Title: Werewolf? I Don't Know! (1/1)
Author: Queena
E-mail: thessulah@aol.com
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Buffy has to ask Oz a personal question and would rather not.
Feedback: If you have the time.
Disclaimer: Joss owns all the characters. Not me. Nope I'm not the one.
Author's Notes: This is the sequel to " The Slacker That Captured My Blood
Pump".
Dedication: To Cassandra, who is the first person to post something to my
list. Thanks, sweetie. And to, my brother, who has named yet another one of
my fics.
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"So, what's what, Giles?" What stupid evil do I get to fight tonight? Hmmm,
what fun shall I be having?
"There have been some killings." Wesley, Wesley, Wesley. Still trying so hard
to fight Giles for the Watcher belt. He'll probably never realize that Giles
will always be my true Watcher. Gee, I always thought I'd be flattered to
have two men fighting over me.
"What's new." Uh duh, there have been some killings. Could he be any less
vague? Were they vampire killings, were they virgin sacrifices or were they
drive-bys in Compton. Give me something to go by here.
"Mutilations. It would appear our offender has ripped their victims to
peices. We believe a werewolf is to blame for these deaths." Werewolf. No.
"How can you be sure?" I hope he's not trying to insinute....
"Buffy, when was the last time you spoke to Oz." No, Giles! You can't
possibly think this has anything to do with Oz.
"Why?" Say it and I swear I'll....I'll....I'll....throw a hissy fit.
"We're not trying to accuse anyone here, Buffy. We just want to cover all of
the possibilities." Damn straight, you're not accusing anyone. If you were I
would....throw a hissy fit.
"Well, he's not a possibility, so shut up about Oz." Yeah, so there, feel the
wrath of my hissy fit.
"Buffy, don't be childish. The only reason I even suggested it is because Oz
is the only werewolf we know." That better be the only reason. I mean, how
can you even think Oz would do something like that? Ever since Oz has known
he was a werewolf, he's been chaining himself up. Why would he stop now?
"I want you to go and question him." Damn you, Wesley. Why don't you stay out
of grown folks business.
"I'm not going to go and accuse him of this. If you think he did something
wrong then you question him." If you do, I'll kick your British ass. Hoity
toity bastard.
"We're not asking you to accuse him Buffy. We're simply asking to to inquire
where he's been keeping himself during the nights of the full moon." Stupid
Giles. You always have to be the voice of reason, don't you? Where does Oz
keep himself during his time of the month? God, it sounds like he's got his
period. Ha, the only male I know with a period. He can't be keeping himself
locked up in his dorm room. Where does he go?
"Okay, I'll ask, but I don't like this, Giles." At least I'll have an excuse
to see him. It's been almost three weeks. Well, I've seen him occasionally in
class, but we haven't had any gripping conversations since that night. The
night of the wonderful hug. Not that our conversation was overly gripping.
"Do try not to let you affections for this boy get between you and your
duty." You stupid little twerp! How do you know about my feelings for Oz? Am
I that much of an open book that even Wesley can see how I feel about Oz?
"Affections? What the Hell is that supposed to mean?" Great going, Buffy.
Fuel his suspicions.
"He is your friend, is he not?" Whew! And here I thought....Oh, great. Now he
probably *does* know. Idiot. I'm such an idiot.
"Of course he's my friend. I'll go now." Yeah, go. When in uncomfortable
postions, bail.
* * *
Just knock you coward. You have a perfectly good reason to be here. It's your
duty. You have to ask. He'll understand. But what if he doesn't? What if he
thinks you are accusing him of those killings? He'll probably hate me and
never talk to me. No, I can't do this.
You have to do this, dumb ass. Knock, knock, knock. Please don't be here.
Please don't be here. Please don't be here.
"Hey, Buffy." Damn! You're here.
"Hey, Oz." Why am I here again? God, look at him. He looks like he just woke
up. Hair disheveled and black with blue streaks. This is new. And cute. Oh
God, he did just wake up. Only in his boxer shorts. Run now before you jump
him. Can't move, can't talk, can't do anything but stare at his half-naked
body. You pervert.
