| MY WORST ENEMY |
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| I'm tired of feeling my own foot in my ass from kicking myself over things in the past "I'm such an idiot" I hear myself say "I wonder what dumb thing I'll do today" So hard on myself, how cruel I can be I'm truly my own worst enemy But hey, I'm only admitting the truth Seems the older I get, the more I goof You'd think that by now I ought to have learned to make better choices, and not to get burned One of the biggest problems with me Is I only see what I want to see I fall for the lie, then I fall for the guy Then I hate myself for it and wonder why Oh sure, I have friends who console and forgive Why can't I be nice? Give myself a lift? See how I am? Now I'm hating both sides How many of me are in this fight? How can I win this battle within The insults and put downs are wearing me thin I could change my name, or move away I could fake my own death, but that's no escape To myself, I need to be more of a friend 'cause wherever I go, there I am Somehow, I'm just gonna have to make peace and try to stop being so damned hard to please See there? I just did it again For hating myself, it seems there's no end But the one thing I have is the humor I find I can laugh at myself - I just kill me sometimes Is laughter the best medicine? It must be true So, welcome to the land of the easily amused I can ease the pain I inflict on myself With a dose of "funny" for my mental health If that's too hard to swallow, and I feel myself choke Fuck me, if I can't take a joke |
| (c) 2004 Sheila W |