I'm very tired. Nt bcoz I'm resting at hm means I'm energetic. I had bn staring at the comp, in the internet for hrs sourcing for jobs. Most of the jobs din interest me at all. I'm reali very choosy for this fact. Y muz the jobs b 8.30am to 6pm or 9am to 6.30pm? I felt tt working adults reali haf no life. I'm really idiotic isn't it? When came across certain job which may b suitable, I'm nt confident. Am I up to it? I'm very tired. Isn't there any interesting job out there? Of coz, I want nth of my SIP related field I mean industry. VERY tired.... I rather be studying.

It was fun watching series online. lol! I wonder if VCD or DVD shop will close down. I'm very impressed by the you-tube wanna-be out there. 不老传说 is a nice series indeed. I wld say drama series in the past were way better than the current series. Of coz, it means the artistes had to work harder wif shows of such level. We did xtra b4 so we noe the lvl of tireness filming cam gt. Perserverance is very impt. 1 interesting fact is 不老传说 is being known as 我和僵尸有个约会IV. What does it gt to do wif the 我和僵尸有个约会 series? Bt the loading speed is freaking slow. Waiting for Shan's disc if I rmb to remind her haha XD!

Nth better to do so went for my 1st M18 movie: Nitemare detective. Obviously the staff din believe I'm older than 18. *yawns* Fine. The movie is gory full of blood spilling like tapwater bt nt too horrifying. Was it bcoz I'm 'cold-blooded'? *lol* The whole movie only talks abt 1 case. The murderer is known as 'Zero'. Nt another ZERO! Well... The Zero looks retarded. I'm only impressed by their way of looking for younger actors who awfully resembled the grown up chara. Probably due to their hairstyle.

PH duno shld I say expected. She din go for her job. Gave up juz b4 she started work bcoz she haf diarrhoea the day b4. I'm in no position to comment since me myself is still picky on my job. She said she is very bz wif her hmwk. Sigh... Work hard in ur studies ba... Studies is more impt. If u pass ur exam, u can move further. U reali muz learn hw to come up wif an excuse nt to arouse ppl's suspicion coz 1 look at ur sms, I noe u came up wif excuses to escape frm work. U r trying hard. Unfortunately, I cldn't hlp her since I can't even hlp myself. I seriously duno wat I'll do if I put myself in ur shoes. I'm nt a gd friend definitely coz I'm qt self-centered. Tink of myself b4 the others.

Went to collect my graduation attire wif LC last Sat. We had a long great chat and she found a suitable shoes in a short time.

Had bn flipping newspp & surfing the net for a job bt nth seems suitable. No, I'm choosy. It was mostly pride tt made me reject the logistics co job actuali haha . It's ok, bide my time & wait for the best. Well... I'm an idiot and always is. Looking at courses, I'm still an idiot. I'm wasting my time. Get a job so tt I can gt my anime merchandises of cos aft minusing off my bill and money for parents lah. May's coming... merchandises r coming . Is pt-time job a way? Sigh... I can nvr b satisfied easily. I hesitate too much.

Today, I dun dilly-dally as I usuali r & gt things done asap. I reorganised the Digimon 02 crds I found. A leopard nvr changes its spots. I was already sorting and collecting anime cards since young. The crds r actuali in order when I found it. I haf tons of sailormooon & CCS crds (MOUNTAINS, reali!). Gd gracious. I dun c as much 20cts crds to 'turn' as we used to. I cldn't hlp turning my heads 'unconsciously' to a crd machine which was located in a developing shop whenever I passes by there. For Digimon crds (anime ver) probably. I gt most of mine there yrs ago. Oh yeah... I still lack Miyako and Takeru's chara crds. Bt Ken, Iori and Hikari's & their partner r actuali completed. I tink tt set belonged to the 1st arc of 02. Lacked a Fladramon for Daisuke's. I can no longer find those nw anw. My hp is gg crazy by blacking out as & when it likes. It makes me wonder if it's breaking down anytime. Juz dun black out when I'm receiving calls frm my 'future boss'.

Saw a freaking cute baby gal aft dinner. She was laughing at another baby who is riding on the 20cts machine as her mum pushes her cradle away. Haha... I duno wat baby's tinking. It looks like she had sth better haha.

