Betrayed

She cries alone in her bed
the moonlight on her face
The unbelief of such betrayal
her mind cannot erase ~
The very thought of anything
they may have shared together
Only makes her feel that she will
feel like this forever.

The feeling of rejection
is foremost in her mind
While she wonders what "she" offered him
on their fantasy hotline ~
She agonises at the thought
of the intimacy they shared
With words they spoke in heated tones
enticing an affair.

An image forming in her mind
as tears fell from her eyes
She did nothing to deserve this;
she could not imagine why ~
Was life with her that unhappy
that he wanted to engage
In an affair with a girl
who was almost half his age.

He told her that he loved them both
but he could not decide
Which of them he wanted more
to sleep by his side ~
And like a knife through her heart
it pained her to the core
That he wanted someone else
he said that he loved more.

She tried not to think about
that ominous phone call
When he laid it out to bear
and was prepared to lose it all ~
He said "she" made him feel young again
with "her" he felt alive
And that "she" would fulfill him
with an equally "wild" drive.

Feelings of hurt and anger
rejection and of pain
And hatred at the mention
just of her name ~
Betrayed by the both of them,
her husband and a friend,
The sacred trust between them
she could no longer depend.

How it pained her to hear him say
the private words they shared
The intimacy of their conversation
was already an affair ~
Although they never shared a bed
there are more ways than one
To be unfaithful and betray,
when all is said and done.

She could not bear to think about
the two of them together
Sharing private moments
reserved only for each other ~
For the sacred bond of marriage
between a husband and a wife
Should be loved, honoured, cherished
and respected for life.

As tears fell at the memory
she could not understand
Why he would forsake her
for another woman's hand ~
And though they'd only engaged
in a telephone affair
It still was a betrayal,
with the private thoughts they shared.

So she cries alone in her bed
as tears fall down her face
The pain and hurt at the betrayal
her mind still can't erase ~
And when she tries to fall asleep
the night seems to last forever
For everytime she closes her eyes
she can still see them together.

©  Christina
22nd August, 2002

"This is a very personal poem.  It is about the betrayal of a husband and a betrayal of a friend.   It is painful to even consider something like this happening to us, but it happened to someone I know.   I pray it never happens to you."