Chapter: June 2007

Monday, 25 June 2007
Song Playing... SunSet Swish - Mosaic Kakera

Very slpy. Wish tt I can slp for a longer period of time. Wrk is ok. At least I haf MSN where I can go chatting away during wrk. Of coz, I better concentrate of my wrk as a co wun pay sum1 for MSN .

I finali bot my GSD pin-up collection bk. It was ex bt glad tt there was discount. I had bn waiting haha... The sense of looking forward to parcels is so gd... My DGN & CG cards had arrived. Tt was the 1st time I opened up cards in boxes. Tis is for the sake of completing a set. I'm in nid of more DGM which is harder to complete. Ordered some stuff which had yet to arrive. Hopefuli, my mum wun miss the postman again. I shld say as usual . I seriously hope I had enough to spend this mth.

A gal like me juz wldn't spend on clothes or gals stuff. Mum is complaining abt it. Yes, I bumped into my poly classmates, they r indeed prettier as they r willing to spend to make themselves pretty. Sigh... I'm still wearing same type of clothing since poly. Y shld I reali care? As long as I'm happy with wat I'm doing.

I bumped into them last Sat at Kino where they were commenting abt me surely like to gt these stuffs. Indeed, I was hanging ard Kino. tt was such a coincidence. So nvr spoke ill of ppl coz u nvr noe where they r ard

Munching cakes @ 10.03pm

Work is fine. I was able to learn the rope. Most of the tasks is at the 'practice' stage. Of coz, some is at the 'present' stage where my mgr will guide me thru on how to go abt performing in my tasks. To date, I was able to do job. Honestly, I feel sad as I was actuali doing more on a/c. I'll prefer to do HR. To walk on a route where I had taken for my studies. If I'm gg to do a/c, I'll haf taken A&F. I nvr like such subs despite being gd at it. Hopefuli, one day, I can move on to my dream: a travel related job .

I reali miss the coffee session me and my fellow interns used to have b4 our work during our internship. Tt oso included lunch time. There was always laughters! I feel more sense of freedom from their side. Who cares abt their weight or healthy diet or their looks? Tt wasn't our style. Juz look at wat the rest eats. Despite whatever tt happened during our work, we enjoyed each other's company. I'll say I feel warmer in their company. Minna-san complains abt work which wasn't all bad. At least, they interact wif me unlike my current colleagues. I dunno y, they will speak in a tone of reluctance whenever I asked them for sth. 1 of them even had a tone of almost gg to yell at me . Am I tt detestable? I din do ath which offend them, did I? Sigh... same batch so wat?! Probably due to my horoscope nt tt I wanna believe in it. QC, Steven, Jm, Sophia and co wun do tt to me! Minus my bad exp ovr there, I guess we can't haf fish & bear paws at the same time.

Btw, my co is recruiting an a/c Assistant & a Sales Assistant. I wish someone I noe will join the same co as me bt pls stick wif me ><. Sigh... I feel so lonely.

Sian... whenever I thot of working tmr, I feel saad as usual. Tt's known as Mon blue. I juz dread the feeling of nt being able to complete my tasks accurately and quickly. Ppl is another factor. Even if I try asking ppl qns, some ppl juz can't b bothered wif me, "You haf to c urself..." Of coz, this only applies to the ppl ard my age. Pls, if I noe, I wun b asking u. I juz nid some suggestion nt some perfect ans. Even if u say the previous gal, did everything w/o niding to ask u. She had bn there longer than u duh! Wat 4 she ask u?! She knew better due to exp. Of coz, try as I cld, I wanna to gt along wif them bt I juz can't. Our mindsets r def nt in the same channel.

I noe I wun grow fat no matter hw much I eat bt I still feel kinda 'disgusted' ppl stuffing themselves wif fruits OR veggies ONLY for lunch and claiming tt they r eating only a little rice with soup & complaining abt their mother cooking so much etc. Ewww... . Do we haf to gt so stressed up wif our weight? Maybe I'm in no position to comment. Somehw, my mind was disagreeing wif many of their conversation which is y I say we r nt in the same channel. Sure, it's impt to haf a healthy and balanced diet bt pls dun go into the extreme. It will do u harm than gd.

