Chapter: August 2007

Ah! I feel so pathetic. My bro's better at describing his experience in his blog. Compared to mine, I'm nth. *GroanS*

Hehe.. to tink I actuali updated today to end Aug wif this entry. I gt my 1st ever MC since I started working. I had diahoerra (spell?). Tt was 1 issue, most imptly, I reali desire slp which I 'gt my wish' on my MC day. I slept for the whole aftnn .

Upon feeling better ytd, I finished up my tasks. There r some 'cock-ups' here and there as i'm being naive. ppl is trying to find faults in me which I nvr noticed and ended up blowing the matter screwing up. Bcoz of tt,Speaking of stepping on 'dynamites'. In a way, I'll learn wif mistakes. Tis company doesn't pay me much bt provided me chances to learn in a no of areas which I'm sure other company will nvr allow 1 from a dept to venture in other dept. I haf to say I'm qt a slow learner. Me being someone who desires nth bt slp, I can't concentrate . Tt's nt the rite attitude. I'll juz do watever I can. I studied biz, nt Logistics nor I'm taking Accounts. Uncle & my mgr had bn patient & nice to me so I shldn't complain hehe. I was feeling ovr the moon when I heard tt my boss has intention to send me on a training on accounts although I dun like accounts. Of coz, I shldn't tink so much. Too much anticipation will end up in disappointment.

Come to tink of it, if my company gives me plenty of chances to go on training, I tink I shld b satisfied. I noe 1 nvr gt satisfied. At least for nw.. I will feel contented. If I can't survive in my current company, I will nvr survive anywhere else. My SIP company was juz too 'over'. Come to tink of it, some times, I reali miss the gd times ovr there. It's almost 1 yr haha.

Tired.. I yearn for a break soon. This wk I finali had a 2 days off on wkend. I guess I'm glad tt I swopped my off Sat as tis wk as I was already worn out. Lack of motivation. I shld slap myself awake as I noe if I can't survive in my current co, I'll nvr b able to survive anywhere. My mgr is already patient and always there to encourage me & of coz niisan hehe. I was rather annoyed by the 6 mths probation. I wanna take an annual leave soon bt tt's another 3 more mths. My parents juz wldn't hear of me taking unpaid leave. I reali wish for a longer wkend/break. My battery was nt fully charged wif only 2 days break. Come to tink of it, probation is a crucial period. Wat can I do? Do my best wif lack of motivation

Tis wk I was so messed up. I got to finish the report for our event. Oh ya, our photos ppt was nt even completed yet. Come to tink of it, the miting for the nxt event had started bt yet nth was done. I nvr like rushing deadlines sigh.. feeling so useless.

Looking at my previous co event webbe. I feel tt the life of those fellow juniors shld b a lot easier. Judging from the tremendous increase of rules & regulations, our problems were mostly rectified. Wun noe unless we r in it. I was tinking whether to join as a volunteer staff juz wanna watch the improvement aft my 'horrible' performance. If any1's joining, I might bt due to my alt Sat work & lack of motivation, it's hard to say .

This was a short wkend. We went our Sat for a company event. It was the 1st event I got involved in organising since I 1st joined. I'm sure there'll b more coming. This event cld b considered successful since every1 seemed to be having fun.

We, the committee was losing motivation esp me. I din hlp out in the packing of the gdies bags. I told myself nt to do tt again. Sigh.. 1 for all & all for 1, tt's unity. We can't please every1 & so we can only do watever we cld. There were some miscommunication on the way bt glad tt things were resolved easily wif a little hard work by our chairman. Thank u chairman for running all the way out to gt food.

I reali had fun. It was reali amazing tt my mgr was able to guess wat I was trying very hard to describe when I was reali bad at describing things. Great minds tink alike eh? Or was it I was ez to figure out? Anw, wif tt we won some pts. My mgr reali won my respect. Guess I wun nid to say much since she apparently 'can read my mind' . Our prizes & door gifts were attractive. Obviously, ppl'll be glad to join in for more of such events. Nah.. I'm too naive hehe...

There is still a post-event. I studies event mgmt. Time for an evaluation! This wk to me, was reali a both depressing & satisfying wk.

Look at hw long since my last update? This is wat happen when 1 only desire slp than ath else. To my dismay, I only had 5 entries last mth and the 1st 1 tis mth. I dun intend to update bt I still did nw.

Usuali ard this timing, I'll b playing chess wif Kira . As today is a Sun, and usuali Sun I can't gt to slp and ended up very slpy on Mon as well as the rest of the wk. Wed being the worst. My productivity will be lowered drastically. I seriously nid slp for 10 hrs. Only retail job allows me to haf tis hr of slp sia.

I'm starting to hate my life. Y muz we wrk for $$$ and wrking in offix took up most of my time and I feel tt I haf no life other than to wrk, come hm & slp and wrk the nxt day. Nth pleases me when I'm so slpy to listen. All I want is ample rest and I luv Sat as I noe I gt to slp on Sun. During wkend, I can nvr stay hm coz, to me it's a complete waste of time. I muz go out & chiong, shopping or nt. Watching drama, only makes me to feel envious of the chara whose life is much more interesting. Am I gg to waste my life lik tt? Hopefuli, I cld gt into uni nxt yr so tt I can gt out of my current miserable life. I haf nth against my job bt it's juz tt I nid more personal time. No more 5.5 days wrkwk for my nxt job definitely.