"Uh, what's up?" That's so cute how he scratches his head. Okay, you really
have to say something, Buffy. Time to avoid looking like a horses ass.
"Can I come in?" Oh God, what am I going to do? I've never been in his dorm
room. What if I do something crazy. God, I hope he puts some clothes on.
"Sure." Just how I always imagined. Bed unmade, clothes scattered around,
band posters covering the walls, empty Ben & Jerry's container on the
nightstand, C.D.s laying in a stack next to his stereo. Phish, Ween, Tool,
Nirvana, The Verve Pipe. Interesting taste in music. I've only heard of like
two of those bands. Well, Nirvana, of course. Once, Willow tried to summon
the goddess Hectate on a Oiuja board, but only got the spirit of a very
pissed off Kurt Cobain.
Mmmmm, his bed is soft. I knew it would be. It's warm too. Yep, he definitely
just woke up. What in the.....a picture of Willow and....me. On his
nightstand. Gee, and I thought he was starting to get over Willow. I guess he
probably never will. His devotion is sweet and annoying all at the same time.
I remember that day. It was just after I got back to Sunnydale from my little
summer excertion to Hell and back. Oz had snapped the picture with Willow's
camera. I guess she had let him keep the picture. "Ya miss her a lot dontcha?"
"Did you come here to discuss Willow?" Oh God. Of course, I didn't. But I
*really* don't want to bring up why I really came here. Get down to business,
Buffy.
"No, actually, I didn't. Where do you go on your nights of the month now,
Oz." Now I sound *too* businessy. I sounded like a bitch. He probably thinks
I'm such a bitch.
"Why?" Wow, that was almost guarded. Almost like he might be hiding
something. What is he hiding?
"Welllllll, I have this pesky sworn duty to keep the forces of darkness from
wreeking havic upon the innocents of the world. Unfortunately, there's this
force of darkness running around and killing innocents, or not innocents
'cause how the Hell am I supposed to know? Said force of darkness wears fur
and a killer set of chompers. Much like the ones you sport three days out of
the month." Yeah, that wasn't long-winded at all.
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"And you think that I'm said force of darkness." See! I knew he was going to
think I was accusing him. I knew it. And now I have to kill my Watcher. Both
of 'em.
"No!" Don't freak. "What I mean is, I'm just asking 'cause Giles asked me to.
And we don't know of any other werewolves and we just started wondering where
exactly it is that you keep yourself locked up. And I'm NOT trying to accuse
you of anything because...you're Oz and you'd never do anything to
purposefully hurt anybody." There. Done with my rambling. Don't be mad at me.
Please, don't be mad at me.
Ack! And don't sit so close to me. Now I know how Sting felt. Oh, especially
when you're half naked. It's almost too much. I wonder if those wolfy senses
can tell when a person is shivering.
"I have a place I can go." Of course. I knew it wasn't you. Hmmmm, where
exactly is this place? Don't think about the half naked Oz sitting right next
to you. Think of business. Think of business.
"Where? And I wouldn't ask except I have to." OH MY GOD! Why in the world is
he touching my leg? And why does it have to feel so good? And what letter is
that that he's tracing? And thank God I decided to wear pants today.
"See, I promised I wouldn't tell. Would it help if I swore that it couldn't
have been me who killed those people?" NO! I mean, yes, that helps, but, no
don't take your hand away.
"Oz...." Is that a question? A chastisement? A plea? Damn, my thoughts are
muddled.
"Buffy, I can't." I understand having secrets. I'm the master of keeping
secrets. I'll trust him. How can I not?
"Okay, Oz. I'll trust you. Just don't make me regret it."
"Thanks." Gosh, he's skinny. But not sickly skinny, which is good. I hate
that. How can he be so comfortable like that. Laying back with his arms
behind his head, his eyes closed, his thigh pressed against mine. I should
leave. And go home and take a cold shower. Do those help for girls?
