01.31.04

    I feel loved!

    I was browsing my favorite blogs today and I am totally being linked (temporarily I think) to adjacent.ca. Yeah! You rock!

    I have also learned more about my situation with a "friend" who has caused me trouble lately. I now know the motive, so all I have to do is figure what to do about it. I think that is going to be alot harder to do than it sounds.

    I finally went to Duluth last night. Me and my mom went to Kohls and Barnes & Noble. I saw some neat picture frames at Kohls and some shelves that I think will go nicely in my room when I have it re-done. The only thing I bought was a nifty little photo album from Barnes & Noble. It's black with a ribbon on the side to tie it shut and a space on the front cover for a photo or something. I've already started to fill it up. Anyway, the music section of Barnes & Nobles is so awesome.. I could have stayed there all night! I definitly need these CD's:          Time to update the photolog -- Coming soon: Shoe Series.. I like the sound of that.

Addendum: My mom is yelling at me. She is mad and accusing me of something I had nothing to do with. And I don't care. Looks like I will be hiding in the basement for a while..

    Casey says: 8-(
    Casey says: 8+(
    Casey says: B)
    Casey says: B-)
    Andi says: those thingies dont work on my comp
    Casey says: Just trying stuff
    Casey says: mine neither
    Andi says: hahaha!!
    Casey says: I'm just making them up

    Thanks Casey for cheering me up! Ok, I know it's not that funny really.. But it made me feel better..

written by: Andi

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01.30.04

    Second snow day in a row = Four day weekend = Need saxophone.. NOW.

    I can't believe we have another four day weekend! Most people are really excited, and I think it's nice and all, but I am getting very lonely.. I have too much time to myself. (Never thought I would be saying that!) And I am dieing to play my sax, which is sitting all alone in a cage in the deep, dark, scary band tunnel. How frightning.

    So, what to do, what to do.. I want to go take pictures but I don't think it's very safe to be out in this cold for as long as it would take to get some decent shots. I would draw right now but I really don't have the urge to.. What I really want is my sax. How depressing.

Addendum: Casey answered my question about the braces:

    Ofcourse one's tongue wouldn't stick to them.. They are made of titanium. DUH.

written by: Andi

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01.29.04

    No school -- again.

    School was cancelled this morning because it was 20 degrees below zero, without the wind chill. I'm most deffinitly staying inside today, unless we go to Duluth. I need to go to Duluth.

    I'm actaully unhappy that there wasn't school today because now hockey is cancelled. I was so ready to get some cool pictures with my dad's camera. Plus, I don't care what everyone says, because pep band rocks! So there.

    I have no clue what to do today.. We had Friday off last week, and Monday off this week so we had a four day weekend. And now we have today off.. I have way too much free time. Or maybe I just have too little to do. Must. Find. Stuff. To. Do.. Agh.

    I guess I am gonna head on out for now. Maybe I will clean up my room. I feel like ripping all the pictures off my walls and finding new junk for them. I will write again later today.

Addendum: I don't feel so good.

    So I heard something not so great today. Something that has helped me to come to a decision that I have been trying to make for a while now. I'm really hurt about it and I don't want to fight with anyone but I am afraid I'm going to have to say goodbye to one of my friends. I have been talked about behind my back one too many times.

    This all seems so pointless. No matter how hard I try to make this work something goes wrong. Sometimes I wonder why I even try -- Maybe it's all pointless. I wish I could tell myself it is, but I care about him way too much.

written by: Andi

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01.28.04

    Why do people do stupid things that upset me?

    One of my charming "friends" went and told somebody something behind my back -- again. It's nothing new and I should have expected it from her, seeing as it has happened before, but no.. I always trust people who obviously can't be trusted. Thanks alot for embarrasing me. Your a real bud. But that's enough of that. For now atleast.

    Theres a pep band this friday at the hockey game against Central and I am very much so psyched to use my dad's awsome camera. He is letting me use it because it has a zoom lense, and a 200mm lense so I can finally get some better shots that arn't all blurred and such. Woot.

    We got to go to our classes with our new scheduals yesterday. That was a load of fun. I don't know anyone in my classes. Last semester I had atleast one friend in each class or there were people in the classes that I talked to a little bit, but I am almost a complete stranger to the kids in my new schedual. Sure I see them around but I don't know them.. This is going to be a long semester.

