself
to hold on to me just a little longer.
I am waiting and dripping from me
is my desire
like an acidic juice
it burns into my flesh 
and like an ambrosic drink
my lips are taking in the white liquid.
My distorted reality becomes the only one available
and I indulge into the rush of my heart
faster, intenser
and I feel as if I could handle this day
while it is swallowing me
and I am falling
deeper into this sun
the burning is ecstatic
and the pain like salt in an ocean
no question asked about it belonging there
I am floating on its bottom
while you are drifting inside my veins
in circles
Swim!  
but you are without navigation
and my body digests you.
I open my eyes
it is already daylight
and I remember this night
and it almost feels as if it had not happened
you have left no trace.
but i know you, and there will be more of your kind.
There always are.