The first entry in my journal. I'm excited! Shouldn't sound too eager, should I if I want people to read this right? Okay. Today, two significant events occurred in my life: I had a rehearsal for Act 5 for Measure For Measure and I participated in the semi-finals of the General Knowlege Quiz at Wisma Mendaki. Both were quite successful. We got through to the finals of the quiz which will be held next week at some obscure location rarely used and I thought that the rehearsals for Act 5 actually went well as everyone finally knew what to do and where to stand (blocking as my teacher calls it). Had to leave halfway though to rush for the quiz held on the other side of Singapore. Quite a shame. I was actually enjoying the rehearsals, but simply winning the quiz was well worth the trouble. Looking forward to more rehearsals as the real performance dates draw nearer (May 29th and 30th at Ulu Pandan Community Centre). Still rather jittery on Act 2 though. Must try to walk in the character's shoes more. Must. Must. Make note to self. Must.   

Got into a big fight with my siblings and my parents. Didn't speak to them for more than 3 hours. Just kept my mouth shut when I was spoken to. Rather rude of me but they deserve it since they were rude to me to. Don't worry. Everything's now okay, I think. Will try and belittle the incident tomorrow morning by volunteering for house chores. Can't tell you what it is coz' it's a bit personal.

Also, note to self. Run more. Or jog. Or even walk more. I need to train up my flabby legs and thighs for NS. Also need to develop arm and chest muscles if possible. The gym? Not a very alluring proposition. Any other way to do this at home in my own privacy? Dunno. Better ask around. I do not want to 'die' for my NS at the end of this year. Must survive. Definitely a Singapore thing. Survival as a priority in life. Must make it a priority. Must. Must.

Listened through the OLC of The Phantom of the Opera. Still love the CD, I must admit. Great voices, great music, great storyline and great dénouement. Really love POTO. World's greatest. Really. Must watch in 2005 I think? Coming to Singapore, judging by rumours but not all are believable.

Saw some previous classmates today from previous schools. Didn't recognize me at all. I am so sad at the prospect of not being recognized only after a few years. Even when I approached them, they could not register my face until I told them my name. Sad. Really sad. Shows how mundane my life can be, to the extent that I have to approach my friends to remind them that I still exist. Sometimes, they just whizz past me without even glancing at me. Again, how sad. I really am a sad person, on the verge of depression. Thank God, there's school and homework.

Without school and homework, I'd think I'd be so lost in society and maybe die since my really close circle of friends has a diameter too small for its own good. It's not that I'm anti-social. It's just that I'm not comfortable shaking hands and making friends on a whim, just by saying hello and I am too shy. It is simply not me to shake hands and say something along the lines of "Would you like to be my friend?". Most of my friends now are friends I've had for years whom I've taken years to know more about. Tells a lot about my nature, doesn't it? Hoping someone out there, that elusive girl will show me how to survive in society and finally make friends because I really believe that no man is an island. Hoping I don't turn out to become an anti-social nerd or something despised by society. I think I'm on the verge of becoming one, at least I think I'm projecting the perception that I am one. I really am not. I try to change myself. I buy clothes I normally wouldn't buy. I read books I never thought I would. I comb my hair in ways I've never done it before. I'm talking to people I never thought I would ever have the courage to. I'm performing well in school too. Change IS good, isn't it? Well I hope so.