despite all my rage.........

"siva"

that's when i bend loose my head
throwing straight a spark instead
yellow streak down in my hair
dig it in the world i heal

way down deep and in my heart
lies a soul thats torn apart
tell me, tell me what you're after
i just want to get there faster

i don't live- i invade
i don't- i unveil
don't want to live in your misery
i don't live- i invade

sprinkle all my kisses on your head
stars follow
wishes fill your bed
she said; "i'm dead"

all this pain smothers me
like a bomb that you can't see
tell me, tell me what your after
i just want to get there faster

i don't live- i invade
i don't give- i unveil
i don't live

"drown"

no matter where you are
i can still hear you when you drown
you travelled very far
just to see you
i'll come around
when i'm down
all of those yesterdays
coming around

no matter where you are
i can still hear you when you dream
you travelled very far
you travelled far, like a star
and you are
all of those yesterdays
coming around

is it something someone said??
was it something someone said??

yesterday the sky was you
and i still feel the same
nothing left for me to do
and i still feel the same

i wish, i wish i could fly
i wish, i wish i could lie
i wish, i will try
i will, i will

goodbye

"cherub rock"

freak out and give in
doesn't matter
what you believe in
stay cool
and be somebodys fool this year
'cause they know
who is righteous
what is bold
so i'm told

who wants honey
as long as theres some money
who wants that honey??

hipsters unite
come align for the big fight
to rock for you
but beware
all those angels with their wings glued on
'cause deep down
we are frightened and were scared
if you don't stare

who wants honey
as long as theres some money
who wants that honey??

let me out

tell me all of your secrets
cannot help but believe this is true
tell me all of your secrets
i know, i know , i know
should have listened when i was told

who wants honey
as long as theres some money
who wants that honey??

let me out

"today"

today is the greatest day i've ever known
can't live for tommorow
tommorows much too long
i'll burn my eyes out
before i get out

i wanted more than i could ever grant me
bored by the chore
of saving face

today is the greatest day i've ever known
can't wait for tommorow
i might not have that long
i'll tear my heart out
before i get out

pink ribbon scars
that never forget
i tried so hard
to cleanse these regrets
my angel wings
were bruised and restrained
my belly stings

today is
today is
today is
the greatest day

i want to turn you on
i want to turn you

today is the greatest
today is the greatest day

that i've ever really known

"disarm"

disarm you with a smile
and cut you like you want me to
cut that little child
inside of me and such a part of you
ooh, the years burn

i used to be a little boy
so old in my shoes
and what i choose is my choice
whats a boy supposed to do??
the killer in me is the killer in you
my love
send this smile over to you

disarm you with a smile
a leave you like they left me here
to wither in denial
the bitterness of one whos left alone
ooh the years burn

i used to be a little boy
so old in my shoes
what i choose is my voice
whats a boy supposed to do??
the killer in me is the killer in you
my love
send this smile over to you

the killer in me is the killer in you
send this smile over to you

"bullet with butterfly wings"

the world is a vampire
sent to drain
secret destroyers
hold you up to the flames
and what do i get
for my pain
betrayed desires
and a piece of the game
even though i know
i suppose i'll show
all my cool and cold
like old job
despite all my rage
i am still just a rat in a cage
then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
despite all my rage i am still just a rat in a cage
now i'm naked,
nothing but an animal
but can you fake it
for just one more show
and what do you want?
i want to change
and what have you got
when you feel the same
even though i know
i suppose i'll show
all my cool and cold like old job
despite all my rage
i am still just a rat in a cage
then someone will say
what is lost can never be saved
despite all my rage
i am still just a rat in a cage
tell me i'm the only one
tel me theres no other one
jesus was an only son for you
tell me im the chosen one
jesus was an only sonfor you
despite all my rage
i am still just a rat in a cage
and i still believe
that i cannot be saved

"1979"

shakedown 1979,
cool kids never have the time
on a live wire right up off the street
you and i should meet
junebug skipping like a stone
with the headlights pointing at the dawn
we were sure we'd never see an end to it all

and i dont even care
to shake these zipper blues
and we don't know
just where our bones will rest
to dust i guess
forgotten and absored into the earth below

double cross the vacant and the bored
their not sure just what we have in store
morphine city slippin dues down to see

that we dont even care
as restless as we are
we feel the pull in the land of a thousand guilts
and poured cement
lamented and assured
to the lights and towns below
faster than the speed of sound
faster than we thought we'd go,
beneath the sound of hope

justine never knew the rules
hung down with freaks and the ghouls
no apologies ever need be made
i know you better than you fake it

to see that we don't care to shake these zipper blues
and we don't know just where our bones will rest
to dust i guess
forgotten and absored into the earth below

