this is who i've turned into.  analyzing everything.

i had a lot of time on my hands this weekend.  i was one of the only people left in the building.  i'm not complaining.  lately, all i've wanted was to be alone.  spending day in and day out with a person who is basically a stranger gets a little taxing.  sometimes i think i'd give everything just to be myself.  i can't do that just yet here.  i am certain that all of me would scare these people away.  more than anything, it hurts that i've lost pretty much all of the people who knew me.  sometimes i sit and wonder what i did.  what i did wrong.  how did i push all of these people out of my life?  i probably have changed.  college does that to people.  but did i really change that much?  and that bad?  wonder if i'll ever find out.