Me and PH went in search of jobs together. I wasn't sure whether it was a right choice since wat we wanted was different. We visited 2 agencies in which both gave me a call ytd & 2day respectively wif a job frm reputable companies. I duno wat I was aft. I rejected 1 of them, I haf nt accepted the other 1 either as the company had nt gotten back to the agent. I had done research on the 2 companies. 1 is a major logistic co & the other a movie making company which makes me @_@. I rejected the logistic co perhaps, I was asking too much. It was a reali simple admin job for 3 mths. The pay is qt ok. Duno y, mayb it was a job of even of PH's lvl can do so it wasn't beneficial in the long-run for me. On the other hand, the movie company seemed stressful. I sensed the stress of the lvl of my SIP co. I'll probably nt accept tt either. I was afraid tt I'll b disappointed as I did wif my SIP co. Looking forward until the relationship turned sour. PH gt a job wif a shoes job. I hope she'll do it well coz in the outside world, no 1'll protect u, u haf to depend on urself. I fear tt she wld run away 1/2way as I felt tt she's such a person as she used to run away aft 1 day of her work which was a fairly simple job. Gal, it's only a 2 wks job, gt it done & ovr wif & u'll gt paid.

PH is a very naive gal. I haf to tink for her. My dear, u can't b working retail as u r studying at nite. Unfortunately, we all haf to grow up. Even as childish as me myself, I was able to understand, at least I think. No 1 will b able to stay wif each other forever. I duno if it was a rite choice for her to take 'O' lvl aft her Nitec course. I wld say, Higher Nitec is a safer route. Once she failed her 'O' lvl, tt's it. lol! Sometimes, she reali nid some scoldings which I did. Mayb I shldn't poke my nose on her matter too much. The agent even ask her for her parents' contact afraid tt she wld run away. She was claiming hw her agent scolded her. Sigh... It makes no sense when 1 went to an agency when u r rejecting every jobs u c. Being choosy is fine bt to tink tt u r playing, making a fool of the agents. The agent may b at fault for her attitude. Er... we r oso ur customers.. It's nt rite to lecture us like a teacher.

Tt James was promoted nw sitting somewhere in his comfy offix. Congrats! Nw i wonder who's taking ovr his position in our sch branch. KS got to b the best. They r reali friendly & approachable. Even PH said so. She was afraid of many things.

Each and everyone nid to b protected. Like hw Ina is always hlping me out esp when I was 'bugged' by a guy *cough cough*. Certain things we can't handle ourselves.

Hence, the person I reali admired is Shan! She is the heroine of life. Unlike me, who is luckier had everything I nid and my life went a lot more smoothly than hers. Despite her harsh (duno if tt's the rite word) life, she still went thru it. She depended on herself to achieve her nids & wants. Even though even her route in education is longer than us, she still worked very hard and nw reached where most of us were. Money-wise, she worked for hers entirely. It is admirable. Me, still asking for $$$. She's always the strongest haha. Kip it up!

I was aching all ovr frm ytd filming. The freaking long hrs, the tireness & the 'hungriness'. Worst treatment, formal in heels which I borrowed from Mediacorp. The progress was bitter. However, the output & the reward removed the bitterness. We r on the news in the same day of filming! Yeah! Ina was complaining abt hw she was all ovr in the news. She had to b a lucky gal. She gt on TV on the very day itself. I haf reali no luck in terms of filming wif my idol. It was always those I din expect to b on the scene (mostly gals). Of coz, Felicia Chin was the exceptn. I was starting to gt slpy in the morning until, he arrived! He was the last to rush into the spa b4 the 'baddy' of coz. The prince charming, young boss of the spa shop in the series, ElVIN ! I nvr thot I'll reali c him as I haf no luck! His name in the show means 'handsome'. Ina commented tt he's already very handsome. There's no nid for enhancement haha. I was so happy and honoured to haf a photo wif him! Lin Minglun was another 1 I want a photo wif. He's a nice guy and is a joker of the grp.

Haf u seen a buffet of snakes b4. It was an opening of the spa business and we r the guests. We all thot it wld b a wedding. We did a panic running ard wif HEELS during the filming due to snakes' visit!

Wah kao! The director is kinda demanding. I learnt more hard work in long series. Due to the dragging feature of long series, there are a lot of scene in 1 area. We were so dead hungry & tired. Lunch was ard 1.30pm bt we did haf lunch while watching Elvin's photo shoot out there. Looks like I-wkly or U-wkly is a muz buy.

Ina had a slpovr at my hse b4 the shoot on Tue. I cldn't stop toking during the nite so we ended up dead tired haha. My dad tried to 'feed' her wif more food. Ok, turn her into a 'ball' and let me haf a 'kick' . This had to b the 1st time I had a friend to slpover. It was fun. Looking forward to more haha.

