NOTE::: this was written early on in my journal writing career........ it actually talks about the job that i've almost forgot i still have! hehehe. i just pulled it out of some dusty journals i found and thought i'd post it as a reminder that IT CAN WAIT! i mean really....... i have so much to look forward to when i get back!
kisses.......... j
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TAKE 3
Three strikes your out
Three's a crowd
3.............
I have started over here three times now. I began intent on convincing you that I never meant for this to be a sounding board for all of the things in my life that suck right now........ but then i'd have to make a list of all of them and try to prioritize it and i'd certainly be too crazy in the end to write....
Ok, what about my dream lastnight. Not that I'm a dream interpreter but, gees, what's the deal with having ONE dream involving Garrison Keeler, Michael Jordan, and my Dad getting a hole-in-one while chasing down the people who stole the golf ball that MJ autographed for me when he just happened to stop by my apartment to say hi. But, I ran the dream by some of my co-workers and they seemed to think that it was a bit too much information for only the 3rd or 4th entry here...........
What now? The truth is..... I can't seem to focus on much other than the fact that I'm being taken advantage of by my bosses at work.... I know, I know....
.......... did i happen to mention that i found out today that my boss is a Virgo?
As soon as my mother picks herself up off the floor I'll explain why this is a big deal.
It's just that my father, my ex-husband, and the last boyfriend that I managed to keep for more than 6 months have ALL been Virgos. And now, my boss, the man who signs MY paycheck tells me - no offers the information to me - that he is a VIRGO. It wasn't enough that he has failed to compensate me for all the add work I've taken on since the last boss I had (who worked for him) decided to just walk-out one day (for good). It's not important that he promised to get a temp for me to handle some of the little piddley-diddley tasks of my job to leave me free to concentrate on the IMPORTANT issues.... and now, without telling me, decided that maybe that temp could wait........ NONONONONO.... it's not important because he is a VIRGO. I should expect things like that from him...................
OKOKOK, let me back up a bit.... my father is a wonderful man. In fact, he would be the ONE redeeming quality of all the wonderful things VIRGOs stand for in my life! *hmmm* I'm not going to thrill you with all the exciting traits.... I won't even tell you what the books say a Virgo-Cancer work relationship has in store for itself. Nope, actually, I'll probably make this short....... I guess what really scares me the most is that my boss - this little short, round, bald accountant-like type man - offered - this information to me.... Like I needed to know this........ I mean, he's nearly 70 and he offered the information to me. And if that isn't traumatizing enough, HHheeee wanted to know what sign I AM. Aaaaaahhhh!
True, I've always considered it quite a cowinkie-dink that most men in my life have been August 23 - September 22 babies but, now, LIFE IS REEAAALLLLYYYYY BEGINNING TO TAKE SHAPE.
No wonder I feel under-appreciated at work...... No wonder it seems like no one is paying attention to me.... No wonder, at times, I feel like my boss is having a "father-daughter" talk with me instead of talking to me like i'm a grown, mature, educated woman (sorry Dad, no offense :o) No wonder Sid's (my boss) clothes never match (wow, i'm really racking up points for myself tonight - huh?). This is a plot.... someone, somewhere, doesn't like me. Of this I am sure!
So.... do I close up shop.... pack up my little beanie babies and pictures of Michael Jordan and Derek Jeter and head for higher ground? What now?
** Well, the ONE THING I can take comfort in - is this: Of ALL the men in the world - Virgo or not - there isn't any one of them who I feel can hold a candle to all the accomplishments of my father! Yeah, yeah, yeah, you've heard testimonies like this before - I know.... But check this out!!! My Dad retired after putting 30+ years of his life into educating Gdog people. Thirty of those years at the same high school -- not a lot more honorable professions than that......
** Plus, he not only played Jazz in New Orleans when it was HOT to play Jazz in New Orleans... he actually was lucky enough to have a personal (one-on-one) conversation with THE Louie Armstrong. How many of us have had the opportunity to see our favorite band play live - let a lone have a one-on-one (NO ONE ELSE AROUND) with the lead??
** And, the most important of all..... with the much appreciated help of my Mother, (ie; they actually worked TOGETHER - what a concept) he was able to provide for a family of four AND (you should sit down for this one) he is STILL married to the very first woman he ever married --- 40 years ago this November.
*shrug* Maybe i'm making too much out of the fact that as a professional I feel doomed because my boss is a Virgo. After all... he could be a "good guy" type - and that would be a good thing. However, compared to my idea of a "good guy" I'm guessing he isn't.....
kisses............ j