the street heats the urgency of now
as you see theres no-one around

"zero"

my reflection, dirty mirror
theres no connection
to my self
im your lover
im your zero
im the face in your dreams of glass
so save your prayers for when your really gonna need 'em
throw out your cares and fly
she's the one for me
wanna go for a ride?
she's all i really need
cause shes the one for me
emptiness is loneliness,
and loneliness is cleanliness,
and cleanliness is godliness
and god is empty just like me.
intoxicated with the madness
im in love with my sadness
bullshit fakers
enchanted kingdoms
the fashion victims chew their charcoal teeth
i never let on that i was on a sinking ship
i never let on that i was down
you blame yourself for what you can't ignore
you blame your self for wanting more
she's the one for me
she's all i really need
shes the one for me
she's my one and only.

"tonight, tonight"

time is never time at all
you can never ever leave
with out leaving a peace of youth.
and our lives are forever changed
we will never be the same
the more you change the less you feel
believe, believe in me, believe
that life can change
that your not stuck in vain
we're not the same
we're different tonight
tonight, so bright, tonight.
and you know your never sure
but your sure you could be right if you held yourself up to the light
and the embers never fade
in the city by the lake
the place where you we're born
believe, believe in me, believe
in the resolute urgency of now
and if you believe theres not a chance tonight
tonight , so bright, tonight
we'll crucify the incincere tonight
we'll make things right
we'll feel it al tonight
we'll find a way to offer up the night tonight
the indescribable moments of your life
tonight
the impossible is possible tonight
beleive in me as i believe in you tonight

"eye"

i lie
i wait
i stop
i hesitate
i am
i breathe
i meant
i think of me
is it any wonder i can't sleep
all i have is all you gave to me
is it any wonder i've found peace
through you
turn to the gates of heaven
to myself be damned
turn away from life
it's not enough
just a touch
it's not enough
i taste
i love
i come
i bleed enough
i hate
i'm not
i was
i want too much
is it any wonder i can't sleep
all i have is all you gave to me
is it any wonder i've found peace
through you
turn to the gates of heaven
to myself be damned
turn away from life
it's not enough
just a touch
its not enough

"ava adore"

its you that i adore
you'll always be my whore
you'll be the mother to my child
and a child to my heart
we must never be apart

lovely girl your the beauty in my world
without you there aren't reasons left to find

and i'll pull your crooked teeth
you'll be perfect just like me
you'll be a lover in my bed
and a gun to my head
we must never be apart

lovely girl you're the murder in my world
dressing coffins for the souls i've left to die

drinking mercury
to the mystery of all you should never leave behind
in time

in you i see dirty
in you i count stars
in you i feel so pretty
in you i taste god
in you i feel so hungry
in you i crash cars
we must never be apart

drinking mercury to the mystery
of all that you should you ever seek to find
lovely girl you're the murder in my world
dressing coffins for the souls i've left behind
in time
we must never be apart

and you'll always be my whore
cause your the one that i adore
and i'll pull your crooked teeth
you'll be perfect just like me
in you i feel so dirty
in you i crash cars
in you feel i feel so pretty
in you i taste god

we must never be apart

"perfect"

i know we're just like old friends
we just can't pretend
that lovers make amends
we are reasons so unreal
we can't help but feel that something has been lost

but please you know your just like me
next time i promise we'll be perfect
perfect
perfect starngers down the line
lovers out of time
memories unwind

so far i still know who you are
but now i wonder who i was

angel, you know its not the end
we'll always be good friends
the letters have been sent on

so please you always were so free
you'll see, i promise we'll be perfect
perfect strangers when we meet
strangers on the street
lovers whil we meet

perfect
you know this has to be
we always were so free
we promised that we'd be

perfect

"the everlasting gaze"

you know i'm not dead

now you know where i've been
as you sleep
torn i am
weighted down
patiently
born of love
you know i'm not dead
i'm just living in my head
forever waiting
on the ways of your desire
you always find a way
and thru it all
in to us all you move
forgotten touch
forbidden thought
we can never have enough
you know i'm not dead

found below
the creatures scream
stranglehold
a god machine
begging to
tear us out
worn as hope
you know i'm not dead
i'm just the tears inside your head
forever waiting
on the ways of your desire
you always find a way
and thru it all
into us all you move
forgotten touch
forbidden thought
we can never have enough
you know i'm not dead

WE ALL WANT TO HOLD
IN THE EVERLASTING GAZE
ENCHANTED IN THE RAPTURE
OF HIS SENTIMENTAL SWAY
BUT UNDERNEATH THE WHEELS
LIE THE SKULLS OF EVERY C.O.G
THE FICKLE FASCINATION
OF AN EVERLASTING GOD

i'm just living in my head
forever waiting
forever waiting on cruel death
you know i'm not dead
i'm just living for myself
forever waiting
you know i'm not dead

