i remember kindergarten.  i remember being the first to tie my shoes.  i was also the first to read.  i got so many priveleges.  i got to take milk orders and carry the tray to and from the cafeteria.  it is amazing what you remember.

i'm having serious mood swings.  i am really tired of dealing with ignorance on a daily basis.  people claim to be so open, so worldly.  but they are, in reality, talking out of their ass.
i am also tired of being alone.  it is extremely ironic that i say this.  i live with another person every day.  but that isn't what i'm looking for.

i'm looking for someone to put their hand on my shoulder.  i'm looking for someone who'd be here.  when ever i need them.  even if i don't talk.  i just want to be with someone.  when you've been with someone, no matter how short of a time it was, you don't want to be alone.

don't get me wrong, i can preach for an hour on the benefits of being single.  but one can be single for only so long.

i'm just so tired of falling asleep alone.