Sunday, 25 November 2007
Song Playing... access - Doubt & Trust

Geez! I forgot to mail out company letters' I'm as usual tis careless minded. The morale of the story is nt to do things nt within ur ability. *pouts*

Muahaha! Bot a no of new bags! I wish i haf tis type of attitude when it comes to clothings! I'm more concerned abt my bags. Can't stand my dirty (poor looking) worn-out pale green bag. Pay had came in bt yet I feel poor. Gosh! Overspending is my forte and it's inevitable to overspend tis mth wif EOY and somebody's b'day coming and X'mas.

I wish I haf more time to rest! It's always the same old complaint. I want more slp! I wonder hw can ppl survive doing office work thruout their whole life! I stared at the uni rite in front of me wondering if I will be able to get in there. It can't b hlped with my result and my pathetic CCA participation. To work or study, I can't haf bear paw and fish at the same time. Juz try anw. I cld b rash. *Stare at my current savings*. It'll b at least a few yrs b4 I can afford uni sch fee. By then it's too late. Sigh...

Munching cakes @ 10.57pm

It's 6 mths since I started work. Waiting for my cfmation letter (This 1 haf to remind my manager). Looking forward to increment and bonus.

Ahh! I wish I haf more time. Many things undone... I'm plain lazy as well. Life is boring because the person is boring himself/herself. I read this somewhere. I'm the boring person indeed.

I'm really crazy abt yahoo auction. Ever since I gt my debit card, I'm 'fooling' ard. I'm nt rich hence the excessive nagging from my mum whenever she updated my passbk. Well, as long as I control, it shld b fine

. I luv trying for such things. I had tried ordering from CDJapan, buying from yahoo auction Japan, ordering cards from HLJ. it had bn fulfilling. Bcoz of all these, I'm not lady-like enough. As a gal, it's only rite that I should have bot a lot of clothes, burst my wardrobe and make myself look pretty. But I'm too much into collecting cards and fig. On the other hand, my bro is wat I shld be bt I'm nt. He luvs shopping for branded clothes, make himself handsome. Mum is pretty pissed off by our habits.

I was a little hesitant into applying for uni upon hearing my colleague complaining abt her friend being bullied in uni. She was the only one working on proj while the rest of the 'bastard/bitches' can't b bothered and juz claim the credit when the time comes. Hence, they have the time to study for the exam. I reali despise such ppl bt is there anything we can do? No peer appraisal is conducted in uni! I agreed with my colleague on her doubt of prof doing anything even if her friend reali dare to complain. The professors in the uni can't b bothered as they'll juz conduct lectures, marking proj then collect their fat salary and go hm to slp!

If there's such thing like Death Note, I tink my colleague will use it. Even I harbored the thot of using it as I'm nt the kind who will speak up to defend myself. I reali despised those slping grpmates who dun do ath for their proj and had some1 doing everything and still gt the credit. I'm reali lucky tt I haf nt encountered such situation. If nt, I reali wish to own a Death Note. Nt reali a Death Note (tt's too evil), juz curse them with a voodoo doll will be enough. Can I slap them?!

Time flies.. Nw I'm already another yr older gosh! It's time to be mature which I'm still nt.

Can't believe tt I actuali set my alarm clock on a Sat when I wasn't working. No wonder I felt tt sth was nt rite then I rmbed. Happily, I covered myself in a blanket... Gosh.. nw it's alr Sun nite. Tmr work again

. Ytd dreamt of an ex-classmate quitting from a job.. Wait! Tt classmate can't b working in the same company with me and the office is a whole lot different. It was 1 of my fantasy dream again. It was a red tone office with a red spiral staircase where I looked down upon. I juz can't rmb who was sitting on tt desk who cldn possibly be the chairman/boss. Somehw, I find tt dreaming was so fasinating. World in reality is so freaking boring and uninteresting. It was work, eat, sleep. In the end, it was for the sake of $$$. BORING!

Juz read Ina's blog. Somehw, I feel tt I'm in the same dilemma as her. Both of us dream of gg into uni and we can't make it due to $$$ and our results. I'm oso a bad planner in terms of spending. It was only 2nd wk aft the release of Oct salary yet I had alr overspent. I planned to spend more tis mth bt din expect $$$ to b gone tt fast. Working till I stepped into coffin is nt my dream. Do I reali haf to take 'A' lvls for the sake of getting into uni? I noe it's ridiculous. Bt yet it was the only possible way I can tink of. For the sake of getting into NUS and NTU or even SMU. To be honest, I'm nt interested in private uni bt tt's the only path for me. Wif a bad CCA and academic record, can't tink of scholarship. Dun feel lik borrowing from bank bt yet I wanna escape from my current life.

I wish to be a carefree gal. A taitai? I can't tink of tt bah... If only we dun nid $$$ to survive bt tt's juz nt possible. Aiya, as long as one can stay happy, wat else can we ask for?