"stand inside your love"

you and me
meant to be
immutable
impossible
it's destiny
pure lunacy
incalculable
insufferable

but for the last time
your everything that i want and ask for
your all that i'd dreamed
who wouldn't be the one you love
who wouldn't stand inside your love
protected and the lover of

a pure soul and beautiful, you
don't understand
don't feel me now
i will breathe for the both of us
travel the world
traverse the skies
your home is here
within my heart

and for the first time
i feel as though i am re-born
in my mind
recast as child and mystic sage
who wouldn't be the one you love
who wouldn't stand inside your love

and for the first time
im telling you how much i need and bleed for
your every movw and waking sound
in my time
i'll wrap my wire around your heart and your mind
your mine forever now
who wouldn't be the one you love and live for
who wouldn't stand inside your love and die for

who wouldn't be the one you love

"try, try, try"

pop tart,
whats our mission??
do we know
but never listen
for too long
they held me under
but i hear
its almost over
in detroit
on a memphis train
like you said it's
down in the heat and the summer rain of
the automatic gauze of your memories
down in the sleep at the airplane races
try to hold on
to this heart
a little bit longer
try to hold on
to this love aloud
try to hold on
for this hearts
a little bit colder
try to hold on
to this love
paperback scrawl you hidden poems
written around the dried out flowers
here we are still trading places
try to hold on

pop tart
can you envision
a free world
of clear division
for too long
they held us under
but i know
we're getting over
in detroit
with the nashville tears
like you said its
down in the heat with the broken numbers
down in the gaze of solemnity
down in the way you've held together
try to hold on
to this heart
a little bit closer
try to hold on
to this love aloud
try to hold on
for this hearts
a little bit older
try to hold on
to this love aloud
and we are still alive
try to hold on
and we have survived
try to hold on
and no-one should deny
we tried to hold onto the pulse of the feedback current
into the flow of encrypted movement
slapback kills the ancient remnants
that try to hold on
to this heart alive
try to hold on
to this love aloud
try to hold on
and we are still alive
try to hold on
and we have survived
try to hold on

pop tart
you never listen
skinned knees
try to hold on
stop start
whats our mission
skinned knees

try to hold on

*"real love"

fall into the century of supersonic cross
blessed she in aching silence
eternal loss
calling out a warm surrender
a locket of her hair
i sympathise her pious pleasures
go down the stairs
into the dark again
to feel alive again
can't wait for
real love
or is it me your after
is it time
cause its now or never
real love
real love forever
real love
born of the ball and chain
into a world sustained with sorrow
real love
a real touch we're speaking
is it lies
or is it what we're seeking
real love
in the eyes behold
and you'll find the 21st century
detonate her will and her widowed speech
buried in the backyard shadow
the rusty coffin tin
that held her mothers first kiss of nameless dream
fall down the stairs again
to feel alive against tommorow
real love
or is it me your after
is it time
cause its now or never
real love
real love forever
is it mine
or just yours to treasure
real love
real love
real love
we never listen
real love will listen
and tell of our fortune
real love is riches
scratch through the changes
real love is nameless
so tired and hopeless
real love is painless
nobody mentions
we never move to collect
the solar questions
demons scourn
surround relax
the laws of gravity

real love

*"untitled"

should i know
what i'm missing
what's to stop
look and listen
feel love
to be in love
around

anyone can hold a promise
not everyone can feel honoured
to be in love
to feel love around

suddenly, i'm giving speech
let me be
what i need
if your enough
for me

many times
while you sleep
i'm dreaming of
what to keep
you know your wish
hold it true
to slay the things
that trouble you

suddenly
i'm out of reach
listen here
feel me
just believe
just believe
you'll see

to feel love
to be in love
all around

hold the truth
if you want it
if you don't
i will flaunt it
to feel love
to be in love
all around

when you're young
can you promise
anything that you wanted
to be in love
to feel love
around

suddenly
i've learnt to speak
from my heart
i will see

bring happiness
just happiness
for you and me

to feel love
to be in love
around

to be in love
to feel love
around

i know your wish
i hold it true
(feel love all around)
to hide the things
that trouble you
(feel love all around)

suddenly
i'm out of reach
(feel love all around)
let me speak
of my peace
(feel love all around)
draw from me
what you need
(feel love all around)
you'll never hate
or hurry me
(feel love all around)

(to feel love)
(to be in love)
(around)

(to be in love)
(to feel love)
(around)