Chapter: October 2007

Taken my 1st annual leave to enjoy the day. It was advance though. Still waiting for my confirmation in 2 wks. I'm feeling hesitant due to the incremt. There is a phrase ‘人比人气死人'. When ppl kip telling u abt their incremt, inevitably, I'm pissed. Especiali, ppl taking the same diploma and same majoring wif me drawing a higher salary than u yet doing a 5 days work while I'm 'slogging my life out' working alt Sat.

Thank u Ina and Shan who met up with me for dinner. Shan muz had bn waiting for me for so long as I was stuck in front of my TV watching Korean drama my colleague gave me. I'm always attracted by the ironicalness of one's fate. Always looking forward to the realization of truth.

Shan managed to find her thumbdrive/mp3/earpiece today.. which is gd.. come to tink of it, it was a stone hitting 3 birds. She muz take care of her dear mp3 player she may end up forgetting and losing it ==> tt'll happen to me. Phew.. till nw, it was still a close shave.

Still nt in the mood to shop even though I planned to shop haha. My budget tis mth is almost gone. Glad tt I still haf some cash whcih will b gone by tis wk.. Movies tis Thu wif my colleagues... I want my slp. May work be smooth tmr especially the ordering of the year-end gift muz be completed.

Did any1 noticed tt I gt the mth wrong in my entries? Sigh.. I only noticed it today.

Today, I tried my very best to wake up on time to mit up wif Ina. Took a wrong bus and ended up walking to the interchange. Nxt time our mit up muz at least be 1pm. Reali can't pull myself together .

Finali met up wif her . Blabber abt my miserable life as well as other ppl's gd luck. I realise tt those who had better luck for attachmt has better luck wif jobs aft graduation . I was even sadder when I thot abt it. Ina's another lucky 1. I wish I haf better luck bt all I haf is bad luck! Absolutely no mood. Then she pass me an envelope AHH!!! It's clues to a my b'day celebration venue .

The 1st clue was ez. The 2nd 1, it took me some time. The I thot I will ask for the exact location 1st b4 I proceed. Eileen was 1 of them. The reply she gave me was alr telling me she was in it with those 2. Then she told me at Boat Quay. I ask Krystal who was working hard. She noes abt the cafe, oso told me at Boat Quay. Then I asked LC who was attending a boring workshop. At least I gt to noe hw the rest r doing. Rain has a Haloween Party coming. Hw cool! I haf no response frm the other Eileen. Then it occured to me tt there r at least 2 branches of the cafe . I felt lik juz gg to Boat Quay to take pic of tt cafe and let it b a consolation as I can't find the plc in Dhoby. I wish I can find a computer somewhere to track the plc. A navigator will b gd enough. I followed my instinct to travel downwards... To my dismay.. if I known earlier, I shld haf walked down frm Bugis itself! By 3.30pm I alr by-pass the place bt as usual, I nvr btoher to look at any of the signboard. Ina smsed me aft I done my biz and walked to a shophse. I finali saw the signboard, tt was when my hp went dead. Feeling pissed, I walked to Sunshine instead. I noe niisan will b there. I found Gary instead. He said I shld haf smsed niisan, they wld b able to hlp me True.. I shld haf asked them. Chatted wif them for 30min b4 I was pacified. I was nvr tis frustrated. Nth seems rite for me these days. I walked back to find tt they left . Borrowed a phone to call Shan. I only rmb Shan's hp no. Lucky! If nt, I wll reali miss them. I can't recall Ina's no when I borrowed Takuya's hp. Borrowed Gary's hp to 'scream' at them! Bot a litle sth for Ina and Shan as an apology/gratitude for their effort (Ina's is still with me). Blame it on my bad temper. I'm nt in a mood to celebrate b'day. I was a little suprised to c ppl I din xpect. Was a little mad at Eileen coz I was in a bad mood. I knew she was wif them and she denied all the way although she reali wasn't wif them when I smsed her. I shld haf believed ST when she said I'll b saboed today! I was surprised to c XT and I def din recognise her until I asked Shan. She changed a lot since pri sch.

Thank u every1 who took the effort for celebrating my b'day. It was juz tt I wasn't in a rite mood tt I threw tantrums and even purposely dun wanna step into the cafe and went sunshine instead . Coincidentally, my hp ran out of batt & Ina wasn't able to contact me. I din xpect to b using my hp excessively so I din charge. I thot it'll last me till tonite as it usuali shld. Tt's y nth seems rite!

I'm grateful to wat Ina & Shan planned for me and Eileen & XT was joining. Unfortunately, I din gt to play in the cafe! It was different frm gg wih my company ppl anw. I'm juz nt fated to play boardgames wif them today!!! Probably bcoz of tt, I feel down.. I'm a spoilsport .

So .

