Tori Amos 05.05.98
09.08.98
1:05PM
So lets see, I had two rum and cokes that tasted like water, a tequila sunrise that had a little bit more taste, and a grapefruit and tanquaray that had a bite instead of taste really...Derik had a few of those grapefruit/tanks.
An OK bar but nothing special. I speak of the new nearby Applebee's Bar and Grill. Close enough to walk home from when neccessary, but I didn't enjoy it too much. I was a little too tired from work and a bit too smoked. Derik'd been drinking all day just about so he wasn't a big conversationalist to my lack of topics = sit and drink pretty much is all we did. Talked about his chevelle and it's being built from the motor up...etc. Tried to get into a conversation about music so I could blather about my hobby but he wasn't really interested so that topic was out. It's been such a long time and we haven't ever really had too much in common anyway so it's hard...Watched his fish a bit, saw a girl from the high school flag team I hadn't seen in 4 years Derik was getting together with. An OK evening but didn't really gain a whole lot from it except for a rather good buzz. But then, I guess that's something isn't it?
Working from 5 to 8 tonight. A shit shift really, maybe get five deliveries *tops*. Tommorrow I'm off, maybe hooking w/ Tracy, I dunno. Hafta refill my tetra prescrip and mail a credit card payment. Big plans for today I tell ya...Still in my PJ's and kicking back with a teensy bit of tequila/squirt. just a tiny splash really cuz I had the taste for one. Been up since 10:30AM or so...sleep in day. Woke up at 5:15 *just* after dad left. In fact I didn't even realize he had left yet until I saw the coffee pot half emptied...Saw him ever so briefly when I came in last night, but said nothing, he was just about to hop back into bed and I guess I surprised him as I walked in...He's back in Penn. this week till Friday. Then he and Mom are leaving for Thailand next week...always on the road...vacation isn't going to be so great for him, more hotel food and beds...but mom at least gets her time away.
Tori's next week, night one in Oakland.
Intoxicated inspiration from last night:
I hadda a vision it seemed like sleep beginning
Circles within circles of destruction bled
Blue yellow green silver and a red without textured words
of grace to describe
But I awoke trembling, ranting my body's thirst for water
To quench the alcohol's called shots...
But wrote this sidestep.
A Lord, if there is one, would be a joyous sight
Upon us all now,
But for one would suffice for now
Pretty please sir, let it be mine grace
To become a joyous one...
But I am afraid my largest father if that is you
Of myself for my flaws I call *not* flaws--
Slight distictions between fellow men,
Are many flaws being sent for redemption?
By my burning in the fire of the military,
Although that thought is a deep one I can't really recall
before...
But I have my water now hear beside my form and my thoughts
clearer...
It is time for sleep and a new day on the horizon
Has promises to be kept and thoughts to take fruitition...