Tue back to sch! Tue blue... 4 more days b4 wkend b4 Sat. I pray tt everything wld go smoothly in work. While I was doing some excel work as instructed by my boss, I can't hlp tinking of my 3 pts for my techinical skill for my SIP PA. Sigh... It had bn mths bt I still can't hlp bt rmb.

Wish everyday can go smoothly... Nth like my previous job and stay happy... Bt, apparently, I can't click the ppl ard my age. Sigh... At the very least, I'm able to join them for lunch. Tt's better than nth.

Mon blue... bt we were on leave for the sake of an once-in-a-lifetime event: Graduation Ceremony! The day finali came aft waiting for mths. Finali, I was able c my friends although nt all. Big sis din attend so did Rain. Met up wif ST & LC wif our mum b4 we proceed inside. Miss them a lot since it had bn so long since we last mit. I wld say, they hadn't change a bit as in physically haha. I dun tink I had changed either. I'm an idiot, still is an idiot. I forgot to bring my graduation attire receipt! So in the end, I had to come to sch again. Well... wun haf time due to work. I was lucky, to haf my names rite behind ST and so we were able to sit together. It was nt long aft we were sent up to the stage. The ceremony was well organised. Even w/o rehearsal, we were able to proceed to wherever we were supposed to.

Later, we haf our phototaking session aft the ceremony. It was a very meaningful event. I doubt we were ever attend such ceremony unless we continue our studies in uni . I wish I can. Hmm... 1st I haf to save up. Take 1 step at a time .

Photos...

All the best minna-san! Kip in touch! Till we mit again!

Had bn working for 3 days. Everything were still well. I'm currently at the learning stage. Trying to rmb where each stationaries and offix items were placed, sorting out documents and filing them are tasks I'm currently doing. My co isn't big, staff strength is smaller. I'm tinking mayb even if there's offix politics, it has to be minimal.

Smaller co means less bonus, less benefits. As long as the job is stable w/o much stress, shld b ok. I hope I gt used to the job soon. Like LC said, things will be easier once I gt the hang of it. My manager and my colleagues had bn very patient wif me. Although it may nt b as bad as my SIP. Maybe... my tasks r routine and there is nt much new unreasonable tasks coming up each day as my SIP. Most imptly, I nid nt worry abt gg hm at nite. Dun tink there'll b much OT. I'm still worried as I'm nvr confident in myself. Nt sure if I'm up to the job. I hope I make no mistake and complete all my tasks promptly.

Looking 4ward to the wkend!

2day is my 1st day of work. I was actually running late due to the traffic on the way. I realised tt gg to my SIP workplace took a lesser time than I'm currently taking. As my workplace is a restricted area, I haf to change for my pass until I receive my perm pass. The guard post sure resembled the 'checkpoint'. As long as the security doesn't contradict or say 1 and do another the nxt day. Wif a letter in hand, I gt thru easily.

A new perm job is a challenge to me. Of coz, I wun learn much on the 1st day itself. I felt stressed as the way the co function resembles my SIP bt on the smaller scale. I see shadow of Julie who is very bz wif her a/c. The files r as thick as my previous co. Fortunately, the co. size is smaller. Bcos of tt, we haf to manage misellaneous tasks like postage on our own. In the past we used to send out letters in the 'postage' div. Nw, I haf to even paste the stamps on my own. Nxt, is to call up ppl to order stuff. Tis is a tasks I feared. I haf no confidence in myself. I feel shy to speak up.

I'll be able to slp a little while longer as I haf to apply my my staff pass. I'm wif my manager's letter. Hopefuli, I'll be happy wif my current job. In order to survive, most impt criteria is to 'hear no evil'.

Finally...

I'll be starting work tmr. My freedom is lost. No more holidays. That must be 1 of the signs of 'pre-job phobia'. Din expect tt I'll clear the interview in 1 shot. The agent sounded surprised. Muz b due to my inconfidence. Early in the morning, I received call from the agent. Obviously, I was still 'snoring' in my slp.