Went kbox with my colleagues for the very 1st time since I started work in my company. lol! I tink I did said sth wrongly.. Honestly, I din feel as much stress singing in kbox wif them perhaps our 'quality of singing' is near. Most of the songs they sung, I noe. I'm qt when 1 of them can sing those songs I usuali sings at my own discreet . I wish we have more time. Minna-san found it hard to wake up tis morning. 1 of us even took time-off to cover her slp. I oso found myself glued in my own bed. Hw I wish tmr is an off-day. I thot today was Fri.

I find work is getting boring since I was doing the same thing and some times I dun qt understand the purpose behind my tasks. Lack to motivation to do work and my productivity seemed to go down even though I tried to complete my work asap. I manage to fulfil some of my tasks. It wun be ez. I dun tink I can finish them all tmr anw. My colleague was bz 'bullying' another.. I even gt so stressed tt I left the conversation. The blinking in MSN pisses me off somehw. Haf to concentrate!

My Shining Wind cards fianli arrived. Nt fated to own a sign card... sad... Anw, I gt my fave Xero cards (They r all Norm card). At least I even had xtra. I wish I haf more $$$. I wanna get Shining Tears anime TC tis time! Bless me with more Xero cards! Provided tt I managed to place an order b4 it gts sold out! WHERE'S MY SALARY?!

No matter hw I plan, I'll def overspend in Nov. I haf 2 orders pending. Another 1 I'll try to place order stated above. Then nid to gt b'day presents... Gosh! I haf nt bot present for my dad! Let my bro support me 1st then pay him back when I gt my pay. I better set my priority right. I guess it's ok ba.. Hopefuli, I gt cfmed nxt mth and gt a decent incentive. I understand with my current perf, I can't expect much. At least it muz nt be 41/60 kind of PA!

Life is SOOOO BORINGGGG! That I wanna cry... I'm in an endless cycle of working & looking forward to wkends juz for the sake of slp. I nid a goal to live for...

Is there ath else to do other than shopping in the wkends? I'm seriously sick of such life calling out loud! So boring to the core. I noe I'm always repeating this.

Ytd went bowling wif Ina & Shan! Tt was sth interesting aft so long. Me & Shan was bz complaining hw hungry we were.. even to the extent of queuing for the food as soon as they opened... carrying our bag. I had bn nagging & nagging like no 1 business. I hope I haf nt given Ina's any trouble. I'm qt bad at bowling too despite achieving my 1 & only strike during the practice session & numerous long kangs! Toking to Shan was all abt food in our pri sch excursion. All I rmb is food! At least we rmbed diff stuff, more/less can complete the puzzle of memory bah... We seriously nid to consider more activities like tis.

They r still schooling so haf all the time in the world bt nt me. I WANNA GET OUT OF THIS ENDLESS WORKING CYCLE SOON!!! Working life is extremely boring to the core. Let's c if I'm able to last another 1/2 a yr of such undesirable life! I dun wanna slp & 'suffer' for another 5 days! It was all for the sake of $$$ .

I find and fate and destiny works amazingly. Interesting enough, B4 this, I had a serious problem, which I went to seek help from our god. It was thru the drawing a lot. Interesting enough, the lot bode well. And gd things happen after even solving my prob at I can safely say it's 75%. I told myself I haf to show my appreciation after all these blown over.

I made a few friends this wk. 1 of them gave me lots of words of wisdom. I thot she was very positive in her life and work. Impressive! She is my direct opposite. To me, work is a vicious cycle and I haf nth much to look forward for except some satisfaction once in a while and my pay every mth. I wish I'll be able to get out of this cycle one day. It's no gd to be tinking of slp the whole day on the days of working. To me, it wasn't ez. I HATE SUNDAY!

Reading on Ina's blog. I thot I had forgotten many things.. especially wat I wanna do. I reali forgotten hw much I was into astronomy as well as photography. Life was so boring to the core that I no longer bother to rmb wat I reali want except anime and anime stuff all the time. Ina reminded me abt all these I had forgotten. All these, time and effort is required and my current working life won't allow me to do so. For once, I hated myself and my life. I realise I dunno myself and my true desire. Wat do I reali want to do in life? I still can't find the ans to it. I dun even noe myself well.

AHH!! I realise my salary is gone even b4 half a mth has gone by.. *stares at my order slips* Gd! All my stuffs comes at once eh? That Digimon animestyle archive is reali ex.. I wonder if I was in a rite mind when I ordered the bk. It was the same period when I ordered the CDs. Aft I read the bk, I noe I dun regret getting it. I see the flow of work when the scenes were depicted in sketches. Nxt wk, I haf my GS chara f aut/win ver to collect as well as L nendroid. Hopefully, CG Meistar wun show up.. My wallet bleeds. If only they arrived last mth, then I wun b spending tt much on clothes and shoes when I see spare $$$. All the best to me for survival. I realised I forgot to plan my lunch $$$ tt I alr spent it =_=.