Back To Square One

 

          Three steps.  Left.  Four steps.  Right.  Ten steps.  Left.  Five steps.  Left.  Fifteen steps.  Left.  Two steps.  He opened his eyes only to see a solid wall before him.  Numbers were carved into the stone, signifying that he had returned again to the starting position.  Oh come on!  Three, four, one, zero, five, one, five, two.  I did that!  Pasqodnal sank to his knees.  Turning his head and looking around, all he could see were walls.  But none of the walls were real.  Many times he had leaned against them, hoping one would open into a passageway.  But every wall opened into a passageway.  For hours, Pasq grouped the numbers together in his mnd and paced in every direction.  But when all the numbers were used, he was magically teleported to the wall he had started at.  Pounding against that one solid wall accomplished nothing, whatever pattern he used.  Three times, he simply walked in one direction, counting the total of twenty-one paces, assuming the outer wall would greet him.  When his reaching hands met stone and he opened his eyes, the same numbers stared at him hauntingly.  Pasqodnal attempted to breathe in sync with the numbers, but no.  Nothing worked.  At last, he surrendered and sank to his knees for a nap.  As he closed his eyes, tiny red flames danced back and forth in his mind.  Since the sight of passing through stone was also maddening, Pasq had kept his eyes closed for hours, peering now and again to assure that the stone was visible.  The flames in his mind now bothered him, and he wished he could see darkness again.  Several times he had called upon his power to deliver an idea, but the flames offered no assistence.  He could not command his magic well enough to permit an escape.

          What next?  He listed the numbers in his mind.  He had even attempted all of the number patterns backwards.  He stepped sideways, backwards, anything.  He jumped, he ran, he crawled even.  Nothing.  The flames rocked back and forth in his mind, as if taunting him.  He found his head lolling to their rhythm.  His heart slowed to match the methodic pace.  The flames lazily leaned from one side to the next.  Pasq’s eyes rolled in his head.  His breathing became shallow.  A slight haze surrounded the flames in his mind, causing them to appear to rock even more lethargically.  He felt his body list to one side then swing the other way.  His body, his heartbeat, his breathing, his eyes, and his flames all swayed in unison as if in a dying breeze.  Dying breeze. . . .  The words floated lifelessly through his mind.  His arms grew heavy.  He slumped forward.  So . . . calm.  Sleep.  Yes, sleep.  All . . . a . . . dream.  The flames disappeared in his mind.

*  *  *

          Kimdeylyn stared at herself.  As she moved her right hand, the hand before her moved.  Raising her eyes, blue eyes met hers.  She reached forward, but could not touch her duplicate self, yet when her hand reached the image, she felt as if someone grabbed her hand.  Yelling at the duplicate deafened herself.  Spitting dampened her own face.  Once, she attempted to walk through her mirror.  She passed through the image, but it felt as though someone were pressing against her body.  The harder she pushed, the less she could breathe.  Frustrated, Kimdeylyn swung her open hand at the double, only to feel the sting across her own cheek.  She ground her teeth and drew in many breaths of air to calm herself.

          Kim stared into the deep blue eyes and traced the lines of her face.  I’m . . . beautiful! she declared, chuckling.  The thought echoed ferociously in her mind.  She closed her eyes and focused on silence until the phrase no longer reverberated.  She turned around and opened her eyes, but the image was still before her.  Spinning slowly, the duplicate image always faced her, matching her rotation.  However fast she spun, her eyes always looked directly back at her.  Only when she shifted her eyes could she see anything else, though her body occupied most of the image.  A white void served as the only background.  Stepping in any direction met resistence.  Kimdeylyn reached out with her right hand and pretended to grab the ethereal hand that mimicked her movement.  When she tightened her grip, her left hand ached.  She clenched her left hand against the pain, while the image’s right hand balled into a fist.  With her own left hand in a fist, her right hand could not crush the image’s left hand, nor could the image crush her hand.  She released the duplicate.  Turning her head to the side was impossible.  The image’s body attempted to remain in its position, while the head tried to swing out to keep the eyes locked on her eyes.  The more she twisted her neck, the more agonizing the pain.  Curious, Kimdeylyn removed her tunic and tossed it at the image, after pausing to admire her beauty, of course.  The cloth slapped Kim in the face.  She bent to retrieve it, forced to keep her head upright, and stood again.  She swung her arm out to the side and released the shirt, but the mirror’s hand blocked her motion.  Kimdeylyn swung again, but did not extend her arm forward.  Cloth met cloth and fell to the floor.  Kimdeylyn donned the tunic and scratched her head.  Her light touch was felt twofold.

          I can’t go anywhere.  I can’t do anything.  Everything I do, she does -- or I do.  Whatever.  The words echoed.  If I could only be less of a warrior and more of a philosopher, I’d think my way through.  She snickered.  There’s two of me; I’m twice the philosopher I used to be!  She grinned.  There’s two of me.  Hey, this is great!  But, I’m doing this backwards.  First I was frustrated, now I’m happy.  That mirror image must have thought the opposite.  Hmm.  Her fingers strummed her thigh.  How did I get in here anyway?  Wait, shouldn’t I be thinking about how to get out?