The security is even tighter in the cargo. At least with the co letter, I nid nt argue wif the security like I did almost everyday in taka. I ended up reporting to work in the main gate instead. Bt tis time rd, I wun be able to report by the main entrance.

My potential new supervisor is a nice lady. Pretty & capable. I'm crossing my fingers hoping that this job wun end up like my SIP. I wasn't sure if I'm happy to gt the job. For the sake of money, I shld in exchange wif my freedom of slacking. Bt it's time to move on and learn new things b4 I'm 'awarded' the 'Skill Obselete Award' (Can't rmb the exact name ). When is my nxt holidays~. I reali nid to ganbatte! May I b happy with my new job.

. I feel depressed now. I wonder does most of us feel the same way b4 stepping out for the 1st job ('pre-job phobia')? I may end up crying in my slp due to stress probably.

It's gg to b another Mon. I dread it. Although I shld feel nth as I do nt haf sch/work, I still dread it. 1st, I dread ph calls from agency. Y? Coz, can I choose to start work nxt Tue? Nxt Mon is my graduation day so I def haf to go on leave on tt day. Another optimistic tinking of mine. It's nt like I'll receive any call tmr.

Last Fri, she has to try calling me in 8+ in the morning. Obviously, I was in bed if I'm nt wokring/sching. Sigh... Already the 3rd if I din rmb wrongly, the discussion ended in "I'll call u back wif regards to the details of the interview." In the end, no more call. Fri call was obviously a flop. Mum thot she was asking for my bro so she told her bro is in sch. Fro me who had graduated to b in sch will def arouse her suspicion of me lying which I did nt as I'm reali a graduate. So be it, if I lose tt job. A perm job din interest me tt much. Wed, a date wif Shan and nxt Mon is my graduation. The less distraction, the better. This is y I dread Mon . Shld I switch off my ph? I shld. From my previous attachmt wif KS we r told to only call aft 10am. Feel free to call my hse and hear me slping wahahaha! Wat kind of attitude is tis?! If there's interview, I'll go for it bt I'm nt sure wat kind of ans I'll give when it come to when I can start work. Indecisive of me sia! Then later, I'll b complaining to being jobless .

Today Mother's Day dinner wif the maternal side of my family was as usual although nt as 丰富 as last yr. It was filled wif seafood anw. Most imptly, there were crabs wahahaha!

Yay! End of job assignment and my pay was in! Yahoo! I had visited the offix. Although it's small, it's much more peaceful. I only c nice ppl there (nt bcoz they paid me). On the other hand, I still haf nt gotten back my taxi claim from Julie. Nvm, I'll let it go for the sake of nt getting involved in any of their events. Sigh... The guys still owes me $$$ for the gifts and I'm pretty sure they'll nvr pay me back. They'll find excuses! Stingy!!! I hate guys like tt!!! No sense of gentlemanliness. As a gal, I'm much more generous! Hate toking abt money as it hurts!

I was like complaining abt my SIP and my weakness during my interview wif recruit agency. The agent thot tt volunteers r usuali nice ppl. Nw he noes. Many of the volunteers volunteer for the wrong reason. Lodging a complaint when they r nt being deployed is to prove their sincerity of wanting being a volunteer to contribute to the society. Tt was juz a surface. Deep inside, they haf more reasons which r unsightliness. Aft tt I knocked against the glass door b4 leaving. Stupid reali! Being exposed to too much bad side of the society isn't gd.

Last wk was tough yet fulfilling. At least I noe I'm alive. There's a sense of tiredness from work, waking up on time, rushing down for work and back home and to eat on time and feel full. Of coz, I'm still far from being able to live independently of coz. thru tis job, I can play wif IQ puzzles. Tt doesn't mean only ppl of high IQ can solve puzzles. I had encounters wif demanding customers who demanded 1 of the pieces in the set to be changed which can't b done due to the promo. She said I was too chicken to call my boss. Nah.. told ya, I haf no power to change the pieces, take it or leave it. U can change the piece by purchasing online at a higher price! I rather nt doing biz wif u! She took off the only name card I had from the co! Feel free to call and lodge complaint. I can't be bothered wif u. Of coz, there r customers, who'll generously buy the puzzles w/o hesitation. Some wld rush down from work to play wif them during lunch and back aft work even aft purchasing puzzles from me. Some were impatient. Tt was an bad excuse for nt buying. Come up wif sth better, customer. I still haf much more to learn in terms of skills for being an efficient promoter.

