"Hey, they must think we have a party in here!"
another said. "Cutting the mustard!"
"Sure we are! You can tell by the smell!" Laughter
burbled around the inmate sector. This was turning into
the biggest event of these old people's lives.
"Hey, mister," the male nurse called through the din.
"That was my boss on the line. For once he checked with
his answering service. I told him I couldn't stop the music,
so he's calling the police. Better do that song and get out
of here soon." It was fair warning, but obviously the nurse
was enjoying the ongoing event.
The Sludge was still getting organized, piecing out bits
of melody, trying to integrate unfamiliar elements. "I can't
do this," Lou-Mae complained. "Singing a hymn to a drum
roll?"
"Listen, black doll, we don't like it either," the drummer said.
"But we got to have a beat."
"You jus' do your best," the preacher said soothingly
to both. "The Lord will make it right."
"Man, He better!" the drummer muttered. "This whole
thing's crazier than a double-bum trip!"
"Still worth doing right," the preacher said.
Zane heard the sound of a siren. He went to the door
where the other choir singers clustered, peering in. They
gave way nervously before him, and Zane saw the police
cars arriving. The vehicles screeched up to the nearest
comer and disgorged helmeted riot police. These were
tough cops armed with billy clubs, hefty side arms, tear-
gas bombs, and disorientation-spells, accustomed to
breaking heads in the lawful performance of their duty.
That nursing home owner had really made a complaint!
Zane turned to face inside. "Do the hymn now," he
said.
Lou-Mae, suddenly nervous, dropped her book and
had to scramble to recover it. " 'Sokay, chick," the
drummer said sympathetically. "First-night jitters. We all get
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'em. We'll start without you, a preamble, and you catch
your place and signal when you're ready. Like Uncle Tom
says, we'll merge."
She flashed him a fleeting smile. The music started,
drum roll leading into guitar, the beat of it blasting like
developing thunder out the windows as the police charged
up the steps, billies in hand. The choir girls crowded back
fearfully, not liking any close contact with the big, brutal
men in uniform.
Zane drew his cloak close about him and stepped out
to meet the lead cop skull-to-face. "Do we have business?"
he asked.
The policeman's eyes and mouth rounded out as he
stared into the aspect of Death. He fell back, literally,
and had to be caught by the two behind him. The urgency
of the intrusion of the law abruptly abated.
Now Lou-Mae found her place. The drum faded to a
background beat, and the song proper began. "Holy, holy
holy! Lord God Almighty!" she sang, starting tremulously
but gaining courage as she sounded the name of the Lord.
Somehow the amplification provided resonance and
authority that her voice might otherwise have lacked. The
drum roll behind her growled like the rising wrath of Deity,
and the guitar punctuated the theme with an inspired
extemporaneous counterpoint.
"Early in the morning, our song shall rise to Thee!"
And the electric organ swelled in an urge of joyous
worship, sounding exactly like the monstrous pipes of a
towering cathedral.
The crowd in the street was being rapidly augmented.
Some of the police were trying to hold the people back.
It was already late morning, but the height of the
surrounding buildings sheltered the street from direct
sunlight. Now that light angled down, a broad beam that
splashed across the pale helmets of the police and faces
of the people, illuminating them, as if it were indeed the
break of day or of a new era.
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”Only Thou art holy; all the saints adore Thee!” The sound
pealed out, flooding the neighbourhood, reverberating amidst
the buildings. Instruments and voice had integrated perfectly,
as if from years from devoted practice.
”Casting down their golden crowns around the glassy sea!”
And the police, stunned despite their cynisism by the
magnificence of it, buffeted by the booming sound, began to
remove their sunlight-golden helmets. The people followed,
compelled by a feeling they did not comprehend. In a moment
every head in the crowd was bare.
”Cherubim and seraphim, falling down before Thee!” And one
of the impressionable choir girls by the door screamed in rapture
and fell to the sidewalk.
Once triggered, the effect spread exsplosively. All around, people
screamed and fell, and a few of the policemen, too.
The music surged to thunderous authority, drums and organ shaking
the very buildings, sweeping through crowd, making the entire block
a place a worship. Some people stood; some knelt: some lay on the street.
All were gazing raptly toward the nursing home and listening to the amazing
sound.
”Who wert and art and evermore shall be!” Then the hymn ended, and
the music died away in a fading roll of the drum and a trailing
organ note, as if God were moving on to another station.
