So Many Nights...

So many nights ago I wondered if maybe they'd ever come back for me. I lived in fear that once again they would be beating me on the living room floor, bruises everywhere on my body, trying to be strong and brave for mama and sisters, but no, I was too weak. They took them all and left me there in my own blood so fragile I couldn't get up for 2 days, thinking that I'd never see them again. I would cry myself to sleep, I keep warm with what left we had of the wood I had cut with papa last season, and berries fromt he bush outside of my window, I didn't want to live anymore Why Me, Why Me? Ps, My name is Shalub, I am a girl but really a boy in some far away country