i find that i am at my happiest when i am not thinking about the fact that i'm alone.  i force myself to do other things.  i have been diving head first into reading for classes.  i spend most of my time in the library.  i know that people have a problem (probably jealousy) with the fact that i am doing so.  i put a lot of time and thought into my work.  and, quite frankly, not to be immodest, it shows.  i pride myself in that fact.  it really means a lot to me.  i say it all the time to my parents, but i went through a lot to get where i am.  i have also seen where i would have ended up if i hadn't worked to get here.  and i'm not kidding when i say that i love it here.  i know that i will love it even more next year when i am by myself in my own room.  but i just can't stand people's attitudes any more.  i know that people get annoyed with the fact that i keep to myself and refuse to get involved.  but i am here to say to you people (even though i know you'll never read this) that it is definitely better that i don't get involved because i'd be the one to show you how wrong your opinion is.  and, in addition, i keep to myself because i will never, ever let myself stoop to your petty level.