Buffy and Oz
Author: Ivy Gort Ivygort@worldnet.att.net
Rating: PG
Spoilers: Third season
Feedback: Please!

Queena's Challenge
1) Have the number 75.
2) Have a Tiara
3) Oz must rescue Buffy
4) Oz mentions Willow's in England.


Oz woke to Giles' strangled cry as he saw the vampire with Willow's face lift Buffy into the air by her throat. Oz quickly looked around and was relieved to find he was still on the stage of the Bronze. He shook his head, trying to clear the cobwebs.

"Open the gate and let the Master enter!" Vampire Willow shouted at the distraught Giles as she shook her captive for emphasis.

As Oz's vision cleared a little more, he was terrified as he realized Buffy was unconscious: the glazed look in her eyes told him she couldn't see him. As he lay there gasping and gathering strength, he saw that the slayer's arms were behind her back--as if tied there--and the tiara that had been on the May Queen's head was now deeply imbedded in her thigh. Blood ran freely down Buffy's leg from the gash the tiara had created.


"She's going to die in a few moments," the vampire softly told Giles. Oz could see she was correct: Buffy's face was beginning to turn blue, as the lack of oxygen became apparent.

Oz felt the drumstick still in his hand, the smooth wood a caress. He'd grabbed it right before Willow...No! The vampire...had knocked him literally head over heels across the stage. He took a deep breath, trying to revive himself so he could do what he had to do--knowing if he stumbled or faltered he would be killed and that everyone else in the room would die with him. He purposefully blocked out the fact that he was going to have to kill the vampire...if he thought about it, he knew he would hesitate and all would be lost.

With one last look at Buffy's blue face, Oz took another deep breath and willed strength to his legs. With a surge of impossible energy, he leaped up and rushed across the stage to plunge the drumstick deeply into the vampire's back.

There was a moment where time seemed to stand still, then the vampire's form dissolved into dust, then fell to the ground, and Buffy fell with all her weight landing on her injured leg. By the look of intense agony that flashed across her face, Oz was certain that if she'd had the air to scream, she would have. Oz reached for her to support her, but his weak legs gave out and he sat heavily, drawing her head into his lap.

The slayer seemed so tiny, so fragile as she began to gasp for air, which in turn began a series of convulsions. Not wanting her to injure herself further, Oz tried to restrain her as she thrashed on his lap. Suddenly, two paramedics appeared out of nowhere and lifted her off of him. Oz' head began to swim and the world around him became unreal, distant, as he slowly sank back to lie on the floor.

The paramedic's voice broke through to Oz's fogged brain and he turned toward Buffy. "We need those wire cutters here, now!" Oz watched as the paramedics rolled Buffy onto her side, and he could see her hands were tied with bailing wire, and each movement of her thrashing body sent the wire deeper into her arms and wrists.

The next thing he knew, there was a light in his eyes and he heard people talking around him, but again, everything seemed distant--nothing to do with him.
"Concussion, I want an MRI stat..." Oz finally understood as he drifted off once again.

Oz woke again to darkness and drifted for a while longer, then waking again to light shining in his eyes. This time, it was daylight and after blinking to clear his vision, he found he was in a hospital room. He turned his head to see Giles sitting by his bed, reading.

"Hey," Oz said surprised at the weakness of his voice.

At the sound of his voice, Giles looked up and smiled, saying, "Welcome back." Oz managed a slight smile, then the memory of Buffy's blood-covered form slammed into his mind.

"Buffy?" He choked out in near panic.

Giles placed a reassuring hand on his shoulder. "Still in ICU, I'm afraid." The Watcher paused a moment to clear his throat, then continued. "We almost lost her twice. The...um...damage to her throat was so severe that the swelling blocked her airway." He turned away from Oz and walked to the window to look out at the afternoon sunlight. Oz could see his shoulders shaking as he tried to continue.

"They had to perform surgery on her throat," Giles said, finally...seeming to speak to the golden afternoon. He turned back toward Oz, removed his glasses and began cleaning them. "They had to remove her larynx." At Oz's blank look, he added, "...her vocal cords. And I'm afraid there is a rather large scar."

Oz thought of how much Buffy loved to talk, using her lovely voice to communicate...and more than just with words. Now, she was silent. As a musician, Oz couldn't conceive of a worse curse. "She must be totally devastated," he murmured, thinking that he needed to go see her now, and wondering how long he'd been unconscious.

