Chapter: September 2007

Nth seems rite last wk. Even though I'm happy that my items arrived, there were many things I was worried and still is worried abt. Mainly due to a major mistakes I made. I understand some mistakes had undesirable consequences and it was irreversible. I duno if I shld move forward or shld I retreat & give up. I'm reali scared. I had nvr been as scared as b4. So afraid tt I was trying to find ways to settle it bt yet I was still spotted. Juz my bad luck!

One shld nvr make mistake, once mistakes made, there's no path of return. I swear if I manage to get out of it, I'll nvr make this stupid mistake ever again. NEVER!!! This mistake is foolish yet the consequence is serious.

Today, I went to ask for a lot to find ans if I'll be able to solve my problem... I reali hope that the lot will turn out gd although it din ans my qns. I will fulfill my promise if things turns out to be gd. I feel remorseful.

I dun deserve to be treated nicely. I'm so self-centered and I dun care abt other ppl except myself. I'll only hlp others out as long as it dun cause me dissatisfaction. I dun dare to voice out my dissatisfaction, tt's the worst. I duno wat kind of person I'm. I can't be bothered to rmb on tiny details. I'm nt considerate as well. Y am I always following other ppl's nose.. I only dare to say I like sth when ppl say he/she likes sth. I always hesitate. And whenever I gt sth gd, I dun dare to share wif other ppl . I always feel that I'm always confused and haf an inferior complex. I duno hw others look at me. Probably some1 wif a lot of secrets. So depressing.

Yes yes, my CDs from CDJapan finali arrived! I was looking forward to it for 3+ wks. From the time I noticed that Digimon 10th Anniversary album, I decided to give a shot to order directly. Tis time I paid with money order which took 3 wks to post the $$$. Bt the shipping from Japan was qt fast. In less than a wk... juz 5 days it arrived in my hand thanks to my bro who happened to 'bump into the postman' as he was abt to leave the house. I'm rather addicted to online shopping.. nw even into all these . Despite all the complaint abt nt being able to gt enough slp and no more holidays due to work. I guess these are the best things we can gt wif $$$ from all our hard work .

Many of us r so addicted to the wait of parcels to arrive to our hse. It's a fantastic feeling to have sth to look forward to when we go hm aft work.

Yahoo! An off sat when I can slp in late! A day with nth to do! Gg out is a muz. I will be pissed wif a full day a hm. So in the end, I decided to go shopping.. on my own.

It had bn a long while since I feel like doing some shopping esp on wat girls usually shops... like clothes, shoes etc.. Most of the time, I will probably bz eyeing whichever anime merchandise I wanna gt, tt's where much of my salary was. It was rarely I feel happiness in being able to shop on my 'practical' stuff. I actuali bot 2 pairs of new shoes, 1 covered & 1 slippers. I wanted to buy a black formal pant bt too bad (as usual, I wasn't prepared to pay tt much for a black pant). I bot a casual top. I even bot Angel Lovers and Secrets Soundtrack (Shan, I still decided to buy it in the end). Tt Secrets soundtrack wasn't very ez to find.. at least I can't be bothered to ask the staff for it.

Collecting soundtracks (those shows I watched) is oso my hobby, I had 'Magicians of Love', 'Sornia Pasta' & I'm eyeing the latest <<樱野三加一>> soundtrack with 5566 new song. I noticed more anime OST out there. I pretty much spent a bomb on them esp on GSD and Nana. I even placed an order with CDJapan for Digimon soundtracks. In a way, I'm 'experimenting' to really order sth directly online paying via $$$ order. I guess tt's oso a satisfaction gained from working due to more disposable income. I feel like trying paypal. I din proceed due to tt charging of $3. I noe I will def proceed soon due to my strong desire . I'm oso watching ebay.

B4 I noe, I already overspent this mth. I still haf orders nt arrived then dental appointmt. I'm looking forward to salary day.If the rumour is true... we shld be getting it early nxt mth soon aft the nxt pay day.

I'm even more a fishmonger aft working. In anw, I oso duno when it's the rite time to spend. I tell myself nt to be controlled by others in terms in spending. Setting aside for savings & some $$$ for parents is a muz. the rest other than lunch & transport, shldn't I decided hw I wanna spend it?

I'm wondering wat's friendship? I'm nt a gd friend to many ppl as I'm qt self-centred. I try to make ppl happy whenever I can bt nt to the expense of my dissatisfaction. I dun hang ard with ppl much and I always have complaints. Dun be surprised if I even complaint at my friends' back abt them. I guess many ppl r oso doing the same.

Wat'll come will come.. I hope everyday will be a happy one.. tt's gd enough. No fight, company politics, backstabbing... PEACE! I'm off to slp!

Updates of photos of my 'trophies'

Munching cakes @ 11.46pm

Saturday, 1 September 2007
Song Playing... See-Saw - Kimi wa Boku ni Niteiru

Hardly have some spare time for these. Some random photo I had taken wif my hp cam for the past few mths.

Coscon 2007

I was juz speaking wif Shan abt the PC Fair at Suntec as she nids a thumbdrive. The photos below were taken wehn we last hunt for the tumbdrive previously. She still rmbs. My memory is getting worse. All I rmb was I almost 'hit' a kid .

Some random photos

All hail to the mozzie! I'm lame hehheh...

I wonder who'll get this photo frame placing his/her own photo

Tt's all folks!

Munching cakes @ 11.46pm