Two Tickets to Paradise!
i went away last weekend....... to Rich's cabin. it's just a quick hour out of town but it's an entirely new world when you get there...... this little town of Momence......
we got there after dark on Saturday and unloaded his van full of antique goodies that he plans to put somewhere in the house..... he's amazing when it comes to putting things 'in their place'. after we hauled it all in he suggested we go out for dinner........... the restaurant owner......... we go out for dinner all the time -- it cracks me up.
talk consisted of jami spilling her childhood memories out on the table like a little kid might accidently spill his milk...... they just kept coming out....... Rich just kept shaking his head and asking questions.... appearing to want to know more. Of course, I am capable of giving more..... never a problem for me.
Dinner was tastey....... conversation contiued in the van on the drive back to the cabin. that's when i realized that i'd said way too much all ready...... but, something inside both of us kept urging me to just get more out........ He's a listener..... a good one too.
when we got back to the house, i quickly jumped out of the van and began crunching leaves with my feet - nervous energy.... i just had sandals on and i could feel the crunchy leaves..... Rich laughed at me and suggested that in the morning i find a rake...... he laughed again and walked inside while i crunched my way in....... mmmmmm, the smell of crunchy leaves!
we watched some movies and then went our own way for the night...... i headed to bed and he picked up a book to read...... he said he'd join me later. in the middle of the night i was awakened by a tossing and turning, very sweaty hot Rich..... i was afraid to wake him up and sure that if i did he wouldn't offer info the way i had earlier..... we both deal with our demons so differently.....
he left the next morning to go for a scuba diving lesson/certification thingy....... on his way out he said i should rake up some leaves and burn them in the wire bin..... knowing how much i love the smell.... it be relaxing - he said...... he'd call me when he got a chance........... off he went.
i sat on the front stoop and just ... well... just sat there. i listened.... i thought about the night before.... my explosion of info at the dinner table..... all the 'poor me' spewing from my mouth...... but, as i sat there Sunday morning i realized that there were other parts of my childhood that i'd forgotten.... like the sound leaves make falling through the trees....... and, the sound of nothing at all.........
i went for a walk and found myself wanting to share so much more. this time i wanted to point out the bird in the tree....... the bunny hopping to safety........ the picture postcard view across the river.... i was alone still at that point. i think that's when i started to wonder if being alone is really all it's cracked up to be.......
i want to share...... not things like i shared at dinner... but, the sounds of leaves falling..... dogs barking at bunnies and squirrels......... i want to share the beauty I SEE through MY EYES..........
last weekend was it for October......... it was a beautiful month..... thank you for sharing it with me...........
kisses for ALL of you.............. jami