Wat I had learnt thru tis job is motivation to work and basically the solving of some kind of cast puzzles. Some r of high lvl bt yet too ez to b true.

2 more days to go and I finished my temp job! Surprisingly, the sales today was on par wif the wkends. I muz had done a poor job if tt's the case. Usually, sales on wkends shld actuali fare better. I hope the sales will kip up!

Finali some top-up for the stks. If only I can sell more puzzles each day. Those customers whom I can click wif actuali will buy from me. I'm qt bad wif ppl. I din even realised boss came down wif Ali to the stall. I was speaking to him as though I wld do to a male friend . He thot I'm another Ina. No, I'm nt! She's a more ez-gg person compared to me. I din noe hw to interact wif ppl as well as she is. I was still unable to sell a single 3-piece set . I felt so bad! The previous gal had sold a few sets! Nt Itt I did nt try to sell it bt customers preferred to choose 3 puzzles in random.

Very slpy! Off to slp!

Happy Boys' (Children) Day! Thanks to HnG, I rmb tis date when Sai left Hikaru.

Had bn working retail for 3 days. This job overall is fine. I reali like tis job better than my SIP although nt the best. The staff ovr there r nice and ez-gg ppl. Tt's hw life is ez and peaceful. We all hlp out one another wherever we can. I haf friends/ex-classmates visiting me whether passing by or had meals wif me. 9.5 hrs is nt a long time to pass.

Cons is the long hrs. Although there r 2 hrs break in total. I'm reali tired. I was even more tired whenever I reached the MRT statin to c '7 min' then another '6 min' at NEL. Wat's worse is I haf to wait another 10 min for my bus to arrive b4 I can gt hm. Upon reaching hm, more nagging frm parents! I was freaking pissed off. Mum was asking me to tell my boss tt I'm to work from only 1pm to 9pm. Very funny. I noe she is concerned coz I was reali tired. Ya, I was too tired to speak early in the morning when dad was throwing me wif all those stupid qns relating to job which I'm too tired to ans. I was almost gg to raise my voice to ask him to shut up. Security check is more pissing. They dun wanna give me the pass and worse my temp pass is nt ready! the staff din even bother to submit the application until NOW! Fine, skip it, I'll only open the stall aft 10 when the main gate is open. I'll enter by the main entrance!

Wif tt, although I'm beginning to gt used to retail job bt I'll nvr do the full retail hrs ever again! I rather work in shifts for nt more than 8 hrs each day. 9.5 + 2 = 11.5 hrs = no life. Slp -> work -> go hm slp -> work the nxt day! At least rest my feet. It aches and it stinks due to my HK foot! If it wasn't tt I'm too broke... I realise tt I'm always feeling insecure w/o my parents' support whenever I wanna do sth. I reali nid to find a decent offix hr job to feel secure as I'll gt my parents' support. Whether I'll b happy is another matter. I'll prolly feel better if my parents r happy wif me.

It was the 1st day of my temp job! I managed to reach my workplace abt 40min earlier. Test for time for transport is a muz! The job initially piss me off due to some miscommunication btw me, the boss & the guy who was supposed to brief me. I din noe abt reporting frm the staff door. PS Swensens had a back door which I noe where bt nt this plc. The guy only came at 10.10am. i was smsing complaint and calling even b4 work. It was due to the messiness in the way of communication, tt's y. It'll def make u feel tt they r nt sincere in hiring u. Ali was a nice guy. He briefed me systematically. I was able to understand easily. Looks like I wasn't exactly stupid or too slow a tinker.