Half the crowd and all the choir girls were on the ground,
and the policemen stared wide-eyed at whatever personal vision
they had. No one made a sound.
Zane turned to face inside again. The inmates were sitting dazed,
as was the male nurse. The drummer and Lou-Mae were exchanging an
awed glance. The preacher was gazing towards Heaven, his hands steepled
before him, in silent prayer.
”Jeez”, the guitarist murmured.” We been wasting our time, all
our lives!”
”Who the H needs H!” the organist agreed.”I never been on a trip like that!”
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Zane walked across to his client.”Now it is time,” he said, restarting
his timer.”Are you satisfied?”
The old man was smiling.”I sure am, Death! I just had a vision of Lord God Almighty! Anything else in life would be anticlimatic after that. I saw two of my friends here go already.” He collapsed, and Zane reached out quickly to catch his soul.
A slow recovery was beginning as he walked back towards the door. The preacher caught Zane’s eye.”Some folk think the Lord don’t intervene,” he remarked gently, as if aware of Zane’s own doubts.
Zane couldn’t answer. He walked on out, past the choir girls as they righted themselves, and through the quiet crowd to his horse.
A new vehicle was pulling up, with the emblem of the state Social Services on its side. It seemed the commotion had attracted the notice of the relevant authorities, and there was about to be an inspection of the nursing home facility and operation.
Zane allowed himself a private smile. They would discover one or more dead men, tied to their chairs, in a room reeking of urine where no music or entertainment was permitted - these strictures so absolute that the police had been summoned to enforce them. Zane doubted that would make a favourable impression on the inspectors. Substantial reform was about to come to one nursing home, and the lot of the surviving inmates would be improved.
He glanced once more around the neighbourhood befoer he left.
There stood the church, nursing home, and dance hall in a row.
Surely the fate of all three would improve, now that they had interacted in this fashion and discovered what each had to offer the others, and there would be music for everyone! Maybe the enire city of Miami would experience a gradual renovation as the spirit of this hour spread.
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His next client was in the country. Mortis changed to
the Deathmobile form and drove along the superhighway, as
they were not pinched for time. Zane read the billboards and
realized there was an ad war on here.
WHY DRIVE A LANDBOUND CAR WHEN YOU CAN RIDE A CARPET? the first billboard demanded in huge, shining print. The picture was of a car struggling through a traffic jam, while a magic carpet sailed blithely over, its handsome family smiling.
Zane also smiled. He was at the moment carbound —
but he would never be trapped in a traffic jam. Not with
Mortis! "Did you show me this just to make me appreciate
you properly?"
The car did not answer, but the motor purred.
The next billboard proclaimed DRIVE IN COMFORT.
The picture was of a family huddled on a flying carpet in
a rainstorm. The man looked grim and uncomfortable, the
woman's once-elegant hairdo was a wet mess plastered
about her ears, and one child was sliding off the rear,
about to fall. The material was evidently wrinkling and
shrinking in the rain, heightening the family's discomfort
and peril. Below, the same family could be seen happily
in a closed car, safely seat-belted, untouched by the rain.
"So the car fights back," Zane remarked. "I can see
it." He glanced at his watch. Still several minutes to go.
The next billboard showed the carpet sailing blithely
over the rain cloud that largely obscured the traffic jam
below. BABYLON CARPETS OUTPERFORM ANY
LANDBOUND VEHICLE! it proclaimed. MORE DIS-
TANCE PER SPELL.
But the auto maker came right back with a picture of
the family gasping for air aboard the high-flying carpet,
while the car zoomed along the open highway. KEEP
SAFE, KEEP COZY, it advised. USE A CAR INSTEAD
OF A CARPET.
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Perhaps the ad war continued, but Zane had to turn
off to approach his client. This was a residential enclave
in the countryside; the houses were very similar to one
another, the lawn manicured. Zane wondered why people
bothered to live in the country when all they did was take
the city with them. He turned into the appropriate drive
and parked in the limited shade of a medium pine tree.
He noticed there was a disabled sticker on the owner's
car; evidently the disablement was terminal.
Zane entered and made his way to the bathroom. There
was a young, fairly muscular man taking a deep bath. He
looked relaxed.
The man did not react to Zane's appearance and did
not seem to be in trouble, yet the gem-arrow identified
him as the client. "Hello," Zane said, uncertain how to
proceed.
The man glanced up languidly. "Please leave," he said,
his voice mild.
"First I must do my job," Zane said.
"Job? Perhaps you are in uniform, and assume I
recognize your business. I can not see you, for I am blind."
