dawn to dusk
1.mellon collie and the infinite sadness
2.tonight tonight
3.jelly belly
4.zero
5.here is no why
6.bullet with butterfly wings
7.to forgive
8.f**k you (an ode to no-one)
9.love
10.cupid de locke
11.galapogos
12.muzzle
13.porcelina of the vast oceans
14.take me down
2.tonight, tonight

time is never time at all
you can never ever leave
with out leaving a peace of youth.
and our lives are forever changed
we will never be the same
the more you change the less you feel
believe, believe in me, believe
that life can change
that your not stuck in vain
we're not the same
we're different tonight
tonight, so bright, tonight.
and you know your never sure
but your sure you could be right if you held yourself up to the light
and the embers never fade
in the city by the lake
the place where you we're born
believe, believe in me, believe
in the resolute urgency of now
and if you believe theres not a chance tonight
tonight , so bright, tonight
we'll crucify the incincere tonight
we'll make things right
we'll feel it al tonight
we'll find a way to offer up the night tonight
the indescribable moments of your life
tonight
the impossible is possible tonight
beleive in me as i believe in you tonight
3.jellybelly

welcome to nowhere fast
nothing here ever lasts
nothing but memories
of what never was
we're nowhere, we're nowhere,
we're nowhere to be
nowhere, we're nowhere,
we're nowhere to see
living makes me sick
so sick i wish i'd die
down in the belly of the beast
i can't lie
you're nowhere, you're nowhere,
you're nowhere to be
nowhere, you're nowhere,
you're nowhere to see
there's nothing left to do
there's nothing left to feel,
doesn't matter what you want, so
to make yourself feel better
you make it so you'll never
give into your forevers
and live for always, and forever,
forever, you're forever to be,
forever, you're forever to me.
4.zero

my reflection, dirty mirror
theres no connection
to my self
im your lover
im your zero
im the face in your dreams of glass
so save your prayers for when your really gonna need 'em
throw out your cares and fly
she's the one for me
wanna go for a ride?
she's all i really need
cause shes the one for me
emptiness is loneliness,
and loneliness is cleanliness,
and cleanliness is godliness
and god is empty just like me.
intoxicated with the madness
im in love with my sadness
bullshit fakers
enchanted kingdoms
the fashion victims chew their charcoal teeth
i never let on that i was on a sinking ship
i never let on that i was down
you blame yourself for what you can't ignore
you blame your self for wanting more
she's the one for me
she's all i really need
shes the one for me
she's my one and only.
5.here is no why

the useless drag of another day
the endless drags of a death rock boy
mascara sure and lipstick lost
glitter burned by restless thoughts
of being forgotten
and in your sad machines
you'll forever stay
desperate and displeased
with whoever you are
and you're a star
somewhere-- he pulls his hair down over a frowning smile
a hidden diamond you cannot find
a secret star that cannot shine
over to you
may the king of gloom
be forever doomed
and in your sad machines
you'll forever stay
burning up in speed
lost inside the dreams
of teen machines
the useless drags
the empty days
the lonely towers of long mistakes
to forgotten faces and faded loves
sitting still was never enough
and if your giving in
then your giving up
cause in your sad machines
you'll forever stay
burning up in speed
lost inside the dreams,
of teen machines.
6.bullet with butterfly wings

the world is a vampire
sent to drain
secret destroyers
hold you up to the flames
and what do i get
for my pain
betrayed desires
and a piece of the game
even though i know
i suppose i'll show
all my cool and cold
like old job
despite all my rage
i am still just a rat in a cage
then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
despite all my rage i am still just a rat in a cage
now i'm naked,
nothing but an animal
but can you fake it
for just one more show
and what do you want?
i want to change
and what have you got
when you feel the same
even though i know
i suppose i'll show
all my cool and cold like old job
despite all my rage
i am still just a rat in a cage
then someone will say
what is lost can never be saved
despite all my rage
i am still just a rat in a cage
tell me i'm the only one
tel me theres no other one
jesus was an only son for you
tell me im the chosen one
jesus was an only sonfor you
despite all my rage
i am still just a rat in a cage
and i still believe
that i cannot be saved




























7.to forgive

ten times removed
i forget about where it all began
bastard son of a bastard son
a wild eyed child of the sun
and right as rain
im not the same,
but i feel the same,
i feel nothing
holding back the fool again
holding back the fool pretends
i forget to forget
nothing is important
holding back the fool again
i sensed my loss
before i even learned to talk
and i remember my birthdays
empty party afternoons
won't come back
holding back the fool again
holding back the fool pretends
i forget to forget
nothing is important
holding back the fool again
i forget to forget me
i forget to forget you see
nothing is important to me
i knew my loss
before i even learned to speak
and all along
i knew it was wrong
but i played along,
with my birthday song
holding back the fool again
holding back the fool pretends
i forget to forget
nothing is important
holding back the fool again
8.f**k you (an ode to no-one)