          “When did you get here?” she asked the image.  The words burned her own ears.  “How did you get here?” she demanded.

          “How did you get here?” the image insisted.

          “Did you fall in?”

          “Did you fall in?” the image responded.

          “Did you walk in?” Kim asked.

          “Did you walk in?”

          “Did someone put you here?” Kim pursued.

          “Did someone put you here?” the mirror wondered.

          “Did you walk in?” the warrior asked again.

          “Did you walk in?” the duplicate repeated.  “Did you fall in?”

          “Did you fall in?” Kim sputtered uncontrollably.

          “How did you get here?” the image wondered.  The same words spewed from Kimdeylyn’s lips.  “When did you get here?”  Again, Kim spat the words.  How do I get out of here?  Wait, shouldn’t I be wondering how I got in?  I’m getting frustrated!  If only I could be less of a philosopher and more of a warrior.   Maybe I could fight my way out.  But, I can’t do anything.  I can’t go anywhere.  Kim’s hand scratched her head then pulled her tunic off.  Tossing it to the ground, the double picked it up and threw it at her with a flick of her wrists.  Kim’s knees buckled and dropped the tunic on the ground as the mirror reached for it at the same time.  The image threw the shirt into Kimdeylyn’s face.  Kim’s hand uncontrollably slid the tunic over her head and tucked it into her pants.  Her head tried to detach from her neck.  Her right hand clenched tightly into a fist as an invisible hand gripped her left hand, then released.  The duplicate’s body swayed in several directions, met each time by Kim’s actions.  Dizziness spun her, then darkness claimed her vision.  When sight returned, deep blue eyes bore into her mind.  Her breath escaped her.  The image swung her hand and slapped Kim’s face harshly.  Kimdeylyn could neither dodge nor resist, which frustrated her.  Her body pitched forward toward the image, who then spat in Kim’s face and shouted.  Her left hand reached out as the image offered the mirroring limb.  The double stared at her for a while in silent contemplation.  The mirror blew on Kim’s face in a sigh.  Her knees buckled again and she squatted on the floor, her eyes locked with the image’s.  The double pivoted, and Kim swung around the image, her body uncontrollably turning to face the unblinking blue eyes.  Kimdeylyn’s body circled the mirror’s body faster and faster.  By sight, Kim could not know she was spinning, since the image always faced her in the exact pose she was in, and the white background gave no point of reference.  Her equilibrium, however, screamed dizziness in her mind until she swooned in discomfort.  Both bodies collapsed.  The white nothingness faded to darkness.  The spell was broken.

*  *  *

          The numbers.  The numbers.  Three.  Four.  One.  Zero.  Five.  One.  Five.  Two.  He curled his fingers to represent each number as he called them.  He recited them again, using his other hand, then both.  Nothing.  The nap had not cleared his mind.  The numbers filled all thought.  He curled his toes when curling his fingers had no effect.  He stamped his feet on the ground.  He clapped his hands together.  He jumped into the air three times, spun in a circle four times, squatted once--  How do you stand zero times?  He stopped.  The stone wall smiled at him.  The numbers seemed to bounce off the wall.  Pasqodnal swung his arms against their attack.  He backed away as they grew larger.  He cried as they overwhelmed him.  He fell to the floor, squeezing his eyes shut.  When he found the courage to open them, the stone wall waited, the numbers small again.

          What is happening to me?  He rubbed his eyes to the numeric rhythm.  He snapped his fingers to the rhythm.  He thudded his hand against his chest.  He chattered his teeth.  He blinked his eyes.  Everything he did involved the numbers.  They possessed his mind.  I came here with three friends -- four if you count the dog.  I am alone now and have no one else to help me.  I met five of them underground in the Kijariol kingdom.  One of them died there.  The wizard called to us -- five again.  The dog and the eagle -- two animals.  He opened his eyes, his jaw clenched.  The scrawled numbers grinned back.  He rhythmically banged his head against the wall.  I’m going insane, he realized.  I must think this through before I lose my mind.  What do I know that possesses numbers?  Numbers.  Numbers.  Numbers as position?  What did Father teach me long ago?  Rings?  Magic Rings?  Invisibility, Danger, Life, Ghost, Levitation.  One, two, three, four, five.  Three, four, one, zero, five, one, five, two.  Life, Ghost, Invisibility, nothing, Levitation, Invisibility, Levitation, Danger.  Nothing.  What did Startok call his Ring?  He snapped his fingers.  Life, Ghost, Invisibility, Starlorten, Levitation, Invisibility, Levitation, Danger.  When you live, you will die without seeing peace or flight, and without seeing flying trouble.  He opened his eyes and closed them against the numbers.  What am I saying? he wondered with a befuddled expression on his weary face.  What is it, then?  What is the significance of the numbers?  What do they mean?  Why these numbers and none above five?  Should I be counting six through nine?  But why, then, do some numbers repeat?  One, Five.  Why don’t the others?  One.  Five.  Invisibility.  Levitation.  Invisible -- can’t see.  If only I couldn’t see the stone walls.  Levitation -- can fly.If only I could fly out of this trap.  Trap.  The word thrashed through his mind in the silence.  The numbers.  A trap.  His head sank into his large hands.  “What a fool!” he called aloud.  He thought of Startok.  “You called yourself a fool for being careless.  I think I just surpassed that.”

