| Tuesday-12.11.2001: Last night was very depressing. I didn't get the job I wanted and found out I am never allowed at Angie's house. I put in an application at Schlotzskys deli. We got the grades for the websites we designed in web mastering. Some how honesty doesn't make me feel any better.
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| Monday-12.03.2001: Well, I finished The Monk in the Garden this weekend, and got a new book titled Microcosmos. Good stuff about evolution. I also got a self-teaching book on Biology so that I have a better understanding of the science before going to college. We are presenting web pages right now, so I have to cut this short. Late.
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| Friday-11.30.2001: How tired I am after only 2 hours of sleep. I almost feel stoned, almost. So this page is finally due for a grade, and what a relief. Tonight, I will go out with Zac to the bookstore and check out some great reading material. Maybe some philosophy, maybe some porn, you'll just have to wait and find out.
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| Thursday-11.29.2001: Snow, finally, after months of nothing, snow. It just started, and a beautiful thing it would be, if there was no school for the snow to fall on. To see snow fall on a field of grass or a still lake, would be a dream come true. Man's creations, schools, roads, and all that crap, ruin a beautiful gift from God. The beauty is still there, but society as a whole takes away from the totality of that gift.
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| Wednesday-11.28.2001: Nothing to report. I got no sleep last night, so I'm going to sleep during lunch. Maybe even now!
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| Tuesday-11.27.2001:
"Death smiles at us all, and all a man can do is smile back." -From the movie 'Gladiator'. That movie rules by the way, so if you have the means, rent it. I get to see my P.O. after school for a U.A. and to talk about court stuff. Jessica will be giving me a ride there. Loads of fun. I hate sitting in this class, we don't do anything and it ruins my typing skills! Well, maybe the practice is good, but I really don't like sitting in here, doing the same stuff everyday. Last night, or this morning (however you want to look at it) I went to Cafe Brazil and read for a few hours. A very relaxing experience, I had five cups of coffee and got home about 4 am. *please note that this was written on a very bad day*
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| Monday-11.26.2001:
Thanksgiving was a blast! Tons of fun things like eating and visiting my family. My older brother, his wife, and two children came up to Dallas to stay with us for two days. Always good to see the ones you love! My ex poured more salt into break up wound by calling me on the 23rd and telling me to have a happy anniversary. It would have been 7 months if we were still together.... WHAT A BITCH!
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| Monday-11.19.2001:
Well I have 4 months sober today. Can you sense the thrill in my tone? Well, my weekend was ok, I finished a book and played some chess. Same old same old. Live has been boring with no lady to spend time with. Guess I'll go on the hunt when I am comfortable with people.
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| Thursday-11.15.2001:
I had a very stressful day yesterday. I was so worried about Angie's using that I gave her a nice letter. I wanted to tell her parents, but that wouldn't do anything. I just wanted her to know I cared really, but she didn't even get that message. She misconstrued my intentions as controlling, not as I intended: caring.
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| Tuesday-11.13.2001:
What a night I had last night. I watched a kick ass movie and an episode of DBZ. The movie was French Kiss and has Meg Ryan. Anyway, it was funny and reminded me of what a movie thinks love is. I told that pothead off last night. Freaking out, I was telling he about my trust issues and why it is so important to me. She wasn't even listening to me when I was talking to her (she was renaming 'files'). She had been smoking yesterday, so I got even more pissed when I found that out. She had only 3 thought in her head. "I'm sorry," "what can I do," and "I really hurt you." All the other feelings were too complicated for her to verbalize. I talked to Heather and Andrew last night as well. Tonight I'm going out with Zac and his girlfriend for dinner and a meeting.
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| Monday-11.12.2001:
What a weekend. I got a book and the new 2600. I was so bored it is not even funny. I hate my life. I spent the whole weekend at home, not fun at all. I'm so tired of it all; desperation consumes me with every breathe I take.
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| Friday-11.09.2001:
Wow, what an easy test, I hope I did better than a 50. I talked to Shawn and this dude about going to FunImation for a tour. We might go next week, if possible. I am missing Angie a lot lately, doubting weather or not it is right for us to be apart. She doesn't respect herself so how can I respect her? Last night I over reacted because she believed her own lies. She told me her parents wouldn't pay for her college if she didn't go to the 'best' school possible. Then said if she could go to the 'best' school she would. No problem except that her parents are loving and would do anything for her. She is Dad's little girl, and if she wanted to go to Harvard instead of Yale, that would be cool with her parents. She deceives herself and acts like its nothing. Guess it is for her.
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| Thursday-11.08.2001:
I had group yesterday, so I couldn't log anything exciting. Sorry guys. Today doesn't seem that much better, I stayed up all night writing some damn English paper on Kurt Vonnegut. I'm damn tired, and have to watch this presentation. |
| Tuesday-11.06.2001:
I went to bed early last night and had this weird dream of one of my friends. I was explaining to him why I don't live with him and eating four pizzas. My mother woke me up and I was quite confused, I thought she would yell at me for having food in my room. I then realized I had no pizza. I'm not as tired as yesterday and should be able to handle something other than the normal drudge of life. 44 more days till Winter Break.
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| Monday-11.05.2001:
Well its Monday, and what do I have to show for it? Nothing but the knowledge that I read a book titled The Double Helix and can say that I loved it. The author discovered the structure of DNA and tells his experience through the research. Not dry sciences write up, this book tells of the stress, competitiveness, and personal account of the historic discovery. Also this weekend, I went out to dinner with Angie on Saturday. We went to IHOP and didn't eat much. I'm so hungry now that I wish I could leave class and go to Jack In the Box.
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Friday-11.02.2001:
OH MY GOD!!! I just met the guy who does the voice of the Supreme Kai! What a happy day! Oh happy day! I was in class talking to this student behind me. We were discussing DBZ and looking over some Dragonball Z cards when he told me of the great news: Kewt was here. He is teaching stage fighting as I type this entry! I am still in shock from all this joy and will need to change my pants. His humility is admirable for he seemed surprised that the two of us were so excited and eager for his autograph.
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| Thursday-11.01.2001:
GAD!!! Man I screwed things up today, well yesterday anyway. My girlfriend and I broke up because we weren't happy. We bicker all the time. I got tired of her smoking pot all the time because that makes me want to smoke. If I smoke, I die. She doesn't respect herself ("I don't respect myself because I let you treat me badly." - Angie) and I don't respect her. She can't keep her word about anything and does things without consideration for anyone's feelings.
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| Wednesday-10.31.2001:
Not much can be said for today. I coded this page after I finished a test in web mastering, class I take at school. I count down the days till I graduate, only FOREVER more to go. Year number five makes one very anxious to leave, imagine that. These kids around me (and yes most of them are kiddies) get on my nerves quite a bit. Its not that I'm better than them. I just don't exasperate myself as easily. |