Other than tt, the rest of the day was a breeze. No 1 to supervise me. I was able to go for my break anytime I want as long as I kept within the time limit of 1 hr each for lunch and dinner. Looking at sales, initially I was stressed. Hw am I gg to achieve 5 sales today like the previous gal did? Obviously, I haf to gt more during wkends. tried to speak to customers bt it din work coz I was nvr gd at it. Shutting up is the best way. I said nth unless the customer ask me and finali she bot sth from me. In terms of solving the puzzle, I was able to solve 3 out of 5 puzzles ranging from lvl 2 to 5.

Ok, I'm very tired. Gtg ..z..Z. I seriously dunno if I can last 7 days due to muscle ache and fatigue. Which was y I noe I wun want to do retail job for more than 8 hrs. Sigh... If nt for the sake of some cash.

Glad to haf niisan and LC to acc me for meals today or I'm gg to feel lonely. lol! Today is the day of a marathon. I felt a little bad nt being able to gt volunteers for Ronnie niisan. Mum sure had a lot of qns to ask which i dun wanna ans.

Yay! I'm finali working tmr aft slacking for 2 mths. Qt sad wif my luck. My fear came true! It's either no news or everything had to come at the same time. I duno whether I shld laugh or cry. I received 3 phone calls for job offers. 1 of them was 1 of those I applied. I wish to take the 1 I applied bt unfortunately, I accepted the temp promoting job so I gt to finish it. The client of the agency gave me a chance for an interview. It was a job I applied bt yet I can't grasp it. Blame it on my luck or fate? Everything tt happens may haf a purpose. The calls came bcoz I sent out resumes. What a 'fantastic' timing! I asked them to call me aft nxt wed. Seriously, I dun tink the employer can wait tt long lor! Sum1 lucky will take the job frm me .

On the other hand, to pacify myself, maybe I nid training. The job I'm gg to do for the nxt 7 days may hlp me gain some interesting exp, mayb like confidence? So even if I gone for the interview straight, I may end up failing and ended up wif nth and jobless once again. Most imptly, I nid $$$ badly for the coming celldx too XD. I reali dread working too long the hrs. 10am to 9.30pm! I dunno if I can last for 7 days. I tink I can aft 'intensive training' from my SIP job from 9am to 1am the following day! the longest is on the actual event day from 10pm to 4pm the next day! Rite nw, the only thing I can do is to wish I can learn sth out of it and haf fun.

Sigh... Tt's part of life! I'm nt sure if any1 shares the same exp as me whereby gd things always come at the wrong time. It's depressing whenever I tink of it.

*yawns* Juz came back from my comfy bath aft attending Ina's 'Fun in the Sun' (Is tt the correct name) event. I'm nt much a fun-loving person bt I did had fun. I was actuali impressed by the execution and planning of the event. Well at least compared to my SIP. Every1 was so cooperative. ON is the correct word. In the end of the day, the objective of tis event is the FUN word. No hard feeling whether u win or lose. Poor Ina 'lost' her Sakura voucher due to a 'gamble' . She was determined to win tis game.... eh... seemed to... Me no energy and motivation. My motivation to compete had bn fading ovr the yrs. Haha... I was like blabbering and complaining abt my exp in SIP wif some of Ina's cellmates (?). Nt again isn't it?!

Ina's boss called me finali ytd evening. At last I gt a job. Actuali it's a pt-time job for a wk from Thu to nxt Wed. I wasn't sure if I can do the job (sales) bt I'm gg to do it anw instead of stranding and waiting at hm for disappointment. Some more, no income when I stay at hm. I wanna get a lot of things esp Code Geass Celldx. Super pretty. Y tikam when I saw tons of Lulu in a box XD? Tinking of taking a box. Obviously, if I completed my temp assignment, I'll b able to.

On the other hand, I was worried tt agency will call me up for an interview tmr wor. I haf to postpone everything to nxt wk. Hw many 'nxt wk' can I wait? So I might as well take any 'sai kung' tt comes along like Thu's job 1st? No matter wat, I still feel a sense of insecurity. Like wat if a dream job comes along, wldn't I miss it etc? Everytime I tink lik tt, it was actuali disappointmt I felt from waiting... I feel so confused. I reali hope tt shld any agency calls me, I hope they'll give me another chance aft nxt wk when I completed my assignment. It was hard since I dunno whether to accept.