Oh. That accounted for the disabled sticker. But mere
sightlessness wouldn't kill this man, unless some bad
accident were coming up. "I suspect you will be able to see
me, if you try," Zane said.
"You are a faith healer? Go away. I am an atheist, and
have no traffic with your kind."
An atheist! One who did not believe in God or Satan,
or in their related artifacts. How could Death have been
summoned for a nonbeliever?
Two answers offered. It was possible that this man
was not as cynical as he professed- and really did believe
in Eternity perhaps unconsciously. Or it could be that
there had been another glitch, and that the Powers that
Be had not realized that no service was required for this
particular client.
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Well, Zane was here, and the case would have to be
played through to whatever conclusion was fated. He
looked at the water in the bath and saw that it was dis-
colored by a cloud of darkness. "You are committing
suicide," he stated.
"Yes, and I must ask you not to interfere. My folks
are away for two days, so will not know until it is safely
done. I have slashed veins in my ankles and am pleasantly
bleeding to death in this hot water. There is no greater
kindness you can do me than to let nature take its course."
"I am here for that," Zane said. "I am Death."
The man laughed, becoming more animated as his at-
tention focused. "An actual, physical personification of
Death? You're crazy!"
"You don't believe in Death?"
"I believe in death, small d, obviously. I am about to
experience it. Certainly I don't believe in a spook with
skull and crossbones and scythe."
"Would you like to touch my hand and face?" Zane
asked.
"You persist in this nonsense? Very well, while I still
command my faculties, let me touch you." The man lifted
an arm from the water with some visible effort and
extended it toward Zane.
Zane clasped that hand in his own gloved one, curious
how the man would perceive it. He was hardly
disappointed in the reaction.
"It's true!" the man exclaimed. "A skeleton!"
"A glove," Zane said, not wanting to deceive him.
"And my face is a skull-mask generated by magic.
Nevertheless, I am Death, and I have come to collect your soul."
The man touched Zane's face. "A mask? It could fool
me! That's a skull!"
Zane had been uncertain before whether his skull-face
was tactile as well as visual; now he knew. "I am a living
man performing an office. I wear a costume and have
certain necessary powers, but I am alive and have the
flesh and feelings of a man."
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The client took his hand again. "Yes, now I perceive
the flesh, faintly, the way I do my own when my foot is
asleep. Strange! Perhaps I do believe in you, or in your
belief in the office. But I don't believe in the soul, so your
effort is wasted."
"What do you believe happens when you die?" Zane
asked, genuinely curious. This man seemed to have a good
mind.
"My body will be inert and in time will dissolve into
its chemical components. But that is not what you mean,
is it? You want to know about my supposed soul. And I
will answer. There is no soul. Death is simply the end of
consciousness. After death, there is nothing. Like the
flame of a candle snuffed out, the animation is gone.
Extinction."
"No afterlife? You do not consider death a translation
to a spiritual existence?"
The man snorted. He was slowly sinking in the tub, as
loss of blood weakened him gradually, but his mind
remained alert. "Death is a translation to intellectual
nonexistence."
"Does that frighten you?"
"Why should it? It is the deaths of others I should fear,
for they can cause me inconvenience and grief. When I
myself pass, I shall be out of it, completely uncaring."
"You have not answered," Zane said.
The man grimaced. "Damn it, you are putting my toes
to the fire! Yes, my own death does frighten me. But I
know that is merely my instinct of self-preservation
manifesting, my body's effort to survive. Subjectively, I do
fear extinction, because instinct is irrational. Objectively,
I do not. I have no terror of the nonexistence before I
was conceived; why should I fear the nonexistence after
I die? So I have overridden the foible of the flesh and am
proceeding to my end."
"Wouldn't you be relieved to discover that life contin-
ues on the spiritual plane?"
"No! I do not want life to continue in any form! What
uncertainties or tortures might I experience there? What
tedium, existing for eternity with no reprieve in another
person's sterile conception of Heaven? No, my life is the
only game, and the game has soured, and I want nothing
more than to be able to lay it aside when its convenience
is over. Oblivion is the greatest gift I can look forward
to, and Heaven itself would be Hell to me if that gift were
denied."
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"I hope you find it," Zane said, shaken by this unusual
view. A man who actually insisted on oblivion!
"I hope so, too." Now the atheist was fading rapidly.
The loss of blood was affecting his consciousness and
soon he would faint.