          Determined, Pasqodnal rose to his feet.  He cleared the numbers from his mind and paced a casual, uncounted gait.  But the numbers would not leave him, returning him to the start.  He stepped away from the wall again, saying Startok’s name with each step, but he found himself against the numbered wall.  I suppose that’s a form of counting, then.  Pasqodnal opened his eyes against the stone.  He forced himself to pass through the stone with his eyes open.  The concept unnerved him.  He passed through the first wall.  Good.  That was easy enough.  Now the next.  Okay, one more.  Now another one.  Now--  The numbers.  The wall touched his nose, the numbers laughing at him.  Reality seemed far from his fingertips.

          Pasqodnal released his annoyance in a trembling bellow.  He cast his thoughts toward Startok again.  He recalled walking into Startok’s childhood home and seeing Astle step into the room. 

          Pasq took a step. 

          He recalled the old man turning to him and looking at his chest.  Pasqodnal remembered feeling awkward. 

          He continued walking. 

          Gazing at his chest to see why the man stared, wondering if the abundant amount of straight dark hair unnerved the man, he gasped when the boy passed through him.  The old man greeted the child and scolded him for being outside late at night.  Pasqodnal saw them sit and remembered his own unease when his hand passed through the furniture.

          Like walking through these stone walls.  His hand hit stone.  The numbers gleamed back.

          He started over, losing himself in the memory.  He thought it strange how he had walked into the house and witnessed Startok’s past as if it had been reliving itself in the room.  When Startok explained that their minds were partially linked due to Andy’s spell, Pasq seemed satisfied.  But he wondered why he couldn’t speak to Startok if their minds were linked.  Perhaps only certain memories can be shared.  Maybe only similar memories will be shared.  What did Tawi say?  Startok was separated from his parents as an infant?  Interesting.  The memory that released my power was of losing my parents.  And what memories of Startok’s did I witness?  The story of the stars -- yes, Father told me that story, too.  Startok saw more in the story than I did, and it made me feel helpless.  When I thought that, the scene changed, and Startok was crying at losing his friend at the bottom of a well -- crying because he felt helpless!  He found himself laughing.  “So, Startok, how else are we the same?” he wondered aloud, his eyes still closed.  As he asked this, he hit the wall again, though it felt warm, not cold.  Opening his eyes, he gasped and fell to his knees, almost in tears.

          Startok looked down at Pasq.  “What is it, friend?”  Niff extended her tongue to Pasq in greeting.

          The dark-haired man smiled up at Startok.  “I can’t believe I escaped!  And I owe it to you!”

          “Escaped?  What are you talking about, Pasqodnal?  Niff and I just saw you pacing with your eyes closed as if you hadn’t a care in the world!  I spoke your name when I saw you, but you ignored me until you walked into me just now.”  He glanced down at his chest.  “I’ll probably be bruised tomorrow, you know,” Startok complained.  “Next time, don’t walk so fast with your eyes closed.  It hurts.”

          Pasq stood up after petting Niff’s head.  “Rekulock is one clever enemy.”  He held his head with his hands and looked Startok in the eye.  As his eyes only reached Startok’s perfectly straight nose, he had to look up slightly.  “Thank you for sharing your memories with me, Startok.  They helped me escape the trap.”

          “Did they, now?” Startok wondered.  Niff thumped her tail.

          “Yes.  Thinking of them, I was able to overcome the spell that bound me.  I was foolish not to see it earlier.”  He clasped Startok’s shoulder.  “I thank you.”

          “Think nothing of it,” the Starlorten muttered airily.  Startok’s hand reached up and gripped Pasqodnal’s, pulling it off his shoulder.  He lifted the man’s hand before his eyes, while Pasq’s thick brows furrowed.  Startok’s green eyes stared into Pasqodnal’s greenish-brown eyes.

          Green . . . ?  Pasq’s eyes opened wide as he gasped in sudden realization.  Too late.  A rumbling snicker echoed in Pasqodnal’s mind.  Niff’s body grew in size and darkened in color.  Startok’s skin turned brown, then black.  His fingers changed into sharp black nails.  Pasq’s eyelids closed against the transformation.  Startok’s words echoed in his mind:  Sometimes I am a fool.


 

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