    I'm thinking that I am going to go now and write again later when I get home. I am at the library right now and it's very nerve racking to try to write with all these people.. wandering around me.. Yeah. I'm sensitive. Before I go though, I have a question for everyone...

    If a person with braces goes outside on a cold winter day and has his/her mouth is open too long.. wouldn't his/her tongue get stuck to the braces?

    Yup. That's about all for now..

written by: Andi

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01.26.04

    Yeah, snow day!

    No school, no orchestra, no docters apointment. Could this get any better? Well actaully, I kind of wish that there was school today because we all have new scheduals and I really wanted cookies in homeroom.. Yeah, I believe I'm very addicted to those cookies..

    I think I am going to go draw or maybe make another webpage. I have been working on layouts all weekend and would like to use them. Speaking of layouts, please tell me what you think of the new one! If you refresh the page, the image at the top should change. It is one of four random photos. Nifty right?

    I definitly feel like frolicking in the snow right now, but I have no one to frolick with - how upsetting..

written by: Andi

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01.25.04

    I hope everyone around here likes snow - 'cause theres lots of it!

    Why is it this year, that there is no snow on Christmas, but now towards the end of January we are are drowning in it? Well, maybe not drowning.. But we are definitly past our ankles in snow. Ah, Minnesota is so cruel..

    The upside of all the weather; (other than the fact that it's real pretty..) there may not be any school tomorrow. And if it gets bad enough, I wont have to go to my physical for Track. Yeah, I have a physical tomorrow so everyone has to be nice to me because there is hardly anything in this world that I hate more than going to the docter.

    So other than hiding away from the coldness outside this weekend, I decided to work on a new layout. It's another hockey themed one and it's really simple. Here is the link for it so you guys can have a sneak preview and tell me what you think of it. The image across the top is one of four photos that come up randomly so if you refresh the page you should get a different picture.

    Well, I think I am going to go do some drawing now. I found some nifty sports photos at Mr. Rauvola's Photography webpage that I would like to draw. The link is posted above if anyone is intrested. Stay warm and dry everyone!

written by: Andi

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01.24.04

    The past two days have just blown by. Which is kind of weird considereing I did absolutly nothing.

    I went to the play practice yesterday, and I guess I was suposed to come with today but no one told me or assigned me anything to do so I assumed I wasn't needed. I honestly don't care though.

    I'm really glad finals are over. We change over to our new schedual on Monday so that will be nice for a change. But I am going miss having a bunch of classes with my friends because now I don't have any classes with people I know. Well, except for WE, Jazz Band, and Visual Basics. I can't believe the first semester is over!

     This is all good and fun but the Bulldog's game is on TV. I wanted to go, but I guess I will have to settle for watching it here at home. It started about 10 minutes ago I think..

    I. Need. Hockey.. And hot chocolate. Now.

written by: Andi

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01.20.04

    Somedays you just wish that your entire day had never happened.. This is one of those days.

    I guess I might as well start off by letting it be known that I am always careful about what I say here just in case one of my "friends" might actaully read this. It seems that I'm always trying not to anger anyone.. or say the "wrong thing". I really hate to set people off, but that deosn't seem to stop them from making me upset, so I have come to the conclusion that I really don't need to hold back any more. If anyone is offended then they can just leave.

    So now that I have cleared that up, I might as well start telling why today was a complete flop for me.

    This week is finals week so today we only had four classes to go to. My first class was art, which was ok because I nearly finished my drawing that I have been working on for nearly two weeks now. After that I went to World History and we watched Monty Python and the Holy Grail. Things were seeming to be fine up until Lunch..

    When I got to the lunch room it was packed because the younger kids that were in there with us today had some how gotten there before everyone else and overrun the cafeteria. After trying without luck to find somewhere to sit, me and Cyndi went to Holiday for lunch. It was freezing cold the whole way there and I wasn't really in the mood to eat, but I got some chips and hot chocolate anyways. When we got back, there was still nowhere for us to sit. Me and Casey went to the bandroom but that was a bore because they were watching Drumline - not a good movie..

    After lunch I went to biology and retook the test I forgot to study for again. Then we did a worksheet and a boring lab. The whole time this is going on, Dan is walking between me and another girl across the room, back and forth. First he would talk to me for a minute then he would be gone and over to the other side of the room, and sure enough two seconds later, he's back again. This is about the point in the day where I become ever so slightly irretated..