"She doesn't know, yet," Giles said, turning back toward him. "They have her on a respirator. According to the doctors, they had to induce coma." Giles walked nervously back to his chair and picked up his book, placing a bookmark in it and putting it onto the bedside table.

"The doctors claim that Buffy's system is using up the drugs too fast so they are going to have to remove her from the respirator soon or risk an addiction." Giles looked back at Oz, and Oz got the distinct feeling that he was not telling him everything.

"I have to see her," Oz said not really understanding why he was suddenly so obsessed but he knew he had to see her before she woke up. He had to prepare himself for any scar, internal or external, because if she saw rejection, in his face she would never recover from it. Oz knew that with Joyce dead, Willow in England, Angel in LA, and Xander in the army, he might well be Buffy's only chance at recovering emotionally from this situation. He was sure that was why Giles was waiting for him to wake-up.

Giles looked down and away from Oz and again Oz knew he was holding more back. Oz reached out and grabbed Giles’ arm forcing him to look at him. “Tell me,” he asked gently.

Giles’ sighed, “The doctors claim they must wake her up slowly so her body realizes that it must start breathing on its own.” Oz let his arm drop and Giles turned to walk towards the door of the room. Turned around and continued, “If she wakes up too fast or is confused she could fight the respirator causing more damage or….” He trailed off and Oz instinctively braced for bad news knowing this was what was making Giles so agitated.

Giles took another deep breath; a tear leaked out of one eye. “The paramedics claim from the time they removed her from your lap to establishing an airway it took them about two minutes but they have no idea how long before that she was, she was...… Giles broke down, hot tears running out of his eyes and he groped for his chair sitting down. Oz finished, “They think she has brain damage.”

Giles recovered enough to speak, “She could. As they arrived that the hospital her heart stopped…. They were able to get it going, but once again, it was several minutes….”

Oz guessed, “So the coma Buffy is in may or may not be because of the drugs?” Giles nodded. “And even if she does wake up she might not be Buffy?” Giles nodded. “How much time?”

“They are already lowering the dosage of one of the drugs, trying to get Buffy to breathe. If she does take over for the machine they will lessen the dosage of the tranquilizer until she wakes up.”

“If she wakes up?” Oz added under his breath.

“Yes.” Giles said. “I think it would be best if you got some sleep tonight and I’ll take you to see her first thing in the morning. We should know more by then.” Giles gathered up his book and left, leaving Oz to do a lot of thinking.

*************

Oz woke slowly, the morning sunlight shining through the window of his hospital room. He had dozed fitfully after Giles left yesterday afternoon until around eight-at which time a nurse appeared with a little yellow pill. He thought to himself: Devon would have loved the drug, while Oz felt like he had lost part of his life to it. Oz drifted for a while thinking about how much he hated being sick or hurt because of the drugs the medical community seemed to think it needed to pump into a person.

When he woke again, the sun was higher in the sky and he felt as if his bladder was going to explode. He felt more awake; the headache that had been in the background was gone. Oz looked around the room for the telltale door to the bathroom-he remembered the nurse helping him use the pitcher looking thing on his bedside table last night. “Never again!” He mumbled, sitting up and throwing the covers off. He sat on the edge of his bed for moment waiting for the slight feeling of dizziness to pass before he got to his feet.

Once in the bathroom he discovered towels, a clean gown, and robe so he decided to get clean while he was at it. When he came out of the bathroom feeling much better a nurse was just finishing changing the sheets on his bed and a tray of food was on a sliding table next to it.

“Hello,” the nurse said cheerfully. “Happy to see you up and around, though you should have called one of us to help you with your shower,” she admonished as she finished putting a pillowcase on the pillow.

“Sorry,” Oz said, although he wasn’t very-he didn’t think he could handle a nurse helping him while he was conscious. The nurse gave him a strained smile as she fluffed the pillow, putting it on his bed. Oz was beginning to get tired so he sat on the edge as the nurse disappeared briefly into the bathroom. She came out and put his dirty towels with the bed linens.

“I’ll tell Dr. Matteson you’re awake and she’ll be in to see you,” the nurse said, walking to the door. “But don’t expect to make good your escape,” she added with a wink and a small smile, as if reading Oz’s mind. “Dr. Matteson is of the ‘old school’ and is very conservative when it comes to head injuries.” The nurse nodded with just the hint of approval in her voice as she closed the door.

