Date: The next Tuesday
Hi,
Sorry for the delay. This message had been sitting in my outbox
half-replied to for some time now.
Anyway...
First of all, don't worry about asking questions -- don't feel guilty.
> Finally, and this perhaps most importantly (to me): Is
Well... Many times _I_ have thought you were the one. Though, honestly, I've never felt any divine guidance this way. This can be attributed in large part to the fact that I really haven't taken very much time in the past to try and get past my emotions and open myself up and listen to what God was trying to say to me.
> Actually, many things you told me were a surprise; the
Well... Fact is I would probably almost certainly be jealous if you kissed another guy. And, well I don't know. Most of the time, when I'm with you I do want to be around you -- when we're not arguing or whatever. And I do realize that no relationship is purely blissful. But some of the bad must have started to ring a chord in my mind because when I'm not around you -- for whatever reason I don't start thinking "I wish I was with my girlfriend right now".
> I think the fact that this was so sudden (to me, at
Again, please don't feel bad for asking questions. I'll try answer them as best as I can...
> Do you understand this? I'm just so sorry. Whatever
I guess all I can think of to add to this, is just that I have been praying about this a lot lately. I want God to feed my mind and thoughts... And so long as I am walking in step with him and I am under his will, then well... I don't know what I'm trying to say. I think I'm trying to say that "feeding from God first" in EVERYTHING, is my first priority. And once I feel comfortably grounded in that (and not before), then I can move on.
Oh...I was just wondering, I've been praying for you about finding a job or whatever. How'd your interview last Friday go?
Well, I hope I have answered your questions. Also, I just wanted to reiterate that the last thing I wanted to do was hurt you. Those words may sound like they have little meaning, but I truly mean it. I do care for you a lot.
-Dan
From: Dan
Subject: Re: Hi
To: Me
> that true that you never felt like I was the one for
> you? That's kind of...well, it's a surprise.
> whole not-wanting-to-be-around-me thing most
> definitely; also the realization that you could, at
> this point in your life, care less whether I wanted to
> kiss someone else...Things like that.
>
> least) is why I keep wanting to talk to you about it,
> to find out what's going on in your head. I know it's
> not exactly a pleasant experience...But could you
> please bear with me for a little while longer? I'm...
> I'm sure this is not helping your opinion of me at
> this point, but it's helping me come to grips with
> myself.
> I did, I'm sorry, and I'm even sorrier if I've said
> anything in this e-mail to offend you. Please
> understand that I'm not trying to be rude or angry, or
> trying to change your mind or anything... I just want
> to know, as someone probably once said, the reason for
> this upheaval.