January 5, 1999
Well, here i am, another trip on the South Shore back to Chitown. My trip to Florida is over and i'm going back to work. I'm actually looking foward to work - which scares me! I've never "looked forward" to work. And, I don't think i'm looking forward to it because i'm healthy. i think i'm needing to go back because i'm afraid of being at home...... Afraid of the feeling i have when i'm at home. I guess i need to figure out that this "fear" isn't such a bad thing. It just is.... just exists! Same thing with my depression and anxiety. they aren't a bad thing.... just a thing. just because i have it and people think it's weird doesn't mean that is true! their thoughts are their problem. i need to just deal with it. why am i always so damn concerned with everyone else?
ahhhh..... oh well!
me