I had wanted to update more bt it's juz too much!

Is trouble brewing? Ronnie niisan called me up requesting me to hlp him find volunteers. Unfortunately or shld I say as expected, I couldn't find a single one. Yeah rite, he suggested my fellow schmates? Aren't they all bz working out in the society. The marathon is on a Thu. We I shld b working by then. I wish I'm working. I dun care if I'm nt working for my ex-boss. Event mgmt is definitely nt for me. I can work for ath bt NVR for Event. I hate it. Judging from the rate I'm gg, I may juz end up there. I nid to find a job soon to prevent tt to happen even if tt's out of desperatn. Even to my SIP co, I told them I'm working. Oh ya, I'm working. Working as an xtra. Bt I'll nvr do tt for a long-run coz I nid $$$. Getting desperate real soon if I dun find a job & work seriously. Seriously, even for volunteering, I dun wanna volunteer for EVENT! I rather volunteer in old folks' hm or children's home or even fund raising. I had bn too much bad side of event. I'm in fact reali disgusted as I was typing all these. btw, I'm refering to VOLUNTEER WORK NT JOB. I DUN WANNA VOLUNTEER.

I'm getting paranoid coz I realised tt I duno hw to reject ppl's request w/o a valid reason. I always hesitate & then agree reluctantly aft persuasion. I find it hard to lie as I haf to tink of more lies to cvr my previous lie. If a miracle occurs, pls let a sch call me up to settle my insecurity. Sadly, I can no longer be a teacher unless fate permits. Tt's hw destiny works I guess. If I'm nt fated to be a teacher, educatn related job wldn't come to me. Bt NO EVENT MGMT job pls!

I need $$$ too to 'solve' my wants! More Code Geass items like Chara f is coming. Even GSD chara f. Tt's 'great'. I was reali satisfied wif my collectn coz tt's my hobby. Unfortunately, my hobby involves $$$, tt's y. If I were to earn $$$ for my needs & wants, I dun want to work for sth I dun like, tt's all.

My cough is getting better thanks to the cough medicine frm the doc which I refused to c earlier. Slept for the whole aftnn ytd. Aunty Jacy asked to go filming for 4 days in which I haf to commit for all days. Sounds like we r the main so we haf to b in all the time. Am I stupid to reject since it's oso a job? Time to gt desperate.

My mood ytd resembles the weather, dark & gloomy. I finali receive the long awaited NIE letter to be notified tt I was rejected. It was hard. Juz like TV drama, those who r down received more bad news. I din even nid to open up to learn abt it: The thinness of the letter. Usuali if 1 apply for sth, thick letter = success (envelope included info, add, map etc), thin = U r OUT so no info for u. I haf nt even gone for the interview. Perhaps it was my Eng. B4 is a flop. Or mayb I wrote tt I worked in govt co b4. There r many factors. Mayb too many ppl signed up for it. LC gt in so congrats!

Sentosa trip is almost a fruitful one if it was nt raining. Our dear Ina had everything planned for us: itinerary! Bt it was nt carried fully due to the stupid rain. We were almost all bankrupt aft the trip. The main mission is to ride on the luge/skyride & we did when the rain subsided My luge 'broke down' halfway so I was surprised proud tt I actuali managed to catch up wif them. I thot my speed was fast enough bt in fact they waited for me so tt I can catch up. I'm so touched. lol! I'm impressed by both of them being able to take pic in skyride. I'm the most cowardy. *draws circles in the dark* 4D movie was ex bt qt fun lah bt I stil like luge better. I tink wat Genting had was the 2D movie wif water & wind effect. Tt's y the 1st in SEA for S'pore's. Ina had taken loads of photos. Nt putting it up. Too lazy! It had bn long since we 3 last met up. Toasts to our friendship! For more details of our trip: REFER TO DEAR INA'S BLOG!

Cldn't slp last nite due to constant fit of cough. I asked for it for munching tibits & drinking sprite during the K session ytd. I was pretty impressed by the huge rm we gt. I believe we wldn't haf a chance to gt a rm of such a size wif only 5 ppl in KBox. Free flow of drinks & tibits tempted me into eating. I still prefer potato chips anw. Due to loss of voice, can't reali sing much. Besides, I can't sing decently. This had to be the 1st time we actuali finished the whole playlist. It's nt like we'll gt chased out anw. Nvm, looking forward to the nxt trip wif my recovered voice. lol! Bro actuali listened to me intently abt it hehheh. Feel like putting up 'Dinosaur' here haha

Mum was nagging at me for being a gluttony to b coughing constantly in the nite. Nobody likes getting sick anw. We'll lose all the fun. Tmr, more fun wif Shan & Ina! Long time no c sia!

