"I've got to find my way back home but I'm too deep inside."

Still havent heard anything from Ryan.... I dont know what I am supposed to think. I am sort of in a hard spot right now, I dont know what I am going to be doing tomorrow, where I am going to be tomorrow. I just want to get out of here. This town is killing me, my parents are killing me.

My parents still wont let me have the car back... Ummm.... ok.... They want me to go out and get a job, I told them that I would do that after Christmas... Ok, so it is after Christmas and you know what?? I cant drive, so therefore I cant go out and look for a job, its wonderful how that works, isnt it? So now I am stuck in the house, yeah, or so they think. They wont let me do anything. Well, I'm getting ready to do something, yeah, and that is move out. They are afraid that I am going to pack up and move to California. Well, the more they torment me the more that seems like a good possiblity.