My life is kinda weird right now.

my brain is learning to hook up the right way - again - every morning..... i wake up and i have to lay there for a few and figure out what the hell is going on..........

the doctors tell me it'll take 4 - 6 weeks before i begin to feel any differently... i don't think they realize that i don't have that much time.... i'm losing out on life right now and i don't want to........

i keep having this dream.... every other night or so about someone.... i know him but i don't actually recognize him - so i can't tell you who he is... it's just that the dream is so fucking real to me. it frightens me. i want to write about it or just write the dream down here and send it out to all of you but..... everytime i sit down to type it out it disaapears.... i know it's best that way. it's not something i should probably hold on to.

or is it????

while i was in the hospital i had to do some music therapy. there was a guy there who was just totally hung up on 80s music...... not a bad thing i guess. at least it wasn't Elvis (smile). one morning he requested a song i hadn't heard since my junior year in high school (believe me that's a long time ago). SUDDENLY, my circuits went into gear and my brain was hookin' up! I realized that this was it.... it was my dream.....

so now, i share it with you.........

Here we stand
Worlds apart, Hearts broken in two
Sleepless nights
Losing ground
i'm reaching for you

Feelin' that it's gone
can you change your mind
if we can't go on
to survive the tide - love divides

Someday love will find you
Break those chains that bind you
One night will remind you
How we touched
and went our separate ways

Troubled times
Caught between confusion and pain
Distant eyes
Promises we made were in vain

If you must go, i wish you love
you'll never walk alone
take care my love
miss you love

I still love you girl
I really love you girl
And if he ever hurts you
True love won't desert you