Each Day a Quest
Sinking
Steel
Shell
Jen #3
Losing the Present's Promise
Real Life
Defective
Smoking Cubans
Beyond the Zero
Memories of a Girl
Gone
Dreams of a Return
Chameleon Thoughts
An Exercise in Rhyming Nonsense
You
You Are:

as well as the brief bio and a couple pictures as also requested. Stay tuned for info on what makes the cut and publication dates/availability!

Been a trying weekend. I don't know exactly what brought it on...maybe it was reaching the two week mark, but I relapsed about the girl hard...small victory in that i didn't contact her or visit her journal...makes two weeks on both counts so far. After a good chat with jenni (aka taliana, one time LJer) I feel better. So two weeks now and I'm feeling better about extending that out to three weeks, four, and then turning it into months. In fact...I'm beginning to be glad I've had no contact as I'm still so very confused and I wouldn't know what to say to her if she DID contact me and want to rebuild a friendship.

I haven't been writing much about my trek lately. Jenni pointed that out tonight. The fact of the matter is I've had so much going on in my life lately, even outside of the girl, and my motivation factor towards all of it has been zero. Getting out of bed is harder than it used to be...

But I don't know...maybe I'm at a turning point. I'm beginning to feel a bit more of myself creep back in right now. I'm seeing myself more in the present and not the past as I write this. I look back on the past couple months and I'm just amazed at everything (outside the girl)...everything I've done even with my current state of emotions. It steadies my nerves about *living*.

And I like the mere fact that I'm comfortable making this entry public. 

current mood:  hopeful
current music: Verbow _Chronicles_  

 
biffah 
2002-12-29 16:42
ah! i didn't get a chance to vote! (even though all the ones that i liked, no, loved, are on that list) and can i also say how jealous i am of you that you are getting your poetry published! lucky bastard!

oddharmonic 
2002-12-30 15:25
Hooray for including Smoking Cubans! I am happy.

If the girl contacts you, say no. If you don't, I'll have to find my way out there space-a and beat you down.

It's good to see you on the way up. And I'll second taliana: more trek! I can't live vicariously without details. (: 
 

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