Oz lay back after the nurse left and started to doze again after a few minutes he heard the door open. He glanced up to see a little woman in a white lab coat enter his room. Besides her physical size, she was so small she made Buffy seem like a giant, he noticed were her steely blue eyes. She looked at him and marched up to the bed extending her hand-“Hello Oz, I’m Dr. Matteson.”

Oz sat up, surprised. He took her hand in a firm grip, “nice to meet you.” He paused a moment, “I think.” Her smile grew slightly, reaching her eyes.

“Yes, well I understand your trepidation.” She said, looking at the clipboard. “You got up and took a shower without the nurse’s help.” The doctor noted, looking back at Oz who was blushing a deep red at the thought of the nurse helping him.

The doctor chuckled at his discomfort; “Okay, I’ll make a note that you are feeling better.” She said writing in his chart. “But,” she looked him directly in the eyes the steel blue pinning him, “I want you to call the nurse whenever you get up-so she can make sure you are all right.”

Oz nodded agreement; this woman might be tiny but she was extremely intimidating. “Okay then, let’s get started.” She said holding a yellow card. “What color is this?”

After about 15 minutes of the doctor asking Oz questions ranging from the date to who his first grade teacher was, the doctor pronounced the exam done for the day. Dr. Matteson sat down to write her notes in the chart as Oz lay back on the bed-he was exhausted. He began to doze, yet again, when he heard a knock as the door to his room opened once more and Giles walked in.

“Ah, am I ah, interrupting?" Giles asked. The doctor looked up from her notes and smiled at Giles, “no, we were just finished.” Then she reached out and touched Oz, “if you can hold on for a few more minutes I’d like to explain the situation with your friend.” The doctor turned back to Giles; “it would save me repeating myself.”

Oz nodded back her, very happy and relieved that she was also Buffy’s doctor. In just the few minutes he had spent with her he had grown to trust her. The doctor stayed seated, to talk to them, Oz noted thinking that she was deliberately trying to keep her eyes lower than his so it wouldn’t seem like she was lording over him.

“Okay,” Dr. Matteson began taking a deep breath. “First off you guys don’t mind if I speak from memory instead of going and fetching her chart? I have total recall, so I can answer any questions you may have-“ she winked at Oz as if she knew she scored points with him for using the word fetch.

“No, of course not,” Giles answered.

The doctor took another deep breath and Oz could swear she was purposely slipping back into Doctor Mode, which frightened him.

“Miss Summers seems to be beginning to breathe on her own,” Dr. Matteson paused. “The CAT scan did show some clouding but it is unknown if it is a new injury or old or how bad. We just won’t know more until we can wake her up.” The doctor then stood and walked over by the window, Oz noticed she now had both of Buffy’s friends in her line of sight. “Now the good news, she is recovering from both surgeries surprisingly quickly. Since we’ve lessened the dosages on some of the drugs, we have been able to determine that none of the nerves to her hands were damaged- she can expect a full recovery there. Plus, the scarring on her throat seems to be less than we first had reason to believe.” The doctor stopped talking giving Oz and Giles time to process the information.

After a few more minutes she continued, “I cannot stress to you enough how serious it is for a teenage girl or really anyone to lose their voice.” She looked Oz directly in the eye, her blue gaze blazing through him. “May I ask what your relationship is with Buffy?”

Oz had to look away from that all knowing stare to compose himself-he was confused by his own reaction. He was her friend, he thought to himself-but the wolf in him always respected her and considered her the pack leader. Still, there was something more that he would never admit… that the magical qualities of both their lives had made them in tune with each other on another level. A level they were never able to explore while she was with Angel and he Willow. Wolves mate for life; he thought wondering where it came from. He looked back at the doctor, again his estimation for her increased as he noticed her patience in letting him work things out in his head.

Finally, he answered as honestly as he could, “I am her friend.”

Dr. Matteson’s gaze softened, “Oz, I’m going to tell you something and then Mr. Giles and I are going to leave you so you can nap.” She turned her fierce stare on Giles daring him to disagree.

Giles just nodded. “We are going to start trying to wake your friend up around four this afternoon or in about 6 hours.” She said making sure he was clear on the time frame, at his nod she continued. “When a person goes through a trauma like the one Buffy’s going to go through with at the very least the lost of her voice and at the worse some kind of brain damage-they shut down. They don’t remember friends, they have so much to deal with that if you leave her life right now, she won’t notice you are gone.”

Realization dawned, “if I stick around and then leave she will be crushed.” Dr. Matteson body language told Oz all he needed to know.