"A man's death is the most private part of his life,"
Zane said. "You have the right to die as you wish."
"That's correct." The voice was slow and faint.
"Nobody's business but mine."
"Yet shouldn't you be concerned about the meaning
of your life, about your place in the greater scheme of
things? Before you throw away your one chance to
improve — "
"Why the hell should I care about improvement when
I don't believe in Heaven or Hell?" the atheist demanded
weakly.
"Yet you assume that your own relief is all that
matters," Zane said. "What of those you love, who remain
in life? Those who love you, and who will find your body
here, a horror to them. They will still suffer. Don't you
owe them anything?"
But the atheist was too far gone. He had lost
consciousness and no longer cared who else might suffer, if
he ever had cared. In due course he died.
Zane reached in and drew out his soul. It was a typical
mottled thing, good and evil spotting it in a complex mos-
aic. He started to fold it—and the soul disintegrated,
falling apart into nothingness.
The atheist had his wish. He really had not believed,
and so the Afterlife had been unable to hold him. He was
beyond the reach of God or Satan. That did seem best.
It was best—but was it right? The atheist had not seemed
to care about anyone except himself—and in that
uncaring, perhaps had rendered his own existence meaningless.
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Zane rejoined Mortis. "I think that man was half-right,"
he said. "He is better off out of the game—but the game
may not be better off without him. A man should not exist
for himself alone. Life made an investment in him, and
that investment was not paid off." But Zane wasn't sure.
His timer was going again. He oriented on the next
client, wondering how he was going to account for the
soul that disintegrated. The Purgatory News Center would
have a ball with that one. He visualized the headline: THE
FISH THAT GOT AWAY.
He arrived at a hospital. That was not unusual; the
terminally sick tended to congregate there, and he had
made a number of similar collections all over the world.
But he still didn't like hospitals very well, because of his
lingering guilt relating to his mother.
At the edge of the parking lot was an ad, for once not
Satanic. SHEEPSHEAD HORN 0' PLENTY—MORE
FRUIT THAN BRANDS X, Y, AND Z HORNS. Just
the thing to buy for a hospitalized person recovering from
stomach surgery.
Zane felt worse when he saw his client. It was an old
woman, and she was embedded in a mass of lines and
burbling devices. Some sort of bellows forced her to
breathe rhythmically, and monitors clicked and bleeped
to signal her heartbeat, digestion, and state of consciousness.
Her blood coursed through the tubes of a dialysis
machine. A nurse checked the equipment regularly, going
on to the others in the ward. There were five other patients
here, all similarly equipped.
The client's hospital gown was draped awkwardly, as
such things seemed to be designed to do, so that
embarrassing portions other wasted anatomy showed. She was
in pain, Zane could see, though half-zonked on therapeutic drugs. She was overdue to die; only the relentlessly
life-sustaining things enclosing her frail body prevented
her from doing so.
Deja vu! His mother, all over again,
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Zane approached. She spied him, and her bloodshot
eyes tracked him erratically. The tubes running into her
nose prevented her from turning her head conveniently,
and the machine set up a clangor of protest when she tried
to shift her body.
"Be at ease, lady," Zane said. "I have come to take
you away from this."
She issued a weak hiss of a laugh. "Nothing can take
me away," she gasped, spittle dribbling from her mouth.
"They will not let me go. All my pleading is in vain. I
may rot in this contraption, but I will still be alive."
"I am Death. I may not be denied."
She peered more closely at him. "Why, so you are! I
thought you looked familiar. I would gladly go with you —
but they won't give me the visa."
Zane smiled. "It is your right to make the transformation.
That right can not be abridged." He reached into
her body and caught her soul.
It didn't come. The woman keened weakly with new
agony until he let the soul go. It snapped back into place,
and she relaxed.
"You see!" she whispered. "They have anchored me
in life, though it isn't worth it. You can't take me, Death!"
Zane looked at his watch. It was fifteen seconds past
time. The woman really was being held beyond her destiny.
"Let me consider," Zane said, disgruntled. He walked
down the ward, glancing at the other patients. He saw
now that the details of their apparatus differed, but all
were caught beyond their natural spans and all were
similarly resigned to their fate. They might have no joy in
life, but they would not be released from it one second
before the machines gave out. This was one efficient
hospital; there were no slip-ups.
"I see you. Death," someone murmured nearby,
Zane looked. It was a male patient in the adjacent rig.
Unlike some of the others, this one was fully alert.