i'm never coming back
i'm never giving in
i'll never be the shine in you spit
i disconnect the act
i disconnect the dots
i disconnect the me in me
and your mistaken,
its you thats faking
living and breathing,
dying too
this message is for any one
who dares to hear a fool
you can't bring me back
you can't bring me back
cause i give it all back to you
thru sacred alleys
and living wrecks
wreak their havoc upon this world
the disenchanted,
the romantics
the body and face and soul of you is gone
down that deep black hole
destroy the mind
destroy the body
but you cannot destroy the heart
and you,
you make me so i need to disconnect
and you make it so real
i don't need your love to disconnect
to runaround kids
in get-go cars
with vaseline afterbirths
and neon coughs
galaxies full of nobodies
giving us the farewell runarounds
i took a virgin mary axe
to his sweet baby jane
lost my innocence to a no good girl
scratch my face with anvil hands
and coil my tongue
a bumble bee mouth
and i give it all back to you
no way,
i don't need it
i don't need your love
to disconnect
and you make it so real
i don't need your love
to disconnect
no way
to disconnect
and you make it so real
i dont need your love
to disconnect
no way to disconnect
9.love

to my mistakes
to my mistakes of cowardice
she shimmy shakes,
the jimmy jakes of consequence
born of the airs and dues
my airs of madness do declare
that its ok
its love
its what you wanted to see
its who you wanted to be
for what you needed to need,
she'll make it up
love, its who you know
machine gun blues
her vacant rush is so steel
i'm unaware
lost inside you visions
i got mine too over
i got mine and i got you
cause i know you,
you're love
it's what you wanted to see
it's who you wanted to be
for what you needed to need
she'll make it up
love, it's who you know
can i look up to you
as you look down on me
can i feel in to you
as you felt in to me
i can't help what you see
i can't help but to be
for what i needed to need
she'll make it up
love
it's who you know
10.cupid de locke

cupid hath pulled back his sweethearts bow
to cast divine arrows into her soul
to grab her attention swift and quick
or morrow the marrow of her bones be thick
with turpentine kisses and mistaken blows

see the devil may do as the devil may care
he loves none sweeter as sweeter the dare
her mouth the mischeif
he doth seek
her heart the captive of which he speaks
so note all ye lovers in love with the sound
your world be shattered with nary a note
of one cupids arrow under your coat

and in the land of star crossed lovers
and barren hearted wanderers
forever lost in forsaken missives and satans pull
we seek the unseekable and we speak the unspeakable
our hopes dead gathering dust to dust
in faith, in compasion, and in love.

11.galapogos

aint it funny how we pretend were still a child
softly stolen under our blanket skies
and rescue me from me
and all that i believe
i wont deny the pain
i wont deny the change
and should i fall from grace here with you
will you leave me too??

carve out your heart for keeps in an old oak tree
and hold me for goodbyes
and whispered lullabyes
and tell me i am still
the man im supposed to be
i wont deny the pain
i wont deny the change
and should i fall fromn grace here with you
will you leave me too??

too late to turn back now
im running out of sound
and i am changing, changing
and if we died right now, this fool you love somehow
is here with you
i wont deny the pain
i wont deny the change
and should i fall from gracehere with you
would you leave me too??
12.muzzle

i fear that i am ordinary
just like everyone
to lie here and die among the sorrows
adrift among the days
for everything i ever said
and everything ive ever done is gone and dead
as all things must surely have to end
and great loves will one day have to part
i know that i am meant for this world
my life has been extraordinary
blessed and cursed and won
time heals but im forever broken
by and by the way............
have you ever heard the words im singing in these songs??
its for the girl ive loved all along
can a taste of love be so wrong
as all things must surely have to end
and great loves will one day have to part
i know that i am meant for this world
and in my mind
i was floating
far above the clouds
some children laughed
i'd fall for certain
for thinking that id last for ever
but i knew exactly where i was
and i knew the meaning of it all
and i knew the distance to the sun
and i knew the echo that is love
and i knew the secrets in your spires
and i knew the emptiness of youth
and i knew the solitude of heart
and i knew the murmurs of the soul
and the world is drawn into your hands
and the world is etched upon your heart
and the world so hard to understand
is the world you cant live without
and i knew the silence of the world
13.porcelina of the vast oceans

as far as you take me, thats where i believe the realm of soft delusions, floating on the leaves
on a distant shore line, she waves her arms to me
as all the thought police
are closing in for sleep
the dilly dally of my bright lit stay
the steam of my misfortunes
has given me the power to be afraid
and in my mind im everyone
and in my mind
without a care in this whole world
without a care in this life
its what you take that makes it right
porcelina of the oceans blue
in the slipstream of thoughtless thoughts
the light of all thats good
the light of all thats true
to the fringes gladly
i walk unadorned
with gods and their creations
with filth and disease
porcelina she waits for me there
with seashell hissing lullabyes
and whispers fathomed deep inside my own hidden thoughts and alibis
my secret thoughts come alive
without a care in this whole world
without a care in this life
its what you take that makes it right
and in my mind im everyone
in my mind im everyone of you
you make it right
its all allright
you make it right
porcelina of the oceans blue
"take me down"

take me down, to the underground
won't you take me down to the underground??
why oh why, there is no light
and if i cant sleep, can you hold my life??
all i see is you
take my hand, i lost where i began
in my heart i know all of my faults
will you help me understand
and i believe in you
your the other half of me
soothe and heal....
when you sleep when you dream i'll be there if you need
me, whenever i hear you sing.....
there is a sun, it'll come, the sun, i hear them call me down
i held you once, a love that once, and life had just begun
and your all i see....
and trumpets blew
and angels flew on the other side
and your all i see
and your all i need
theres a love that God puts in your heart.
CD2: "twilight to starlight"