    My last class of the day was Jazz Band. Instead of watching a movie like was planned, we helped the first graders from the John A. decorate masks. It was kind of refreshing and sweet. The kids were not nearly as badly behaved as we were told they would be, but it still was rather draining. When it was time for them to go, the little kids left and we cleaned up the mess of paper, paints, and brushes. I went to talk to Dan like usual while we were cleaning, and he puts his arm around me and holds my hand and what not, nothing new. But the second I walk away he is with that girl again, and walking back and forth between us. It feels so weird when he has his arm around me, but is watching another girl from across the room.

    After school I went to the play practice. By this point I wasn't too upset but I really didn't feel like being messed around with. It really didn't help though that there was this horribly anoying girl there. I never thought she was too annoying, even though when me and Dan were there she wouldn't leave us alone together, but I have found her within the past few days to be a complete nuisance. (I'm not going to get into why..) Anyway, after the practice I was hanging out with Travis and Addison and Anna, and this is where I made my first mistake.. I asked Travis if he wanted to go to the game, not knowing that he was going to bring Addison and Anna, who didn't even want to go. When we got to the game, they just stayed upstairs and played games so I said I would go downstairs to watch with Cyndi and that they could go find me if they wanted to. They all said ok so I found Cyndi and Alayne in the stands and we watched the game together. When we came back upstairs I couldn't find Travis anywhere and I thought that they left, which was fine with me.. I don't even know wny they were there in first place - It's not like they wanted to be there.

    I did have an intresting conversation with Alayne that made me feel better, and Katie and Cyndi were being really nice like usual. It's funny isnt't it, how some friends make you so happy, and others make you want to die? So we lost but some people had a really good game tonight so it's all good. When I got to the door, me and Alayne and Katie and Cyndi were having a great time talking and what not and Travis calls my cell and asks if I need a ride home. He said he was going to be by the left door and that his lights would be on, so I wait by the door but I couldn't find him. It seems that he parked quite aways from the door and he was rather ticked that I couldn't find his car in the busy parking lot. When I got to the car, they wouldn't let me in and I could hear them laughing at me out in the cold. Right at that very moment, I thought of my real friends inside the warm arena, and wished so very much that I had stayed with them - Then they unlocked the door and I got in. I said nothing the whole ride home but thank you when we got to the house. I walked in, chucked my purse down on the chair, cried for a moment.. and here I am.

    Now I know that to most of you, this deosn't seem like a bad day at all. But for me it was rather painful, and I hope you understand what that means and don't be critical of me or anything I said. I did however discover who my real, true friends are, and for that I am thankful.

written by: Andi

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01.18.04

    So yeah, I'm hiding in the basement right now.

    I've been down here nearly all day. Nothing else better to do, like homework or anything. Just hiding away with my music playing. My mom has been around the house the past two days and she has been driving me nuts with her nagging and rude comments; all the more reason for me to be here.

    Saw the Bulldogs hockey game last night.. We won 1-4 against Colorado. I definitly need to go to one of those games. They look really exciting. I've been dieing to see some hockey for weeks now.

    Well, I think I am going to go now. I'm sure I will write again later tonight.. But right now I have to get some food, see if there are any football games on TV, give my dad a call, and do my missing French work. Ack, that last part is kind of unpleasent.

written by: Andi

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01.17.04

    What a nice lazy day.. Nothing to do.. and am I enjoying it!

    Now, a survey for your enjoyment.

Name Four Bad Habits You Have
1. Complaining
2. Not doing things I am suposed to do/Procrastication
3. Being annoying
4. Not calling people I said I would call

Name Four Things That You Wish You Had
1. Better social skill
2. More confidence
3. Money
4. Better improv sax skills

Name Four Scents You Love:
1. Vanilla or Tea
2. Spring rain
3. A certain person's cologne
4. Leather

Name Four People That Know You the Best:
1. Kala
2. Travis
3. Cyndi
4. Alayne

Name Four Things You'd Never Wear
1. An ugly Sweatshirt without a hood
2. Toe socks
3. Someone elses underwear
4. Big sunglasses

Name Four Things You Are Thinking Of Right Now:
1. School
2. Jazz
3. Dan
4. What I am going to do today/the weather

Name Four Things That You Have Done Today:
1. Woke up
2. Ate Pop-tarts
3. Showered
4. Gone online

Name The Last Four Things You have Bought:
1. A purse
2. Presents for family and friends
3. Lunch
4. Pants/a belt

Name Four Drinks You Regularly Drink:
1. Water
2. Tea/Hot chocolate
3. Milk
4. Pop

First Grade Teacher's Name?
Mrs. Nelson

Last Words You Said:
"Bye", "See ya", something like that to my dad when he went to the shop

Last Song You Sang?
"In The Summertime" by Mungo Jerry

Last Person You Hugged?
I think Hannah hugged me last week..

