8:00am - phone rings..... doreen is on her way - i wake up (in that order)!
8:10am - doreen is here with coffee! Good thing or i might have thrown her ass out!
8:15am - i'm scanning pictures of doreen for her new boyfriend in Boston.
8:30am - i'm loadin' up AOL for doreen so she can send piccies to new boyfriend!
8:35am - i'm attaching piccies because doreen is clueless....
8:40am - shower time
8:50am - we are on our way out the door to another beautiful day of Group Therapy!

Surprise.......... it's Write-your-own-Affirmation Wednesday!

I spend nearly all my time writing in my paper journal or on here.... all day long i stumble around thinking of really cool things i'd like to talk about ......... 'write-your-own' day comes along and i'm speechless.... or thoughtless...

Judith (the therapist) usually gives us 30 minutes to write........ so, I decided to have another conversation with See.

Me - See, you here? there? somewhere?
See - Of course I am.
Me - I'm afraid right now.....
See - I know that.
Me - I feel that I am everything.
See - Maybe you are. Losing things gives you room to add things, ya know.
Me - I feel like i'm losing myself though........
See- You can't lose it all, Jami. You can't ever lose it all because some things God gave you. No one can ever take those things away from you. Everything else that you 'acquired' along the way..... those can go but, certain things God gave you and you won't lose those! It's sorta like trees, Jami.
Me - Trees? *oh boy*
See - Yes, trees. They lose their leaves in the the fall but they always have the ability to grow new ones when the time is right .... in the Spring. They don't die when they lose their leaves - do they? No, because of their roots....... it's the roots that keep them alive - not the leaves.... sure, the leaves might add to their beauty and may serve a purpose or two but it's the roots that keep them alive. You have roots, Jami. Things might seem a little bare right now but, you have the roots to keep you going! When the time is right..... things will start working for you.......... you'll see. You just need to be patient. Stay grounded in the roots that God has given you............

that was it..... short and sweet...... Friday is Illustrate-your-Affirmation Day..... how the hell i'm going to illustrate this i'm not sure yet...... but, i'm thinking... tall, brown and leafy...... must have leaves.... something to remind me that "this too shall pass".

this entry is a weird one.... trust me... it was a weird day! Happy December, Everybody!

kisses................ jami