"Well, I guess I should go." Even though I don't want to. Even though I'd
love to just curl up next to you, clinging to you. A hand gently restraining
me. His hand around my wrist even though his eyes are still closed.
"I wish you wouldn't." Well, then I won't. Now a hand pulling me back to lay
on the bed. Now the hand leaving me when I really wish it wouldn't. Why is he
leaning over me? What is he doing? Oh, he's just grabbing a remote from under
his pillow. Music, quiet music, filling the room. 'Baby, what have I done?
Gone and left you all alone'. Mmmmm, nice song. I wonder who this is. Hey,
that's funny. I keep the remote to my stereo under my pillow too.
"Who is this? It's nice." And so very Oz.
"It's Ween." Okay. Whoever they are. It's still nice. Maybe I should get
something by them. Or maybe Oz would let me borrow this. It would be nice to
listen to this and think about Oz.
'Guess I'm ruled by my heart, built a life and I tore it all apart.' Why is
my neck tingling. Oh, I didn't even realize that my eyes were closed. Eek! Or
that Oz was propped up on one arm, looking down at me. And boldly continueing
to do so, even after being caught. If he caught me staring at him, I would
look away immediately. Of course, he's not me and I'm not him. That's pretty
obvious.
Even though I'm 100% uncomfortable with him studying my so closely, I can't
look away. Or help but notice the way he's biting on his lower lip. If he
doesn't say something soon, I'll implode. I've never been comfortable with
silence. Especially, when someone's staring at me. It makes me twitchy.
"You smell nice." Thank god, he finally spoke. Of course, it was a compliment
though, and those things always make me blush. Then I never know what to say.
Do I thank him or....what. Yeah, go with the age old thanks and find a way to
change the subject.
"Thank you." Well, there's half of that plan. Okay, that was weird, him
closing his eyes and inhaling deeply.
"It's like...vanilla and coconut."
"Wow. You're good." Small smile won. But, oh god, does he know what I meant?
I hope he knows that I was talking about the whole smelling thing and not him
in general. "That's exactly the perfume I'm wearing."
"Do I make you nervous, Buffy?" What?! How can you tell? Is this a werewolf
thing? Can you even gauge people's emotions? I don't like this. And why the
Hell does he have to voice what he's really thinking? Can't he be normal and
keep those kinds of things in the recesses of his mind like everyone else?
"Why would you think that?" Because he can read you like an open book.
Because he's got skills. Because he's just slick. And isn't that why you like
him?
"Because you're shivering." He *can* sense when people are shivering. How
creepy. Of course, he can sense that I'm shivering. His leg is pressed
against mine. He can *feel* me shivering.
"Oh." Say something else you dipshit! What?! What the hell am I supposed to
say? Something, anything. Great, now I'm schizo. And I still don't know what
else to say. Somebody shoot me. End my misery.
"See. Now you're tense." Great. Now I'm tense.
"Just tired I guess." What a lame excuse.
"If you say so." A lame excuse that he didn't buy. Okay, think of another
lame excuse.
"You don't make me nervous." Even better. Just deny it.
"Yes, I do." Aaaaggghhh! Stop contradicting me! You little....uh, well I
can't really think of anything bad right now, but that's what you are.
"Okay. So you make me nervous, but what do you expect? It's been a while
since I've been alone in a room with a half naked man." He's laughing now? Is
he mocking me?
"I'm sorry. I guess I should go take a shower and get dressed." Yeah, you
should. Can I come? No, of course, I can't. I have to patrol. Sit up.
"Okay, I'll let you go do that. Can I...." What in the world is this? What an
odd song. Maybe I *don't* want to borrow this CD.
"Can you what? Join me?" Did he really say that? "Uh, that was my sarcastic
voice." Oh, good. Or maybe not. Oh well, time to go. Gotta kick some undead
butt.
"I'll see ya later."
"Yeah, see ya."
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The End