Last Thing You Laughed At?
Max's pop exploding on stage at play practice.

Last Time You Cried?
Last weekend.

What's In Your CD Player?
My copy of a Glen Miller CD from Dan.. Forgot which one.

What Color Socks Are You Wearing?
Tall white ones

What's Under Your Bed?
A box with art stuff,a few papers, and old track ribbons.

What Time Did you Wake Up Today?
10 AM

Current Taste?
Toothpaste

Current Hair?
Pulled up into a messy bun

Current Clothes?
Light blue jeans, old marroon track t-shirt, MN Wild sweatshirt.

Current Annoyance?
The fact that no one has called me today.

Current Longing?
Lunch, tea, someone to talk to, Dan.

Current Desktop Picture?
A pic taken at school.

Current Worry?
My grades, my friends, Dan.

Current Hate?
Nothing

Favorite Physical Feature Of the Opposite Sex?
Eyes and smile.

Favorite Place To Be?
At home, orchestra, school, anywhere my friends are.

Least Favorite Place?
The docter's office.

written by: Andi

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01.17.04

    I had to do this post much later then I wanted to becuase my site crashed again.

    Well, I dunno if it really crashed, but it was down for about an hour becuase of a problem with the data transfer. That is so frustrating. It happens more often now becuase of all my photos here. That reminds me, I am going to try to put new photos in the photolog right after this post.

    I have had such a weird week. Mostly becuase of the way people have been behaving. Most of my friends are fine but a few seem a little distant and perhaps a bit upset. Plus Dan has been rather.. affectionate lately.. and I'm really not used to that. Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining about it or anything, I love it really, but I just struggle alot in those situations. Perhaps I shall leave it at that?

    So, eh I am still taking lots of pictures at school. I got better ones at the begining of the week for some reason than the end of the week, but I should get some more good ones at the hockey game this Tuesday. Boy am I dieing to see some hockey! It seems like forever sense I've seen them play, and I am still kicking myself over missing their last home game. They won against Ely, 5-4. Sounds like it was a great game but for some reason I can't find the prep summary for it anywhere. It's just punishment for not being there.

    Well, this is exciting and all, and I would really like to write more here, but I don't have much else to say, so I guess I am going to update the photolog a little. Go check it out!

written by: Andi

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01.14.04

    I'm supposed to be doing my homework right now but, blah, I don't feel like doing it.

    Hey, it's so great to stretch my fingers again and start typing. I've either been too upset or too busy to post sence the 2nd. It's the 14th.

    So, eh, what's new you wonder? Nodda much. I've been attending the play practices the past week just for the heck of it. I usually just hang out with Kala when she deosn't have any parts to act out. It's kind of nice to sit there quietly and think/study/sleep. Yeah I fell asleep during their play.. Oops?

    I have been bringing both cameras to school lately and I got some great pics within the past few days. Most of them are from band and lunch. Paulie also took a few for me. I might post them later. She got a great pic of me and Dan yesterday that I might post for fun too.. Which reminds me - things with me and Dan have been tres bien.

    As much as I hate to say this.. I'm afraid it's time for me to go suffer (aka: do homework) I think I will post again soon. Buh bye!

written by: Andi

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01.02.04

    Ok, I hope my year deosn't turn out like the first two days of 2004, being cold, bored, and waiting by the phone all day.

    Ok Andrea.. step away from the phone. He's not calling.

    Well atleast I can look forward to eating at my grandparents' house tonight.

    My god. He just called. 30 seconds after I typed that. He called. Thats cool.

    Eh, anyways I am bored out of my mind and now he's coming over and I am not suposed to have friends over so this should be intresting. I wish there was something to do in this town, anything. Because really, I don't feel like spending a 5th day in a row at an arena. My feet are sore from standing around and the skin on my nuckles is drying up from being in the dry are. Yes, I am sensitive.