Nw, my blog is prolly 1 of the very few ways to express my unhappiness and the plc I can use my 'quota' balance since I wun b toking much during wrk . I was very very vexed. Y wun ppl gt along wif me? Y muz ppl speak to me wif tt kind of tone?! They were like almost gg to yell at me. I wish I can earn enough and return to sch soon. Hw come I can gt along wif my classmates? Sigh... I juz dun gt it. I wun b surprised if I ended up sucking up to my superior coz they r only only ones I speaks to everyday.

It's nt wrong to say tt I can haf no friend, if I'm to have a friend, he/she's my gd friend =>> buddies. Somehw, it applies to me. Always looking forward to wkend, nt only bcoz I gt to slp in, I gt to go out shopping or chit-chatting. At least, I gt to tok & there r ppl who'll b my friend & tok to me. I'll treasure the relationship wif these ppl.

Phew, nw I feel a lot better to look forward to work tmr! Below r some pic ard my workplace.

Graduation pic by photographers!

Feeling very slpy lately. I'm still nt used into waking up early to work despite slping early at nite. Feeling useless when my attenetion span dropped to the minimum. I can work like a robot nt knowing the reason y I was doing all these. I'm so jealous of my bro who can slp in aft his sem test, Then look forward to more filming during the holidays. He juz took another photo wif Elvin duh! I wld luv to go filming if time and my body permits.

My manager was very encouraging. I was rather surprised tt she and another of my colleague who was supposed to gt me to hlp her to be so patient wif me. I'm still trying my best to learn the ropes so tt I can work independently. Despite the slpiness, I find tt working is a gd way to spend time in. At least it is much more meaningful than slacking at hm although I nided tt nw. Haf to wait till my probation is ovr b4 I can start taking my annual leave ard nxt yr. Meanwhile, gt to work hard so tt I wun b looked down on. I can't hlp tinking tt other ppl will do a better job than me. As usual, I was nt able to make any friend still. Too tired to bother anw. At least I can go MSN.

I had received my graduation photo. It din look as bad as I imagined. I dun look like I was slouching, thank gdness . Will scan them prolly when i feel like it soon .

I finali had a gd nite slp. Unfortunately, it's only a day of rest b4 another 6 days of work.

Went wif mum the 2nd time to the PC Show at Suntec. It was very crowded obviously. Wif my 1st pay, I bot a new LCD monitor as my old CRT monitor had broken down during my 1st trip. Watching anime had bn a chore to me bcos of it. I was very satisfied wif the 19" screen. It was a very shiok feeling esp I'm spending my own $$$. The deal ovr at Suntec is fantastics. Def worth the purchase. Things r oso cheaper. Me and mum visited the bk fair instead. There was nt much crowd as expected. Went ovr to the Cast puzzle booth as I had wanted to gt a cast puzzle aft working for them last mth. My 1st puzzle bot is named 'Laby', nt Lavi of DGM. It had bn a long time since I last saw tis chara in the anime anw. Tt was the last puzzle I solved on the last day of work. Tt's y I find it intriguing. The nxt thing bot was a Taiwanese ver of Shounen Onmyouji illustration bk. They r impressive whereby they even included a chi sub of the anime series in DVD and a CD wif OP & ED. Rather complete.

Ronnie niisan called me as he saw me there bt I din as I was as cocked eyed as usual. He juz told me tt my previous SIP supervisor had quited her job. I wondered wat had happened. Probably her contract was up and so she left her job. I din noe wat to tink of it.

I had completed the 1st errand given by my co: To buy stamps. Tt's gt to b my 1st time I see so many stamps at the same time. I was able to manage the given tasks for nw but I'm still as disorganised as ever. I was even late for work thanks to the bus. I had seen tis coming as I had to wait for 30min b4 the nxt bus arrived. I was nvr late even working for SIP. Sigh... Bus is always my enemy even if I gt to the bus stop early. Wat to do?! As long as I survived my work haha. I still gt a lot to learn . If only, I can gt enough slp, I'll be very happy