| Friday, May 10th, 2002
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 11:01p - Insight Today worked out to be quite fortuitous as far as girl troubles go. A soldier in the PAC...an office mate, dislocated a shoulder during training yesterday. He had to go back to the hospital today after being released from the ER yesterday and he needed a ride. I volunteered to take him after morning formation was over. Well, as hospital visits go, we were there for most of the day. Turns out the doctor is recommending surgery to fix the damaged ligaments...o/w his shoulder will develop a much greater propensity to dislocate again. Thus we ended up running around to get an MRI. Because of all that, I didn't get into the office until around 1400 or so...and as I hoped, I was dissapointed; still no response. Being away from the office and concerned about my friend, I never even thought about my email, and it set me at peace quite a bit. Now I remember this quite clearly...I was walking down the stairs when it hit me...This whole thing with Kim...it had gone from something along the lines of a heartfelt matter to a mind game. I wasn't thinking so much of being with her anymore. I was thinking more of this "what is her reaction and where is this going now?" thing. I realized it had already become a sort of game. It might not be a game that finishes anytime soon, but I've a better handle on how to play my cards at least. Gone are any thoughts of "this is the one for me". Now I'm more interested in seeing if we stay in contact or if this is just another one of those "one off" encounters. Some people have one night stands...I have one time meetings. I'm thinking of going into the office tomorrow morning...just to see if she makes an effort to reply before her weekend starts. If she does, the game will probably take a little longer. If she doesn't, I feel much more confident that this whole thing will blow over completely, and quickly. In any case, I've gone from the "love sick fool" stage to the "inquiring minds want to know" stage. I've also become much more comfortable about leaving the service and my plans for re-entering civilian life. The idea of going to Law School is much more concrete now. Right now I'm leaning towards being a DA...prosecution or defense, I haven't really decided...but I'm not concerned about making a lot of money like most people that practice law are. current mood: cheerful
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