    Well I guess I better get going cause he's gonna be here soon.

Addendum : Mmm Junior Mints!

    So my mom let us stay here in the basement and we listened to music and what not and he gave me junior mints. Yay! I LOVE Junior Mints. Well I better get going now. Got to get to my grandmas for dinner.

written by: Andi

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01.01.04

    Happy New Year!

    So I went to Casey's New Years Party last night. That was pretty fun. Alot of my friends were there and we watched TV and ate pizza, you know, the esentials for a party. Me and Kala played chess and we watched a couple of movies. It wasn't too exciting but I still had alot of fun.

    I can't believe 2003 has already passed. And I also can't believe everything that has happened within the past year. It's pretty crazy really. But enough of that.. Time for New Years Resolutions!

1.) Exercise more to get ready for track season.
2.) Eat more healthy foods.
3.) Get more sleep.
4.) Be kinder to people.
5.) Raise all my grades.
6.) Swear less. (even though I hardly swear at all as is)
7.) Get along better with my mom.
8.) Take better care of myself in general.

    Yeah, I know it's alot but it's worth a try. I'l probably think of more later too. But, really I don't know how I'm gonna do all that.

    I just found a New Years survey on another site and had to fill it out! Yes I know. Two entries in a row with surveys. I'm sorry.

What did you do in 2003 that you'd never done before? Run Varsity track and join orchestra, Jazz Band, and City Band.
Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I really can't remeber my New Years resolutions from last year, but I think I kept a few of them. I made some for this year too.
Did anyone close to you give birth? Nope.
Did anyone close to you die? No.
What countries did you visit? None
What would you like to have in 2004 that you lacked in 2003? More money, a job maybe.. Lot's of things.
What date from 2003 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? The weekend that we went to the Festival of nations and Band contest.
What was your biggest achievement of the year? Joining Concert Orchestra and City band, taking up photography, and also my Beatles Portrait Series.
What was your biggest failure? Not getting A's in really easy classes at school and treating someone I care about deeply rather poorly.
Did you suffer illness or injury? Not that I can remember.
What was the best thing you bought? I don't have much money so I didn't buy many things for myself, so probably gifts for my friends and family.
Whose behavior merited celebration? I don't know.
What did you get really, really, really excited about? Haha! All sorts of things. A few people likeing me, being section principle at Orchestra, playing first chair in Jazz Band, getting 5th place in the 300 hurdles in track and lettering in track.
What song(s) will always remind you of 2003? Anything Beatles, and probably alot of jazz pieces.
Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? It's really hard to remember, but I think I am happier.
ii. thinner or fatter? I think I am a little fatter.
iii. richer or poorer? The same.
What do you wish you'd done more of? Spent more time outside.
What do you wish you'd done less of? Being unhappy with people and takeing them seriously and also being on the computer so much.
How will you be spending Christmas? I spent Christmas with my family.
Did you fall in love in 2003? Yes.
How many one-night stands? Thats funny. None.
What was your favorite TV program? King of the Hill
Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? I don't hate anyone but i do dislike certain people.
What was the best book you read? Seabiscuit and David Copperfield.
What was your greatest musical discovery? I didn't really make any discoveries but I got really deep into The Beatles.
What did you want and get? A guitar and a guy.
What was your favorite film of this year? I didn't see to many movies this year but I rented Sea Biscuit and it was really good.
What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? Oh my Birthday was cool. It was really laid back. The day before, I had a soccer game near the cities and Kala came with. It turned midnight partway home and Kala sang happy birthday. I went to City Band practice and had cake there for everyone. It was really pleasent.
What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Worrying less about stuff and spending less time on the computer. Also fighting with people less.
How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2003? I wear what is comfortable.
What kept you sane? My closest friends, music, and my parents.
Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Paul McCartney
What political issue stirred you the most? The War.
Who did you miss? A few people over the summer.
Who was the best new person(s) you met? I didn't meet anyone new but I started relationships and became friends with people I already knew, like Casey and Anna, and Dan.
Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2003: Don't let peoples' feelings and actions get to you too much.
Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: I've Got A Feeling by The Beatles.

    Well it really is about time I stopped now.. This entry is way too long. Plus I need sleep cause I am getting up tomarrow. Happy New Year, and I hope everyone had a nice 2003 and has a great 2004!

written by: Andi

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