Putting the phone back down again
with sadness in our eyes
The realisation of the damage done
make us just want to cry ~
After long arduous hours
waiting for the phone to ring
We hope that in the coming weeks
will see some happenings.

Phone calls with the Department
seem to go nowhere
While arguing what we think is best
is for them to be in our care ~
After the heartbreaking conditions
those children had lived in
We just want to offer them
all that they were missing.

In desperate need of security
and a stable loving home
The love that we can give them
is something they've never known ~
Too young to remember
what are lies or truth
But old enough to be aware
of the heartache they've been through.

It saddens us to think that they
have never known the love
To be safe and feel secure
the life that they dream of ~
Our hearts cry out for their pain
and hoping they will see
That they will come to know with us
love and security.

Right now it appears to be
the Department doesn't care
That if they looked close enough
there is no question there ~
What they have is past history
and those no longer apply
We only want to establish
what my husband's been denied.

So difficult to see the truth
with so much hate and lies
The stories that they have been told
is now fear in their eyes ~
For they only know the anger
they had drawn from their mum
and cannot see beyond that fear
of what she said he'd done.

So we begin to have access
to build a new rapport
With the children we so long to show
the love that they search for ~
At first it's just the phone calls
to establish a kind of trust
Until they are more comfortable
and they begin seeing us.

So while we have their interests
firmly in our minds
We realise they're not ready
to see us at this time ~
There is too much confusion
they cannot understand
While they thought he was a monster
he now reaches out his hand.

A long road to recovery
for some time to come
To repair the brokenness
and damage she had done ~
As time goes by they will see
the good is not all bad
And the secure love they'll come to know
from me and their dad.

The best interests of the children
are deep in our hearts
The life that we can give to them
will hopefully soon start ~
It gives us joy to see that they
will soon know the love
For the security of these children
is all we can think of.

© Christina
25th May, 2001

"I wrote this about our struggle with the Department in trying to show we have stability and security to offer these children, and fighting with the past history and rubbish that has been dealt upon the minds of these little ones. My husband has been denied his children for so long now, we have to rebuild a rapport with them, and show them that those stories are different ~ WE are different. We have the best interests of the children in our hearts and minds."