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"I can't take her soul while that equipment functions,"
Zane said, wondering why he was bothering to explain to
a nonclient.
The old man shook his head, causing his own apparatus
to protest. "Never thought I'd see the day when Death
was denied. That leaves taxes as the only certainty." He
essayed a feeble laugh that made his dials quiver and
alarmed the nurse on duty, who thought he was suffering
a seizure. She seemed unaware of Zane.
After a moment, the man spoke again. "If it was me,
Death, know what I'd do?"
"That old woman, my client," Zane said. "She reminds
me of my mother." And what a mass of guilt lay there,
tying into his conscience like the lines of the hospital
machines.
"She's somebody's mother," the man agreed. "It's her
son who pays for all this foolery. Thinks he's doing her
a favor, making her live beyond her time or will. If he
really loved her, he'd let her go."
"Doesn't he love her?" Zane had killed his own mother
because he loved her, but then had doubted.
"Maybe he thinks so. But he's really just getting even.
He's a mean man, and she brought him into this world,
and I guess he just never forgave her for that. So he won't
let her leave."
Something snapped. "Death shall not be denied!" Zane
said. He marched back to his client's section. He found
switches on the equipment and clicked them off.
"Oops!" The nurse was on it immediately, as the
machinery bleeped alarm. She turned the switches on again.
Zane ripped out wires and tubes. Fluid spurted.
Now the nurse became aware of him. "You did it!" she
cried, horrified. "You must stop!"
Zane caught her in his arms and kissed her on the lips.
She felt the skeletal embrace and fainted. He set her down
carefully on the floor.
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He saw that automatic failsafes were stopping the leaks
in the torn tubes. The bleep-bleep alarm was more strident;
soon other nurses would hear and come. He could
not be sure the job was done.
Zane picked up a chair and smashed it into the stand
supporting the bottles of life-preserving fluids. Glass
shattered, and colored liquids coursed across the floor. He
put his foot against a console and shoved it over, indulging
in an orgy of destruction that was the overt expression
of his long-suppressed emotion.
At last he stood over the old woman, chair raised to
bash in her skull if need be — but he saw that now the job
had been done.
He set down the chair and lifted out her soul, gently.
There was a smattering of applause from the other
patients as he put away the soul and walked out through
the ward. All these people were on artificially extended
time, so were able to perceive him for what he was.
"But I am a murderer—again," Zane protested weakly,
now suffering reaction. Never before had he actually
killed—in his role of Death. There had been grim
satisfaction in the act—but surely he had added an awful
burden of sin to his soul.
"I wish it was me you come for," one of the others
muttered.
"You can't murder bur kind," the old man said. "Any
more'n you can rape a willing gal."
Zane paused. "How many of you feel that way?" he
asked. "How many really want to die now?"
A murmur traveled along the ward, like a ripple of
water. "We all do," the old man said, and the others
agreed.
Zane pondered briefly. He heard the running footsteps
of others in the bowels of the hospital, becoming aware
that something was wrong. Time was limited.
He had done his assigned job; he had collected the old
woman's soul and in his fashion had redeemed his murder
of his mother. He had now done openly what he had done
covertly before. He had shown that even Death himself
would have made the same decision Zane had, long ago.
But had he done his human job? These people were being
denied their most fundamental right: the right to let life go.
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"You know it would be mass murder," he said.
"It would be mercy," the old man said. "My grandchild
is going broke paying for me, because the doctor says she
must—and for what? For this? For eternity in a hospital
ward, too sick to move, let alone enjoy life? Hell can't
be worse than this—and if it is, I'll take it anyway! At
least there maybe I'll have a chance to fight back. Cut
me loose, Death! There's more'njust us patients suffering
here; it's our families, too. They'll cry a while, but soon
they'll heal—and maybe they'll still have a little
something left to live on."
Zane decided. He was already doomed to Hell for his
violations of the standards of his office. What did he have
to lose? He wanted to do what was right, regardless of
the consequence. These were his clients, too.
He went to the service area of the ward. There was
the main circuit box. He yanked down all the handles.
Power died in the ward. Darkness closed in. The
machinery stopped running.
There was an immediate outcry. Hospital personnel
rushed in. Someone groped her way to the circuit box,
but Zane stood before it. The nurse felt a skeletal hand
close on hers, pushing her away from the box. She
screamed in sheerest terror.
'That is the horror you have been visiting on these
patients," Zane told her. "Death-in-life."
No one could reverse what he had done, this time.
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END OF CHAPTER SIX