“Okay, Oz, we’ll leave you to think.” She said walking towards the door, motioning Giles ahead of her. She turned before closing the door, “whatever you decide Oz no one will judge you. If you decide to join us at four just call for a nurse and she’ll come and ‘fetch you’.” The doctor softly closed the door, Oz’s mind in turmoil.

*************

The wheelchair Oz was riding in squeaked down the tiled floor of the hallway stretching before him -- the sign to the intensive care unit above the door at the end of it. Oz thought, once the nurse pushed them through those double doors there was no going back. He had spent the last six hours thinking very carefully about what the doctor said about Buffy's condition and her emotional well being. But, when Oz weighed all his choices it came down to one thing, Buffy was his friend and she needed him.

The doors to the ICU opened as soon as Oz's wheelchair was pushed across the little beam of light, and a wave of odors assaulted his sensitive Wolf nose. The smell of blood permeated everything even though it was apparent that the hospital maintenance staff tried to cover it up with very strong antiseptic and cleansers. The smell of blood Oz sort of expected, but the smell underlying everything was the smell of human sweat, the kind given off when they were frightened -- it was the smell of death. As if that thought could have a bodily impact he suddenly noticed how cold it was in this section of the hospital. The nurse seemed to understand how Oz was feeling.

"You get used to it. We have to keep it cold to combat infection." The nurse explained," the one thing you never get used to is the smell". Oz started counting the numbers on the wall he noticed that each number was next to a room that contained three cubicles, with the bed in each one. At No. 75, the nurse turned into a room, once again Oz noticed three cubicles with people in all three beds. He looked at the middle bed and noticed blond hair, it had to the Buffy, but it just did not feel like her. Nor, he thought, as his Wolf sense of smell took over, did she smell like she normally smelled. The person in the bed was tiny and frail; she had tubes running into her arms, but the big thing that Oz noticed was the respirator hose running directly into the base of her neck. From his sitting position that and her hair was all he could of the body lying in the bed.

He felt a comforting hand on his shoulder and looked up to see the tiny doctor. "Medically speaking she's doing quite well, Oz." The doctor walked around to check some of the machines monitoring Buffy's condition. " A real miracle," Dr. Matteson continued distractedly. "Helen, when did her heart rate increase to 51?" The doctor asked the nurse behind Oz.

Helen walked over to the doctor, "I don't know. It had been steady at 40 when I checked at 3:30." "Her blood pressure and respiration are also up…” Oz tuned them out as he got out of the chair and stood next to the bed. He could see Buffy's small face, her eyes closed, if Oz tried he could almost pretend she was asleep-until he saw the tubes running into her nose, the bandages on her wrists, the IV lines inserted into her tied down arms.

Once again Oz felt a comforting hand on his shoulder; this time Giles gave him a sad smile. "Pretty gruesome?" He asked Oz, looking at Buffy. Oz continued to mentally list the damage to his friend, noting that the surgical scar on her neck was already healed.

"We thought we would have to consult with plastics over it." Dr. Matteson answered his unvoiced question and Oz looked at her in surprise. She gave him a brief smile, that never reached her eyes, and said, "a pretty girl like her, usually the scars are the first things the friends ask about." She motioned to them to follow her into the hall.

"Here is what is going on; Buffy is breathing on her own-we still have her attached to the respirator for the time being until we know the status of her other possible injury. If all goes well she should wake up slowly, giving you guys time to ease her into full consciousness over the next 30 to 40 minutes. It's very important that she wakes up slowly and doesn't try to fight or pull out the IV lines…."

Oz's attention was taken away from the Doctor's instructions by a change in the very air around him. He felt the same kind of heaviness as before a storm. He turned back to face Buffy's room, something was different, something was wrong, he just could not place what. Out of reflexive habit he sniffed the air, not noticing that the doctor had stopped speaking and was now looking at him with a strange expression. He sniffed again, catching a slight odor and knowing right away whom it belonged too-Buffy was awake and frightened-gathering herself to fight. He rushed to her side grabbing her arm hoping he could calm her before she panicked. But, when he made contact with her he was swept away in a terror so intense he crumbled to knees caught in a fit of dry heaves, only to be confused when the emotion stopped the moment he lost physical contact with her. Dr. Matteson followed him into Buffy's room, he saw her glance at him as he crawled out of her way to sit against the wall taking deep breaths.


