Disclaimer: This is the worst part. I know you guys'll be disappointed, but I <sheds a tear> I don't own them!! Don't cry, it okay I know it's hard to hear but Steve and Craig own them. Yes, I know that they should sign ownership over to me but they won't, despite my best offers!! I…I.. <takes off crying>
Author's note: In response to the writing challenge: Miss Parker is sitting in front of an open fire. What is she doing? Describe her thoughts, her feelings and her surroundings. Approx. 100 words. (of which I'm well over <g>) So here it is:
Title - The Fire Within
Author - Ashlee
E-mail address - zyp959@hotmail.com
Rating - PG (If I remember correctly Miss Parker has quite the potty mouth)
Category - Angst
Series/Sequel - Nope
Spoilers - Nilch
Summary - It's amazing how depression can result in some serious realizations
"The
Fire Within"
By Ashlee
I sit and watch the flames of the fire in fireplace flicker and I know that that flame no longer reflects in my eyes. It was slowly extinguished over many years of attempting to endure the Centre. But no matter how hard I had tried to resist, no matter how hard I fought they still managed to throw an Olympic size pool of water on my dreams. It started with my mother and ended with my half brother. My last hope, the one thing that I thought could save me disappeared when Ethan left. I haven't heard from him or Jarod since, and I don't think I will again. Jarod's hell-bent on being the first to discover the truth, and I'm here being constantly watched, unable to take piss without the Centre knowing.
I look at the fire again. It looks so beautiful and yet holds the power to take lives, hundreds of acres of forest and homes, everything we love and yet it still looks beautiful. That used to be me you know. Beautiful on the outside and a force of nature to be reckoned with on the inside. Now I just let everything overtake me. I bet Lyle and Daddy are having a field day with that. No more Angel fighting back. I'm what they've always wanted me to be – the submissive girl who's Daddy's little pawn.
The thought angers me. After all he's done to me how could I possible ever live with myself if I did that? No matter how much he hurts me, no matter how far down in the mud he drags me I can't let him win. I can't, no I won't, give him the pleasure of seeing me beat. I bet he's sitting with Lyle now talking about how it might have taken four years, but we have her now. Have her my ass!! They took everything from me. They took my mother, my brothers and the chance for me to ever be normal – ever. They think they've taken everything from me, but I still have Syd, Broots, Ethan, and Jarod. I might not know where Ethan and Jarod are, but I know I have them. And what they did take, we'll I think it's about time I started collecting on what they owe me.
Now, as I watch the flames flicker, I felt a warmth inside me and I know that the fire that once burned within me is rebuilding itself. I smile. They have no idea the size of the natural disaster about to hit.