*Cough cough* I had bn coughing for 3 days. Nw my throat is staring to hurt. It doesn't feel gd to b sick. I had bn sick for the 3rd time this yr. Unlike the previous 2 yrs which I had bn sick for probably once a yr. My body is getting weaker. Wonder if I can make it for tmr K wif my 'swollen' throat.

Ytd, I completed 1 of my resolution which was to buy a box of anime crds. Initially, I thot of buying Code Geass bt it nvr arrived in S'pore. So surprisingly, Death Note special trading crds came abt & I gt it. My box was nt bad as it was on the guys. Luckily no Misa SP haha! I wld luv a Near SP bt it din appear. My 6 SPs features Light & L. Lucky. 1 of which had to be the same which I bot in EOY. At least the surface of the crds looks different. Feel like completing the SP bt too bad unless I'm rich to acquire at least 3 lucky boxes. Shld b contented wif a 1 in a box rate of SCR. The cards r reali pretty. Glad tt I bot them. Thanks to Bleachfan who kept my SP, parallel & SCR in crd sleeves. He's reali an organised, neat & clever boy. Wld luv to haf him as an otooto. Fat hope. Hw I wish my real otooto is 1/2 like him. Bt I'll b the worst neechan ever as he's more mature than me! Oh well...

In nid of $$$... Wish to find a job soon b4 my savings runs out! Bt yet, duno wat I want to do.

Went filming for 'My Sassy Neighbour 3' ytd. It was qt ok since it had bn a while since I gt a feel of being used in the scene. It wasn't as tiring as b4 bt I still feel slpy. Nwadays, I wun last w/o more than 6 hrs of slp. Until nw, I had filmed for 6 shows excluding today's. Unfortunately, due to 'extra extras' (quoted frm Wen's joke for AP) we were 'forced' to go hm aft waiting for an hr or so.

Photos frm ytd film:

Aft today trip to Mediacorp for waiting , we went Bishan for food then looked for cinemas for movies. Unfortunately, there were no movies tt suits our likings... We actuali went to Plaza Sing then walked all the way to Bugis. Qt an achievemt aft ytd walk frm Toa Payoh Lorong 7 to the interchange. Tis had to b the 1st time I actuali passed by Sunshine Plaza w/o gg in. lol!

Gt my graduatn package. I wonder if the rest r gg back to sch. ST is. Well, let's wait & c. Minna-san shld b gg back hehe. Looking forward to then!

I wld b lying to say I wasn't fooled at all ytd. Nt by anybody in particular bt by fansubbers... dloading stupid clips & thot tt 1 of my fave anime was dropped aft so many. Worst, 1 ep more to the end. So sad for a while.

Ytd, me, my bro & my cousins went K for the 2nd time tis wk. We gt to be crazy. My bad... To tink my stupid idea was taken in. Hw many rds had we walked ovr AMK? So hungry for dinner sia! We were all broke... Hw? Time to work. More filming bt they dun nid many gals though... Interesting, 4 of us fit the description 3M1F haha! Sadly, we r no BLAST or TRAPNEST. Sorry Ina. Can c tt u r eager & excited bt sure will ask u if they nid more gals.

I'm almost forgetting abt NIE. 3 wks w/o response from them as they promised at the website! Mayb I forgot to fill in sth (incomplete application wld nt b considered mah) or mayb my 'O' lvls results for Eng is nt up to standard to be of consideration. For relief teaching, I prolly still hoping on hope which is vanishing as the day passes. I was too optimistic. Another call from KS which I rejected. Mum encouraged me to go for it. I did drop 'hints' for KS to call me back again. I'm always so naive I guess. Juz cross my fingers tt I wun be blacklisted by KS juz like I'm prolly did for relief teaching in 1 of the sch. The nxt time they call, I may reali accept since I had bn wasting time while the rest had moved on. Wif my hesitation, I cld b running out of luck. I hate myself for tt.

Heard frm ST tt ZE is gg for an interview, I wondr hw's LC doing? Had she pass her NIE interview or doing other job etc? Same to Rain, hw is her interview etc? I wld nvr gt an ans if I dun ask haha ! Hopefully, every1 had bn well & genki!