I live, I am, I was.

I am afugitive of humanity's enigmas
I ponder over the challenges of existance
I hear Gods silent whisper in my ear
I view the consciousness in every living thing
I desire oneness within myself
I am a fugitive of humanity's enigmas

I sense the soul within the earth
I pretend to live the existance that people believe I live
I grasp minute parts of the immense mural known as life
I fear the eternal nothingness in solitude
I cry for tranquility in this deranged and confused Creation
I am a fugitive of humanity's enigmas

I percieve sorrow in the heart and soul
I speak out for unity throught the world 
I dream of the annihilation of evil
I give solace in times of sorrow and need
I hope to bestow my gifts on to the world
I am a fugitive of humanity's enigmas

Prejudice
Blinded by the darkness
of this cage, my only haven
from the society that put me here
because I had no place with them, 
I was the blue piece in their dull 
black-and-white jigsaw, the one that
didn't, couln't fit in anywhere no matter
how hard I tried to make myself, I couldn't
fit into their colorless world because I refused
to be colorless, I had no right to exist - I didn't exist
because they put me away, far away from everything, from anyone
who would listen to or find me here, in this cage, where I am
silenced by lack of sound, constricted by empty space here,
where the darkness is blinding

Life After High School

Cheerleaders, Queens
in Pom-Pom kingdoms
living only on weekends

Football Players, Homecoming Heroes
in the stadium lights
living only for the crowd's cheer on Friday nights

Boys and Girls, Romeos and Juliets
in their misguided dillusions of love
living only for their polyester emotions

Graduates, Failures
in minimum wage jobs
living only on cheap liquor and nosttalgia

A man and a Woman, Divorced at 25
in low rent houses
living only on welfare and food stamps

looking back, year-books
in captivity of the past 
living only in high school

Lying awake at night
I stare, and try to fight.
I fight the feelings of the pat
I wish that they would only last.

When I try to sleep in bed
all these memories come to my head.
I try and try and try to dream
but when I wake, I start to scream.

I scream because I think of you.
I know my dreams won't come true,
Something I prayed and dreamed for
then you had walked out the door.

You walked out the door of my heart
and suddenly I had begun to start
to cry and cry and cry some more
all because you walked out the door.

I can not help but to think
I'm not with you, now dosen't that stink?
I wish I was, I wish I could
Love and cherish, I wish you would.

Please, oh please, I beg and plead,
love me forever.  I will indeed.
Please stay and love me till the day we die
I love you forever, that isn't a lie.

I will fight the memories and the pain
something I wish I had to gain.
I will never stop loving you.
I hope someday my dreams come true.

Alone

Time lingers in my world
  where all my saddness I unfurled
You never even said goodbye
  and now I stand with empty eyes
You were the life in my soul
  and I can't stand to let you go
So here I'm left in nothingness
  among tears and lonliness
I'm in a void of emptiness and grief
  you were all I'd ever need
All I can do is reminesce
  the breeze on my face is your gentle kiss
your happy face I long to see
  but I can't because you've abandoned me
In a veil of grief this world I wonder
  why you left is all I ponder
We were happy together, you and me
  in love,we swore,we'd always be
And as time creeps slowly by
  all I can do is weep and cry
I'm left in a world of pain and sorrow
  for you've left to a place beyond all of my tomorrows.