To My Dad
I love and appreciate you beyond measure! There is no way i can express the love I have for you, it is so great!
Thank you so very much for being their when I was down. Everyday I had crying feasts in my room because no one at school loved me.
You were there to help me deal with that pain that I had in my heart. You were the one who always comforted me when I was very sad, unconfident.
Thank you so much for being there and listening to everything. I do not think God could have given me a better father.
I am proud to say that I am a daddy's girl and will always no matter how old I am be your Special Sunbeam. I will love you all my life!
And I will never forget the days I watched the news with you and all the time as a child you were there.
And I wish that adolesence had not got in the way of our relationship. Even though, I still feel comfortable enough to tell you my problem and
I REALLY appreciate that! Thank you ever so MUCH!!!

To my MOM
I LOVE you a lot as well, mom. I don't think that i could have asked God for a better and wiser mother.
You have showed me so much and have helped me see myself so well. I see myself in you: a crazy, unique beautiful women,
who has helped me so very much with my emotional and spiritual problems. Even though you weren't very affectionate with touch,
you were extremely affectionate with words and empathy i really appreciate you a lot. I really, really LOVE how you are filled with the holy spirit
and how open-minded you are. You ARE great! When i talk you about Christ i get chills and i love that!
You are, and always will be, no matter how far we are apart, my first best friend, and i'll always be here. Because your always there for me.
Thank you a ton for being my mom and especially my friend.

To my older Sister, Sarah
I love ya, girl! Not all sisters always get along, but i'm so glad that we did most of the time. You were a great role model for me in my life.
You influenced me to become a more mature person inadvertantly. Thanx a lot! I really appreciate that, even though,
I didn't like it when you were annoyed at me because i was immature. It was good that you challenged me.
You were my first sister and the one of my best friends. You were my first and only real playmate as a child.
I loved tagging around with you even though you didn't like it all the time. I really loved how we would play together in the wood out back.
How we came up with that imaginary animal who ate tiny pine cones. I loved how we would climb trees together and run in the field together.
I missed those days. I miss hanging out with you. I miss seeing you. I wish we could see each other again. :(
Life without seeing my sister is disheartening at times. It sucks not having money. I'm so glad that you're such a strong Christian, even though,
we do not agree on everything. Thanx for the insights! But please do not press or force your personal views onto me...that's all i ask is for respect for my views and i respect yours.

To my close friend, Stephanie Artz
I really love and care about you a ton even though time and space have separated us at this point in our lives. :( I really miss your presence in my life. Your raw expression of love has got to be a gift that you possess of which i am purely glad to experience. I truely believe that you express love the way God intented it to be shown with grace, forgiveness, understanding and nonjudgemental. I really appreciate the platonic physical affection i recieved from you over the years at college. I really miss that about a lot of my friends especially is the touch i got from you. knowing that you truly cared for me! and i really appreciate that you cared enough to help me see my own problems by helping me improve them. Thanx so much for being in my life. I miss you so much you have no idea! And i'm so happy for you and Spence! it's not even funnny!

To my close friend, Tricia Puskar
I really miss your crazy self you! even though i thought that at time you were a bit too much although i'm sure the same can be said for me. I really appreciate that you were there for me and in my life you are my crazy counterpart! hehe! i'm glad that we always come to some sort of understanding about our views on life and faith even though they can be opposite sometimes. I love your passion for those less fortunate it has really showed and opened up for me a new world of understanding and empathy! And the same could be said for Steph. I really loved the love you showed to me in all the different forms. and i will always miss your constant presence in my life.

To my close and good friend, Peter Westerhuis
I love you my friend! you truly understand me in so many ways i wish i could understand you more sometimes. when i first meet you at Pamoja i had a feeling we would be great friends because of the understanding i perceived from you. and even God wanted me to be good friends with you. i constantly remind myself this...when i was walking back from church i asked God, "do you want me to be friends with him, just give me a sign." and at that moment you came by in a car and shouted, "hi" so i guess our friendship is God ordained! hehe! There is soo much you have shown me! you will never know. My empathy and understanding for gay Christians has changed ever since i became friends with you. and i truly love how wonderful and caring you are to me! i don't think i'll find a friend as amazing as you, ever. you are like the brother i never had...we understand each other so well i think i could say you're like my twin-soul-brother. as Steph Artz and Tricia say they are like and i like to say about us: "from the same seed" tihe! i really love you! and are happy for you and Matt! :)

Don't worry follow friends and family...i'm slowly adding you on later...but don't worry until i do i still LOVE you all!

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