"Oz?" The doctor asked.

"She's, she's waking up-badly" he choked out. The doctor didn't hesitate, she pulled a syringe out of her coat pocket and plunged it into Buffy's arm, she pulled the needle out just as Buffy hand reached towards the tube in her neck, the tie downs on her wrist snapping cleanly. Dr. Matteson tried to stop her hand but was pulled over on to the bed on top of Buffy. Then Oz felt the heaviness in the air clear away and the doctor was able to push herself off of Buffy still holding on to her arm, gently placing it back down by the unconscious girl's side.

The doctor walked over to Oz reaching her hand down to help him up. "We need to talk. Now!" She said, helping him to his wheelchair. He looked over at Buffy, "she'll be out for another hour or two," she paused, squeezed his shoulder, and added. "I promise." She turned the chair around to face the shocked Giles. "We need to talk, privately, the small woman said to Giles. “I suggest Oz's room so he can become flat." Then she pushed Oz down the hallway, expecting the opened mouth Giles to follow.

*****************

"Okay, just what are you and what is Buffy?" The small doctor demanded once Oz had been settled in his bed. Giles stood by the door as the doctor paced the room in front of the window. The setting sun lighting up the gray in her hair.

Giles started to answer, "ah, I'm not sure what you mean." He said trying to throw the doctor off track. "Oh, Bull, you know exactly 'what I mean!'" she said with an edge, her eyes flashing fire. "Look, I have instincts about things and I think you guys are the on the side of good." She took a breath, "but I have a young girl in there," she motioned in the general direction of the ICU. The doctor took another breath, Oz noticed her hands were shaking, "I have a young girl in my care that so far has healed faster than anyone I've seen, or the medical journals claim is possible, a girl that goes through drugs like…." Dr. Matteson paused again; it appeared like she was searching for the word. She gave up and bonelessly sat in the chair by Oz's bed.

"I've been a doctor in Sunnydale for 10 years, my lover is a Witch." She looked over her shoulder at Giles then continued, "I know things here are not like they were in Cincinnati; but Buffy is in my care," She repeated yet again as if it explained everything. And Oz thought maybe that it did. Giles walked over to him and sat on the corner of his bed. Oz smiled as Giles took off his glasses and began cleaning them.

Giles put his glasses back on and sighed, "Buffy is what is known as a Slayer." The doctor seemed surprised. "Susan thought that was a myth." She stated. Then noticed the confused expressions. "My lover?" She paused, " the Witch?" She explained, "her name is Susan."

The doctor smiled at the twin expressions of surprise on Oz's and Giles' face, then her face went back to what Oz now understood as her "doctor mode." "Tell me all you know about her physiology because I have the sinking feeling for the past 24 hours medical science has done her more harm than good." The doctor gave a shudder, "and if she had been able to pull out that tracheotomy, oh, goddess!"

Giles started to explain to the doctor about Vampires and Slayers the drone of his “lecturing voice” helping lull Oz into sleep; he still was recovering from his own injuries. He woke to the sounds of Giles and Dr. Matteson talking. He saw the two adults reflected in the window of his room, the nighttime darkness turning the window into a mirror. He noticed that sometime during his nap another chair had been brought in and the light by his bed turned on-the tray table placed between them acting as a make shift desk.

"You are correct, Gail, the slayer's metabolic rate most likely is the cause of the incredible healing."

Gail? Thought Oz, when did Giles get promoted to a first name basis with the Doctor?

"So on top of everything else we did wrong, we are also starving her to death!" Gail got up and started pacing around the room.

"No, I don't believe you treated her incorrectly." Giles told her, "she is still human and heals like a human only at a much higher rate."

The doctor let out a derisive snort, "Well good, at least the surgeries were necessary. I don’t think we’ve really caused that much damage."

"Exactly, you saved her life." Giles added.

"Yes, we did." The doctor said as she walked back to the table and picked up some papers. "With the information you just told me I think we can outline a proper course of treatment."

Oz thought this would be a good time to let them know he was awake-besides Gail had said the drug she gave Buffy earlier would only keep her out for a few hours. He yawned and stretched.

The small doctor turned toward the werewolf, offering a shy smile. "Good you're awake."

"Buffy?" Asked the teen.
Giles answered standing up and walking over to him, "Gail thought it would be wise to keep her sedated for a while longer in view of her discoveries concerning Buffy's slayer’s, ah, enhancements." Oz raised his eyebrow in inquiry.

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