Alcoholic Haze

Six weeks into denial
everyone pretending our lives our okay
no need to contemplate leaving
another meeting to cross off from the calendar.

I keep smiling when people ask
how we're both doing
a euphemistic question that
really wants to know about the latest
bout of drinking.

Family members from both sides
attempt to keep conversations to 
small talk themes:  Hey, how about
those new young ball players?  Where
ya takin'  the kids on school vacation?

Last week I waited hours for
a ride home  once again I had been
forgotten.  An apology of slurred words
added to the pile of insults  my response
is silence.  I stuff chocolate chip cookies
inside my hands.

Sex is disgusting and I get slammed
for getting fatter  when the alarm rings
on Monday morning, I can't wait to
leave for an eight hour day of sanity.

Heartaches and Headaches

Tossing and turning
Thoughts through my head
Thinking and Wondering
I wish I was dead

Heartaches and headaches
All stuck inside
With all friends and fakes
I just want to cry

Wondering why I am
Wondering what I’ll be
Wondering who is there
And who will be there for me

Listening to people
Getting Advice
Trying to sort things out
Wish it was nice

But a new hurt arises
And a new dawn begins
Life’s full of surprises
And not many wins

COWS

See the cow she's half black,
and the other half is white.
She's proud and true as a cow can be,
oh what a wonderful sight.
You can pet her on her head,
or tuch her in her stall.
Comb her and she'll tell you moo,
she don't mind at all.
But when you go to feed her,
don't make a big mistake.
Listen to me I'm telling you now,
don't try to feed a cow steak.

EVERYTHING IS GONE

If everything was gone,
there wouldn't be no trees.
There wouldn't be no flowers,
or there wouldn't be no bees.
There wouldn't be no pancakes,
no cats or dogs or fleas.
Nothing anywhere to eat,
not even any peas.
If everything was gone,
there's nothing left to see.
I couldn't see it anyway,
'cause there wouldn't be no me.

Open up
Hearts away
Shot with an arrow
Though not astray

Coming apart
At the seams
Wondering what
It could possibly mean

Then a call
To a friend
To see how she's feeling
After the end

Loves renewed 
Feelings opened
Just withe the words
That were spoken

So now I wait
For the day
When I see her again
And never go away